THE Virtuous Wife: OR, THE HOLY LIFE OF Mrs. ELIZABTH WALKER, Late Wife of A. Walker, D. D. sometime Rector of Fyfield in Essex.  
Giving a modest and short Account of her Exemplary PIETY and CHARITY.  
Published for the Glory of God, and provoking others to the like Graces and Virtues.  
With some useful PAPERS and LETTERS writ by her on several Occasions.  
London, Printed for N. R. and sold by J. Robinson, A. and J. Churchill, J. Taylor, and J. Wyat. 1694.   

To the Honoured Friends of my late Dear Wife, for whose sake chief these things are Written.  
Much honoured Christian Friends,  
THough when I first set upon this Work, I designed to thrust it forth into the World without any Address farther than the short Introduction with which I began it, yet when I had finished it I judged it not amiss to premise these few things following; partly by way of Advertisement, partly by way of Apology.  
First by way of Advertisement.  
1. That all I relate as hers, as written, or spoken, or done by her, were exactly hers, not feigned or pretended to be so. I have not writ her Life as the Roman Historians did the Lives of their Great Men and Heroes, made Speeches for them, and put Words into their Mouths, rather fit to be spoken by Men of their Figure and Character, than really spoken by them.  
But all that's Commaed in the Margin is transcribed, verbatim, from her Writings, which I have showed to many Witnesses, and am ready to show to any Friend, who shall desire it. And what is related as spoken, is her Words, as near as my Memory could retain them, at so many Years distance; always the true sense and substance of what she spoke; and which was oft heard by many, besides myself.  
2. The things she wrote she could not have the least prospect they should ever see the public light; and therefore did not dress them up, to appear with the best advantage she could have given them.  
3. That she was a plain, private Woman, and conversed only with obscure Persons of low Degree, not to say, as contemptible as ourselves, unless it were now and then, a day or two in a Year some Persons of Honour might vouchsafe her their Conversation, and therefore just Allowances are to be made, and too raised an Expectation ought not to be brought to the Perusal of what is offered; if it be useful to Persons of her Level, it may suffice, and others ought to exceed her as much in their Improvements as they do in their Advantages to be improved, and their Opinions of themselves above her.  
4. Though some Phrases occur in her Papers or Letters more than once, and may seem Tautologies now they are put so close together into one piece, yet had not the least shadow of being so, being written at so many Years distance upon such different Occasions, and to divers Persons.  
5. Lastly, I pretend not to satisfy those who relish nothing but the flashes of frothy Wit, elegansie of Elaborate Periods, and a Chime of fine Words, and modish new Notions; but for solid, experienced Christians who desire to exercise themselves unto Godliness, and expect what may encourage and assist them thereto, I humbly hope they may meet an Entertainment which will not make repeated Perusal dis-agreeable to them, or think their Labour lost.  
For Apology, I know it is better not to need any, than to be able to make the best.  
Yet two Apologies seem needful for myself, one for attempting the Work, the other for performing it no better.  
For the first, some know, though I forbear to mention, what put me upon the Resolution, and I think might be allowed as a fair Excuse.  
Admitting it useful, it must be done by myself, or the World have lost the Benefit of it.  
And for the avoiding an Envidious Suspicion, that I design my own Honour behind the Curtain, and would slily steal a Reputation under Pretence of paying her Name a just Tribute of deserved Praise. I know the best way to break the dint of a Blow is to latch it, and meet it halfway, and I could more than almost spoil such Objections by preventing them, and making them as piquant and stinging as any would screw them up to be; but when all is done, there is no Fence against Illwill, but obligingly to declare, I hope I shall meet with none, or unconcernedly, that I pity and despise its feeble impotency; and if any will say, not so rudely as the Captain concerning the young Prophet sent to anoint Jehu, Wherefore came this mad Fellow? 2 Kings 9.11. Yet what means this vain Man to write the Life of his own Wife, and thereby insinuate, etc. Jehu's Answer for him shall suffice me for myself to you, (for, and to whom I writ,) You know the Man and his Communication.  
2. Why I have performed it no better? To which I reply first, if I have done it as well as I could, it is my Infelicity more than my Fault that it is performed no better.  
3. That if I could have adorned it better, yet some Circumstances may excuse its appearing as it doth.  
The truth is I begun it in haste, and with some precipitancy, not foreseeing it would grow up into so great a Bulk or Length; and that I might dispatch it quickly, began the Impression as soon as a Sheet was ready, and so was forced to keep pace with the Press, that I could not alter or correct a Line, nor lick the rudest Features into a better Shape, either for Method or Language, nor transcribe a Page, or add to the first flow of my Thoughts or Pen. 'Tis said indeed, That Honey is the purest which flows of its own accord, without pressing of the Combs, (yet even that needs clarifying;) but that Ink is the palest, and most faint, which swims at the Top, and is poured out without much shaking of the Bottle. If what I have written this hasty Treatise with be censured as such, I cannot help it now; I writ most of it at London, or Chelsy, and the whole in the midst of many Diversions; that it is in a great measure an heap, not only of first Thoughts, but of sudden ones.  
And had I had opportunity of a strict review of the whole, some things I would have retrenched that are Minute, more I would have added very weighty, most might have been expressed more politely; yet, take it with all its disadvantages, though it may be defective in the Ornamental part of its Dress, it is not so in the Substantial part of its Truth, which is more than the Ornament, the Life and Soul of History, and with the ordinary measure of Candour, which I reckon myself bound to allow to others when I read their Labours; this may pass in the Crowd, and prove neither despicable nor useless, which is all that is begged or expected, and I promise myself shall not be denied by you my much honoured Friends, to  
Your very Humble Servant, Anthony Walker. May 10. 1690.   

THE CONTENTS.  

THE Introduction. pag. 3  
SECT. I. Of her Birth and Parentage. pag. 5 

An Account of her Book, out of which most is transcribed, concerning ourselves and Children.  
Time and Place of her Birth. pag. 9  
Her Parents.  
Her Father's early Prudence, and a strange overruling Providence, which brought him to be a Citizen, which was the spring and occasion of many consequent Mercies to her and others. pag. 10  
The tenderness of her Spirit when a Child. pag. 13  
A great fault she was guilty of when young, which was turned to her benefit in future Caution. pag. 14  
Her Father's great Care of her, and Confidence in her. pag. 15    
SECT. II. How she was first awakened to a deep Sense of Religion by Temptation. pag. 17 

The first Onset by a blasphemous suggestion. pag. 18  
How she overcame the Temptation to Atheism. pag. 19  
Her long struggling with Temptation, and the first glimpse of Comfort. pag. 20  
Kept half a Year by it without sleep, or very little. pag. 22  
Means of her Recovery, and some gradual Relief; of which she hath an excellent Passage. pag. 24  
Yet she suffered renewed Onsets. pag. 25    
SECT. III. Of our Marriage; remarkable Passages concerning it. pag. 27  
SECT. iv Her Life in concise Epitome. pag. 30  
SECT. V How she spent a Day. pag. 32 

Rose constantly at Four of the Clock. Spent two hours with God in secret.  
An account of the rest till bedtime. pag. 41    
SECT. VII. (For the number Six is omitted by the Printer) How she spent a Week. ibid. 

Her exact circumspection, in sanctifying the Lord's Day. Her whole method in it, to Page 44  
Monday Mornings Prayers for the Church of God, which she constantly observed with great Zeal and Charity, both for all the Foreign Churches and our own for many years, ever after she had been informed of that commendable Custom set up in so many Families quite through the Nation. ibid.  
Constantly spent Friday, the Passion-day, in Fasting and Prayer; or if she foresaw Diversion unavoidable on that day, chose one before it. pag. 48    
SECT. VIII. How she spent a Year: Where are set down the Heads of the following Sections. pag. 49  
SECT. IX. Her Character as a Wife. pag. 51 

— In time of Health, to Page 55  
— In times of being Sick, to Page 61    
SECT. X. Of her Lyings-in in Childbearing. ibid.  
SECT. XI. Of the Baptising our Children. Her very commendable Practice on that occasion. pag. 64  
SECT. XII. Her Care of the Education of her Children. pag. 66 to pag. 82 

I give no touch at the Particulars of this long Section, because I arnestly recommend the reading of the whole often over, as being very Exemplary and useful.    
SECT. XIII. Of monthly Sacraments. Her constant Communicating, and serious Preparation. pag. 82  
SECT. XIV. Of her Writings. pag. 84  
SECT. XV. Discreet management of her Family. pag. 86  
SECT. XVI. Visitations by Sickness on ourselves, or some of our Children. pag. 92 to pag. 115  
This is so large, and hath so many exemplary passages of indefatigable Watch, fervent Prayers, gracious Answers, humble Submission to God, that I leave them to the Reader's own Observation.  
SECT. XVII. Renewed Assaults of her Enemy by Temptation. pag. 115 

The usual Seasons of which were Indispositions of Mind by Sorrow, or of Body by Sickness. pag. 116    
Her Methods of Resisting, 

1. Conference with Experienced Christians.  
2. Reading suitable Books.  
3. Entering her solemn protest against them under her hand, in appeal to God, which you find, Page 119. with this Title, In time of Temptation writ by me Elizabeth Walker; followed with a most devout pathetic Prayer.    
SECT. XVIII. Friends she used to pray for by name, and the form of Prayer in which. pag. 123  
I name those in the Body of the Prayer, but omit to name them in the Margin, above Thirty Heads of Families, not being set down in order, according to their Qualities.  
SECT. XIX. Some trying Calamities on the Nation, on Friends or Family, and signal Deliverance from Dangers. pag. 126 

The great Plague, and the number that died. ibid.  
The Fire, the number of Churches and Houses burnt. pag. 127  
Other Afflictions on particular Friends. pag. 12●  
On ourselves. pag. 129 to pag. 13●    
SECT. XX. Of our going to Tunbridge-Wells. ibid. 

My reasons of writing on it. How she made that plac● of Divertisement and Hurry, a place of Retirement an● Vacancy to Devotion. to pag. 14●    
SECT. XXI. Of keeping our Wedding-day, and Entertainment of our Friends. ibid.  
SECT. XXII. Of the Marriage of our only Daughter and her Death in Childbirth the same Year, yet leaving a Son. pag. 148. 'Tis no wonder she wrote so much of he● own, who used not to pass by what concerned others, 〈◊〉 the Lady Mary Rich, and the Lady Essex Rich, the●● Marriages, with a devout Prayer for each. pag. 149. Th●● is a large Section, most transcribed from her own Papers, full of most excellent Devotion, and humble Submission to God's smarty blow, to pag. 161. And then 〈◊〉 most pathetic tenderness to the Dear Child. pag. 16●  
SECT. XXIII. Acts and Kind's of her great Charity ibid. 

An account how it might be called her Charity, though she were a Wife, and great Charity by which sh● gave, though all she had to give were, in truth, but little.  
I allowed her what my small Estate would afford, all she gave of that was properly her own Charity, and mine also, in several respects, might properly be called here's, to pag. 171.  
She gave considerably more every Year out of her allowance, than she spent upon herself.  
She would buy Cloth from London by the whole piece to Cloth the Poor, cause strong Linsey-woolsey to be made, to give away; employ the Poor who wanted Work; never buy any thing too cheap of the Poor People, etc. was bountiful to her poor Relations. pag. 175  
Yet never reproached herself or me, by a sordid garb but secured her own decency with great Prudence, while she relieved the Poor with great Charity. pag. 176  
Her Charity in Pains was next to that of her Purse, in getting and using her skill in Physic and Chirurgery, and Women labouring with Child. pag. 180  
Her forgiving Charity. pag. 181  
Her Moderation towards them who were not of the same Communion. pag. 182 to pag. 185    
SECT. XXIV. Of her care to promote God's Glory and the Salvation of Souls. pag. 185  
SECT. XXV. Several Graces in which she was most Eminent. pag. 188. Knowledge, Faith, Charity, Patience, Sympathy with others, pity to the Poor Repentance. Reverential Fear of God, Love, Obedience, Sincerity, Modesty, Courage, Meekness, Contentedness, Thankfulness, Tenderness of Conscience, Improvement of Time, Zeal, Humility. from pag. 188 to pag. 209  
Her Sickness and Death. pag. 210  
The APPENDIX. pag. 232  
Directions to her Children concerning Prayer. pag. 214 to pag. 223  
Some Heads of Prayer form according to those Directions pag. 224  
Marks of a Regenerate Estate. pag. 229 to pag. 233  
A Consolatory Letter written to the Right Honourable Isabel Countess of Radnor, upon the surprising Death of her dearly-beloved Daughter, the Lady Essex Specot. pag. 234 to pag. 246  
Another Consolatory Letter, written to a good Christian Friend under Trouble. pag. 246  
An account of the Care she took of young Scholars which came to live in my Family, pag. 247. As it should be, though misprinted pag. 227.  
Two Letters, in part, which she wrote to one of them, to stir him up to Faithfulness in his Ministry. pag. 250  
A good Letter to a Country Farmer, who Married her Kinswoman, which I hope may be useful to all my plain Parishioners. pag. 258  
A very large, but excellent Letter, writ to her dear Grandchild, about two Months before she died, which I hope may be very useful to young Gentlemen of the like Age. pag. 270  
The Conclusion. pag. 296    

It is not needful to run over the whole, to amend the Mis-printings, which are not many, nor great. Prayers for Praises; Amnestry for Amnesty; revenerable for venerable; Glassock for Glascock, pag. 258. and a few like, are all I remember, and some Mis-pointings.   

THE HOLY LIFE OF Mrs Elizabeth Walker.  

The INTRODUCTION.  
I Am not so short sighted, as not to foresee the Censures I may expose myself to, by this Undertaking, especially if it fall into the Hands of such, as are prone to make sinister Interpretations of other men's Actions, and receive with the left hand, what is most innocently offered with the right.  
Yet considering it would be very ill becoming that endeared Affection I always bore to her living, and own to her precious memory now God hath bereft me of her, to balk a Duty, and neglect an Office, which may be as useful to others, as kind to her, upon such fears: I shall freely run that hazard, to perpetuate her Memory with just Honour, and deserved Praise; but principally to glorify God for that abundant Grace vouchsafed to her, and to carry on that Work her Heart was so intensely set upon; that is, the promoting God's Interest in the World, and the good of Souls. That the Bushel of unkind silence, and sudden forgetfulness may not be whelmed over so burning and shining a Light, whose Heat and Lustre may warm and enlighten others, though set upon so low a Candlestick, as my hasty Pen must place it on.  
I willingly wave an obvious Preface, of the usefulness and efficacy of good Examples, to enlarge on which, it may elsewhere appear, I am not wholly unfurnished, because I design the concisest brevity; and for the same reason I shall pass by what concerned her in all other regards, but those the Title Page suggests, or touch them no farther than seems necessary for decency and order sake, to introduce what I mainly and indeed solely design in this Essay, that those who read it, may more fully know of whom these things are spoken. To effect which, I shall begin with an Account of her Parentage and Birth, left under her own hand.   

SECT. I. Of her Birth and Parentage.  
BEfore the Transcribing of which, I shall premise thus much concerning her Papers, from which I am chief furnished for this work. I sometimes coming into her Chamber, when she was Writing, she would slide her Book or Papers into the Drawer of the Table on which she wrote; and this having happened several times, she one day, on the like occasion, bespoke me thus;  
My Dear, let me beg one promise from thee; Which when I had assented to, having demanded what it was, she replied, That I would never look into the Books and Papers in that Drawer, so long as she lived. So tender was she rather to improve her time well, than to have it known, even to myself, how well she spent it. Which promise, as she fully acquiesced in, was on my part most faithfully made good.  
Since her Death, amongst her many most useful, excellent, and pious Writings, I found a large Book in Octavo, of the best Paper she could buy, neatly bound, gilded, and ruled with red, provided for the use to which she so well employed it.  
On the second Page of which I find thus written; Elizabeth Walker her Book, all writ with my own hand, though the Character doth vary, I striving to write a little deeper, my sight growing weaker; I say, there is not one Syllable, which I have not writ with my own hand.  
In this Book, from the beginning at one end, in about two third parts of it, are written many excellent Instructions and religious Directions, for the use of her two Daughters, who were then living, to teach them how to serve God acceptably, and promote the Salvation of their Souls: Which I shall have occasion oft to refer to, and to transcribe many Passages out of it, in the sequel.  
The other End bears this Title; Some Memorials of God's Providences to my Husband, Self, and Children.  
Then she gins thus; My Husband was born, etc. and so gives a very exact Account of my Parentage, Family, Education, and many signal Mercies and Diliverances vouchsafed me before she knew me, of which she had informed herself at several times, by inquiries of me, and Discourses with me, I suppose to inform our Children after us, That the Generation to come might know them, even the Children which should be born, who should arise and declare them to their Children: That they might set their hope in God, and not forget the works of God; but keep his Commandments: As the Psalmist speaks, Psal. lxxviij. 6, 7. And after every one of them testifies the sense of a very pious grateful Mind, in such Expressions as these; Blessed be God for his Mercy to him then, and in his farther goodness to me therein— for which merciful Providence I bless God— Blessed be God that upheld him in it, and delivered him from it, etc.  
I can scarce obtain of myself to add more on this Head, yet begging the Candour of the Christian Reader, I will venture to subjoin the last Passage, which in this Paragraph concerns myself, because it savours no less of pious Gratitude to God, than most endearing kindness toward me.  
When he was ready to commence Master of Arts, good Bishop Brownrigg commended him to worthy Doctor Gauden, to teach Mrs. Mary Lukenor, Dr. Gauden's Wife's Daughter, who was afterward the Wife of my Lord Townsend, and died Childless. After Three Years spent in that Employment, and assisting Dr. Gauden in the Ministry at Bocken, my Dear came to be Household Chaplain to the good and noble Right Honourable Robert Earl of Warwick, at Leezes, where he received many Mercies; the chief to be esteemed, the Crown God was pleased to give to his Ministry, in the Conversion of the then Lady Mary Rich, since the Right Honourable Countess of Warwick: A most incomparable Woman in all Ornaments of Nature and Grace, and his most sincere and entire Friend, whom I beseech God in his infinite Goodness to preserve, and crown with all his Mercies.  
Excuse the pathoes of a grateful Mind, which cannot refrain crying out concerning these two holy Women. Never Man had better Friend than the one, or better Wife than the other. Blessed be my gracious God for his great Kindness to me in them both.  
After Three Years continuance in that Family, upon the Death of Dr. Read, my Lord presented my Dear to Fyfield in Essex, a competent good Living and Subsistence, blessed be God for it. Good Lord crown his Ministry there, with the Success of the Conversion and Bringing in their Souls to the Obedience and Knowledge of Jesus Christ. Give him abundance of the Graces of thy Holy Spirit, and store his Heart with the Treasuries of thy heavenly Truths, and continue my Dear Husband a faithful, painful, able Labourer in thy Vineyard.  
If what I have thus far touched may savour of any Vanity, the modesty of what I have passed over may excuse the Error, at least to them who may see the Original Manuscript.  
Now to return to her of whom I writ; she proceeds,  
I was Born at London, in Bucklersbury, on Thursday the 12th. of July, in the Year of our Lord 1623., and Baptised the 20th. Day of the same Month. The Lord vouchsafing me a reception into the visible Church of Jesus Christ, when he most justly might have suffered no Eye to pity me, but have cast me out, to the loathing of my Person, in my original Defilement, and Stains of my sinful Nature. But to my first admittance, good Lord, enable me to ascend, that being a Member of thy Church militant here on Earth, I may attain to be one of thy Church triumphant in Heaven  
My Dear Father was Mr. John Sadler, a very Eminent Citizen, and of a most generous, loving, and charitable Disposition; and a most tender Father to me, and a kind Father-in-Law to my Husband. He was born at Stratford upon Avon in Warwickshire, where his Ancestors lived.  
My Grandfather had a good Estate in and about the Town. He was of a free and noble Spirit, which somewhat outreached his Estate, but not given to any Debauchery I ever heard of.  
My Father's Mother was a very wise, pious, and a good Woman, and lived and died a good Christian.  
My Father had no Brother, but three Sisters, who were all eminently Wise and good Women, especially his youngest Sister, who married my Father's Partner in Trade; a religious good Man.  
In process of time my Father was desired to change his single estate; accordingly a Match was provided for him, but he, by God's Providence, approved not of it.  
His Father then provided him good Clothes, good Horse, and Money in his Purse, and sent him to make his Addresses to a Gentlewoman in that Country. But he considering well how difficult a married Condition was like to prove, his Father having reduced his Estate from about 400 l. a Year to 80. His own Prudence, but especially God's good Providence overruling his mind, instead of going a Wooing he joined himself to the Carrier, and came to London, where he had never been before, and sold his Horse in Smithfield; and having no Acquaintance in London to recommend him, or assist him, he went from Street to Street, and House to House, ask if they wanted an Apprentice; and though he met with many discouraging Scorns, and a thousand denials, he went on, till he light on Mr. Brokes bank, a Grocer in Bucklersbury; who though he long denied him, for want of Sureties for his Fidelity, and because the Money he had (but Ten Pounds) was so disproportionable to what he used to receive with Apprentices, yet upon his discreet account he gave of himself, and the Motives which put him upon that Course, and promise to compensate with diligent and faithful Service, what ever else was short of his Expectation, he ventured to receive him upon Trial, in which he so well approved himself, that he accepted him into his Service, to which he bond him for Eight Years, to which he willingly submitted, though he was then full Twentyone Years old; and there he served a faithful and laborious Apprenticeship, but much liked of his Master and Mistress: And after served him Five Years Journeyman; they not being willing to part with him. In which time he had his Master's leave to Trade for himself in Drugs and Tobacco, by which he left Grocery, and was by Trade a Druggist in London. And by that Profession God blessed my dear Father with a very plentiful and good Estate, with which God gave him a bountiful Mind, and liberal Heart, to do much good to his Relations, and others.  
My Dear Mother, Mrs. Elizabeth Sadler, was the Daughter of Mr. Dackum, sometimes Minister of Portsmouth. Also my Grandmother Dackum was a very wise and prudent Woman.  
In my Infancy I was very sickly, and of a weakly Constitution. Blessed be God for the Love and Care of Parents and Friends in my Childhood Estate.  
She was her Parents first Born, after Five Years Marriage, and despair of having Children, which rendered them exceeding tender of her; and yet was she well nigh starved at Nurse, at Lusam in Kent: For though her Parents sent so bountifully, besides the Nurse's Wages, as might near maintain the Family, yet have they found the Meat they sent ready to stink, for want of dressing.  
In my fuller Age I was of a pensive Nature God saw it good that I should bear the yoke in my Youth, but I did not consider the hand that put it on.  
When I was Young the Lord was pleased to deliver me from many Casualties. After naming them she always concludes with Praises— Blessed be his preventing Mercy— Blessed be God that preserved me in that danger— And such like.  
If St. Augustin's confessing of his robbing an Orchard be so much approved, why may not I touch so small a thing as I meet with here, which shows the tenderness of her Spirit?  
When I was a Child, my Mother would send me where she less trusted my Sisters: In what I might fail, I cannot call to mind; but I remember she sent me where she kept her Apples; they suited my childish Appetite, I took one, I could not keep it, but thought I had stole it; I went back, unlocked the Door, but with some regret laid down the Apple. Blessed be restraining Grace.  
But I must pass over a great many things for brevity, which might be useful unto others, and are very pleasant to myself in reading, for the savoury sense of pious Gratitude which all along breaths in them; yet I will not hid the greatest fault I ever knew her guilty of, in my own observation, or find her charge herself with, either in her Book or Diary.  
Having written many things which I pass by, and last concerning the burning of her Father's House, she thus proceeds. About half a year after the Fire (which was when she was about Thirteen or Fourteen years old) my Father had a great fit of sickness, which held him a quarter of a year, and in great danger of Death: In which time of his sickness, I, poor wretched Creature, through a sudden surprise and provocation, spoke a wicked word to a superior, of which my Father was informed, and most justly very angry with me. I being exceedingly afraid, and ashamed to confess what or to whom I had spoke, dreading my Father's displeasure, denied it. Good Lord pardon this Transgression, with the aggravations of it. O Lord, I thank thee for thy patience, forbearance and longsufferance extended to me. Thou mightest most justly have stopped my corrupt breath, and allowed me neither space nor time of Repentance. I beseech thee with this abhorred provocation, forgive all my relative Sins. Good Lord pardon my Sins of Childhood, Youth, riper Age, single estate, married condition, wheresoever, whensoever, against whomsoever committed; that they may not shame me in this world, nor confound me before thee, when I shall appear at thy Tribunal.  
The abhorrency she had of this fault was so great, that I firmly believe she never knowingly spoke an untruth after to her dying day. So gracious, faithful and able is our good God to bring Good out of Evil, and by setting home the smart of one Sin, to prevent the committing of the like for ever after.  
After many passages of God's goodness and her Father's indulgent kindness to her, which I omit, I meet with this evidence of her Father's confidence in her Prudence and Integrity; That keeping a petty Cash for him of an Hundred Pounds or more, he would not so much as read over the particulars charged, as disbursed for herself, but would say, Pray thee take at any time what thou needest: By which freedom, I bless God, I was not made lavish, but more sparing. Lord, I bless thee for the indulgent Care and Love of a Parent. How much more wilt thou give good things to them that ask thee? and no good thing wilt thou withhold from them that walk uprightly.  
My Dear Father was very tender of me, and in time of the Civil Wars sent me to Ipswich for my safety, where I stayed a Year and a Quarter; in which time a Gentleman of a good Estate in Land, and a Merchant by Profession, had a great Kindness for me, one whom, in the best of my thoughts, I did then approve; but in the extension of God's goodness to me, in preventing my future disappointment, as to things of this Life, by a strange overruling Providence my Father slighted that offer; two or three Years after the Gentleman decayed in his Estate by great Losses at Sea.  
About a Year after my return from Ipswich I went into Warwickshire, to Stratford, in both which places I acknowledge I did not improve that vacancy as I might to better Advantages, but squandered it away vainly, and in idle Visits, not providing for Eternity with my time. Lord pardon my neglects.  
Whilst here, a Gentleman of a very considerable Estate was very importunate with me for my liking; but though his Estate was a great Temptation to me, I could not fancy his Person. God's goodness reserving for me my best Choice.  
Having thus run over with what brevity I could what is but Prefatory to my main design, and for that end been forced to omit many things well-worthy to have been taken notice of, I shall make nearer approaches to what I chief propounded to myself; which is, to represent, though in too faint Colours, the amiable Beauty of that resplendent Holiness and signal Chatity, with which the God of all Grace, to whom be all the Glory, vouchsafed to adorn this blessed Soul.   

SECT. II. How she was first awakened to a deep sense of Religion by Temptation.  
AND because great and weighty Fabrics, require deep and strong Foundations, that they may stand firm and last; that God whose work is perfect, thought good to use that method towards her. He suffered her weary Soul to be dug deep and long, with sore and great Temptations. And as 'tis usually said, a Storm makes a Mariner, a Battle a Soldier, and Temptation makes a Christian. She was certainly an excellent Christian; and to render her such, she was long buffeted with horrid satanical Suggestions, and blasphemous Temptations; which not only made her go mourning all the day long, but many Months and Years; and not only those fiery and envenomed Darts drank up her Spirits, but brought her Life to the gates of the Grave, and her distressed Soul to the gates of Hell.  
I shall, for the comfort and support of others who may fall into the like Distress, give the account of it, as set down by her own Pen, which may at least relieve them against one difficulty which oppressed her very heavily; that is, she thought her case to be singular, and that never any had been in the like condition; and one of the first glimpses of comfort which shone into her dark Soul, was from her good Aunt's acquainting her, that she had had experience of the like Trials.  
When I had been at home about half a Year I grew Melancholy, occasioned by some discontent, which God was pleased to cure with a smart Corrosive, through suffering Satan to take advantage of that humour; which affliction swallowed up all my other troubles.  
I going to Prayer, according to my usual custom, before I kneeled down, by an outward action of my Hand, which was in itself very innocent, and at that time not irreverent, farther than the Devil made it so, by casting a blasphemous suggestion into my mind, which looked very hideously upon me: But, notwithstanding, I prayed without farther molestation at that time. I cannot remember what notice I took of the Temptation in my Prayer; but when I had ended my Prayer, my Enemy fiercely assaulted me: I could neither see any thing, nor hear, or do any thing, but evil Motions were forced into my mind; and though I besought the Lord, more than thrice, I could not be free from that affliction.  
Sometimes, through my dark and cloudy fancy, I had temptations that there was no God, which was very vexatious to me. And I, impatient of it, desired to apprehend a God, all Vengeance and Terror, rather than no God at all.  
But the Lord was pleased to obviate that Temptation by my meditating on the Creation. My Father much loved Flowers, and, as the Season of the Year would afford, always had his Flower-Pots standing by him, where he sat writing in his Shop, but then were above in the Parlour window, to which I often went, to countermine my Temptation, in admiring the curious Works of the God of Nature. With others there was then in flower a Chalcedon Iris, full of the impresses of God's curious workmanship, which the Lord was pleased to make use of to raise my poor heart and thoughts to the admiring and adoring of him. Blessed be God that that Temptation was not above my strength.  
In the time of my extremity, I went to Mr. Watson, a good Man, Minister of Stephen's Walbrook, the Parish wherein we lived. To him I imparted somewhat of my trouble; he strove to comfort me; I found little ease with my burden; it grew more heavy; I repent I had made my condition known.  
I thought my estate to be singular, and that I should hear Books and Ballads cried of me about the streets; though I had not acquainted any with my trouble but only Mr. Watson.  
My Father's Sister, my dear Aunt Quiney, a gracious good Woman, taking notice of my dejected Spirit, she waylaid me in my coming home from the Morning Exercise, then in our Parish. She surprised me with an inquisitive desire to know what I ailed; but I not readily informing her, she asked me if I were not troubled with Temptations. I marvelled at the Question, and then acquainted her with my Affliction. She, from her own experience in the like case, advised me, which for the present was a refreshment to me; for before I was not acquainted with any in the like condition with myself.  
Some little time after my dear Father, taking notice of me that I was not well, but not fully understanding what I ailed, sent for a Physician to me, Dr. Bathurst, who I hope was a good Man; but I was much troubled at his coming, though I knew my Father sent for him in his great care and love to me. The Physician came to me one Morning before I was out of Bed; he perceived my Distemper to be most Dejectedness and Melancholy: With other talk, he discoursed very piously with me. I took the freedom to tell him, I thought I did not need a Physician, and with the expression of my respects, desired him to forbear coming to me; which the good Man did not take ill, but with good counsel left me.  
It pleased the Lord sometimes to refresh me with those Words of the Psalmist, Why art thou cast down, O my Soul, and why art thou disquieted within me? Hope thou in God, for thou shalt yet praise him, who is thy help, and health of thy countenance, and thy God. How sweet is this propriety, my God Lord, where thou givest thyself, thou givest All; and thou who hast showed me great and sore troubles wilt revive me again. Thou hast brought up my Soul from the brink of Hell: Thou wilt keep me alive, that I shall not go down to the pit of Destruction.  
I desired to go from home into the Country to some private good Family, where I had no acquaintance; which when my Father knew, he readily granted my request. My good Aunt understanding my mind, she acquainted Mrs. Watson, our Minister's Wife, a good Woman, with my desire; by which means I went to her Father, Mr. John Beadle, an honest worthy good Man: He was Minister of Banston in Essex.  
My dear Father hired a Coaeh, and went with me to Mr. Beadle's, and with the expression of his tender love, said to me, That I should not want any thing to do me good, to the one half of his Estate. And he was very bountiful in the requital of my receipts in that Family. God's goodness to be acknowledged, my dear Mother then was very kind to me. I lived at Mr. Beadle's half a Year; where I had the fatherly Care, and Counsel, and Prayers of that good Man, with the great love of his Wife, a very good Woman, and very kind to me; and the manifestations of the respects and care of their Children and Servants, in any thing that might tend to my satisfaction and comfort. The Lord requite it to them in spiritual Blessings, with the Mercies of this Life.  
In my continuance at Mr. Beadle's the Lord afforded me, with other opportunities and helps, much time in reading and secret Prayer, which through Grace I strove to improve for spiritual advantage; and humbly hope, for the sake and merits of Christ, remains upon the file of God's Mercy, for fuller returns of Grace.  
For half a Year I do not know that I slept, if I did it was very little; and yet I did not want either sleep or health. Blessed be God for his sustaining and supporting Arm.  
If I desired any thing that was grateful to my Appetite, when it was brought me I durst not make use of it, because I thought it to be the satisfaction of a base sensual Appetite.  
I did eat very sparingly, which, with my much weeping, occasioned me some little inconvenience, which became habitual.  
When I had been at Banston about four months (by God's providence for me) Mr. Beadle exchanged one Lord's-Day with Mr. Walker, than Chaplain to my Lord of Warwick, at Leezes; the first time I saw my dear Husband.  
When I had been at Banston half a Year my Father writ to me as to my coming home; to which I was inclinable, though my Father gave me my liberty: It was in my thoughts, that I was without natural affection.  
Mr. Watson and his Wife being at Mr. Beadle's, and returning to London, I came home in company with them; enjoying more calm of Spirit than when I went from home, I bless God.  
My Troubles wearing off more gradually, which, to my satisfaction I desired, if God had seen it good for me, might have been more signal in the discovery and manifestation of his favour, in my Victory and Conquest of my temptation.  
It is not for me to prescribe or limit the Holy One of Israel. If I may take leave to beg and wait on him, in whom are all my fresh springs, for supply of Grace and Comfort; if the Lord will give to me, his unworthy Creature, in pence and half pence, what in bigger sums he sees fit to bestow on others, that my dependence may be continually on him, I desire to be thankful.  
Lord, if thou wilt not subdue my Enemies at once, yet make them tributaries to thy Glory, and my spiritual advantage; that these Amorites may be hewers of Wood, and drawers of Water, useful to me; that I may see my own deficiency, and thy strength in my weakness: For if thy presence go not with me, I shall soon desert thy cause; and though I may be assaulted, let me not be overcome; but seeing the quarrel is thy own, Lord undertake for me in this my military life here, where there is no cessation of Arms; that I may war a good warfare, that those my Enemies which now affright me, I may see no more for ever: So grant Lord Jesus. Amen, Amen.  
This minds me of that apposite passage in Dan. x. 10, 11. and very applicable to her Case, vers. 9 Daniel was asleep upon his face, with his face toward the ground; then vers. 10 And behold an hand touched me, which set me upon my knees and the palms of my hands; and then, vers. 11. he saith to him, Stand upright. On which place I meet with this Note; The Lord doth not at once restore his Servants from their frailties, that they by gradual comforts may prise every drop of Mercy, beings not quickened all at once when they are mortified; but may be admonished by the remainders of fears and frailties, to keep their hearts humble, and in continual dependence upon God.  
I shall have occasion more than once to touch this doleful string again. 'Tis recorded of our Lord, that when he was Baptised, He was driven of the Spirit into the Wilderness to be tempted of the Devil, and being forty days tempted of him, St. Luke iv. 2. then ver. 13. When the Devil had ended all the temptations, he departed from him for a season. I would be cautiously tender of making comparisons to that Divine Pattern, yet we remember that St. Paul tells us, Rom. viij. 29. Whom God did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the Image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn amongst many Brethren. And the instance of the likeness betwixt Christ and his Brethren is placed, Heb. ij. 18. in being tempted.  
God restrained her Enemy, (as she always called the Devil both in Speech and Writing,) sometimes for shorter, sometimes for longer seasons. Sometimes she hardly stood her ground and kept the field; sometimes she so resisted as to make him fly; and sometimes, though more rarely, by the help of the God of Jacob, who taught her hands to war, and her fingers to fight in this spiritual Combat, (and whom she used to importune to carry on this War at his own charge, because the quarrel was his own,) she obtained signal and triumphant Victories, and in the sense of them was filled with joy unspeakable, and full of Glory; was more than conqueror, through him that loved her, Rom. viij. 37.  
Yet even after these she would complain, that at some distance Beelzebub, the God of Flies, like that restless, impudent, and importunate Creature, would return to Buz, yea, and attempt to blow her mind, especially if there were any sore place found to light on, any small remissness, or bodily infirmity, which abated her vigour to resist or keep him off. But I shall leave at present this more dark and cloudy Scene, and hasten to that which our gracious God of his infinite Goodness rendered so lightsome and comfortable to us both. Blessed be his Mercy for it.   

SECT. III. Of our Marriage.  
WHEN I had been from Mr. Beadle's half a year, and then at Home, my now dear Husband came to my Father's, and, as a consolatory Friend, gave me a visit. Some time after he came again and some Months having passed in more frequent Conversation, God, having determined our mutual love and liking, did graciously, with the approbation of my Friends, consummate our choice in Marriage: For which good Providence I bless God.  
I was married by Mr. Watson at Hammersmith, on July 23, 1650. my Father and my Mother, with other Friends, went with me to Hammersmith. The morning was lowering, with small Rain, and very likely to be a wet day, which was uncomfortable, and much troubled me: But recollecting myself, my Thoughts suggested to me, what's matter for these Clouds, if the Sun of Righteousness shine through them upon us. I had not got to the Waterside, and into the Boat, but the Sun expelled the Clouds to my comfort; it broke forth and shined with that vigour and splendour, that to the best of my observation, which had great impression upon me, I do not know that the Sun disappeared one moment that day, from the first time I saw it, to the going down of it, but was as clear and bright a day as ever my Eyes beheld. Thus God was pleased to condescend to my weakness. Thus far my dear Wife's Peneus  
Let me take the freedom to subjoin. The first visit I made to her, with design to obtain her for my Wife, walking some time alone in her Father's Parlour, in which lay a fair Folio Bible on a Desk; I casually opened it, and the first verse I cast my eye upon was Prov. nineteen. 14. House and Riches are Inheritance of Fathers, and a prudent Wife is from the Lord, which I have many times comfortably reflected on since. To which I'll add another good Omen; When I went to buy a Wedding-ring, the first which was offered to me had this Posy, Joined in one by Christ alone, which I liked so well, I looked no farther, and it fitted so exactly for the size, no care or art could have made it fit. I am so far from putting any great stress on such little matters, that I can say with the Psalmist, I hate those who hold on superstitious vanities; yet let me with due thankfulness remark not the effect, but event and consequent. Our whole married Estate was like the light of the morning when the Sun riseth, even a morning without Clouds, and as clear shining after Rain. And if ever Man was blest with a prudent Wife, I own the deepest acknowledgements to him that gave me that choice Mercy.  
For though God sometimes did us the honour to suffer his own Enemies to declare themselves ours, he oft convinced them, always restrained them, that they could not considerably hurt us. And when unkind Envy hath levelled at us, it rather recoiled than hit the mark. Blessed be our defence, and the God of our Mercies. And for the constancy of mutual Affection, if we sometimes differed in small matters, we never disagreed, or once closed our Eyes to sleep in Thirty nine years seven months in discontent, or under dissatisfaction on either part. So graciously did he who joined our hands and hearts turn our Water into Wine, not only on our Marriage-day, but till the mournful period of it. Blessed be his loving Kindness for it.  
We were in great danger of a short conjugal Society, as will appear from what next follows.  
When we were first married we lived the first Year at Croyden in Surry, with much love of the People, and with other Expressions of kindness, their great unwillingness to part with us, my Husband's Ministry being very desirable to them. The very next week after I was married, there happened a contageous Disease at Croyden, occasioned by the Nastiness and Stench of the Prisoners, the Assizes being then kept there, of which Disease both the Judges, some of the Justices, and many Inhabitants died; my Husband preached at the Assize; he was both with the Prisoners and the Sick, yet God spared him for farther use for his Glory. He had some degree of the Disease, but, I bless God, it went off with Sweeting, and some other helps, at my Father's House in London, from whence we were not then fully removed.   

SECT. iv Her Life in a concise Epitome.  
IF I may hitherto seem to any to have forgot my Text, I mean my Title Page, I beg their pardon, if they think I need it. I shall in what remains keep closer to it, and might draw her lively Effigies in Miniture, with a Scripture Pencil, and with few touches truly represent her Icon. Such as these, To her to live was Christ, and to die was gain. The life she lived in the flesh, she lived by the faith of the Son of God. Her life was hid with God in Christ. Her life was a continual Warfare against her restless Enemy. Her life was a course which she so ran, that she might obtain. Her life was a daily Meditation on Death, and serious preparation for it. Her life was to follow after peace with men, as much as in her lay, and holiness, that she might see God. Her life was the gainful Trade, to sell all to purchase the Pearl of invaluable price, and buy that oil which might fill her vessel, and feed her trimmed lamp, to meet the bridegroom of her Soul. Her life was to be so employed, that when her Lord came, he might say to her, Well done good and faithful servant, enter thou into thy master's joy. In a word, her life was to live Holily, that she might die Happily, like Enoch, to walk with God, that he might take her; to abide in Christ, and in her measure to walk as he also walked, to promote God's Interest in this World, that in the next, she might be ever with the Lord.  
But this is to affirm, not to prove; and though I comfortably know all this to be most true, that's no Conviction to the incredulous World: I must therefore, and, God assisting, shall produce my vouchers to satisfy others, and to excite them, and assist them to be like her.  
And a brief method occurs to my thoughts to accomplish this also; for our whole Life being Epitomised into twenty four Hours distinguished into Light and Darkness, Day and Night, of which the longest Life is but a repetition; or at most into a Week, dividing its days betwixt God and ourselves, what he allows us and what he reserves to himself. And at utmost into a Year (with what may occur in such a compass) comprehending Heat and Cold, Summer and Winter, and vicissitudes of Seasons which begin and end, and begin and end again, and circulate over and over, till Breath and Time both cease together.  
To describe one Day, one Week, one Year of her Life, who was so constant, even, steady in her course, (I mean in kind and substance, not in degrees and measures; for she grew in Grace, went from strength to strength, exceeding herself, forgetting what was behind,) were in some sort to describe her Life in Epitome. The following Day being parallel to that which went before, and the succeeding Week the copy of the precedent, only fairer written, and the like of Years.   

SECT. V How she spent a Day.  
I Shall therefore first faithfully relate how she spent a Day; (that is, every Day.) She always risen early, and lived with the least sleep I ever knew, or heard of any. Her long and frequent weeping, and sleepless months in the Agonies of her Temptation, had made it easy to her to be satisfied with little Rest: But after she had ceased from Childbearing, she constantly risen at four a Clock, Winter and Summer; I say constantly, when in Health; yea, sometimes when under Indisposition: When I say constantly, I do not deny but sometimes she might be prevailed with to lie till Six, or after, but then she at other times much oftener risen by Three, yea two in the Morning, which much more than equalled the account to say every day at Four: And yet her Heart was always up before her, when she awaked she was still with God, darting up Prayers and Praises to him who giveth his Beloved sleep. I confess I have oft kindly argued the case with her, to dissuade her, fearing it would prejudice her Health, urging that Mercy was required more than Sacrifice, that overdoing was undoing, and it might turn to disadvantage; then she would reply, Good my Dear, grant me my liberty; 'tis the pleasure of my Life, when all is still and quiet, no disturbance or interruption, but a calm Serenity, and silent Stillness, to enjoy myself; and when I have told her she shamed, and by her Practice upbraided my Sloth, who slept much longer, she would answer, Thy Constitution will not bear it, and thou hast nothing to divert thee, but mayest be alone all day in thy Study, but my Family-Imployment and Inspection requires my care and attendance; and if I lose my Morning, and break my measures, it renders me uneasy, and puts me into an huddle all the Day.  
When she had slightly slipped on her , she would go softly into the Chamber, which she called the Chamber of her choice Mercies, and beloved retirement, and without calling of a Servant, kindle her own Fire, having Charcoal or Dry-wood laid ready, and so she spent two hours at least with God; and then at Six, or after, would she call her Maids, and duly hear one or both read a Chapter, then sit and read herself, till the Servants had had what was fit for them, which she despised not to do, to keep all in good order: Then would she inspect the ordering her Dairy, and put her humble hands to some part of the work; then direct prudently and plentifully for our own Table, and the Servants, and afterwards dress herself decently with small expense of time; then read, or work with her Needle, till Family-Prayer, when she would have all day-labourers about the House called in.  
And if any took their work by the great, not for day wages, whose time was their own, not ours, she would out of her own allowance, or the Box, (I hope that Phrase is not unintelligible to many Families, if it be, St. Paul's Expression of laying by, as God hath prospered them, may help them to understand it,) give them a Penny a day, as much as she thought they might have earned in the time of Family Duty, that they might not be rob of their time, (God hating Robbery for an Offering,) nor grudge, or come unwillingly when called in; and the like satisfaction would she make them, if she gave them any diversion from the work they took by the Great, as our common Phrase is, without the least encroachment on their time, under pretence of the advantages the Family afforded them. At Dinner, which was the only set Meal she ordinarily made, she would hardly be prevailed with to drink more than one glass of Wine, or Cider, and never any Ale, or strong Beer, and eat moderately: In the Afternoon, if there were any Neighbours sick, she would visit them, and call on every poor Neighbour nigh going or coming, to counsel or encourage them, and as the Season of the Year required, prepare Medicines for the Family, the Poor, and Neighbourhood; distilled Waters, Syrups, Oils, Ointments, Salves, etc. or distribute them out, or apply them to those who needed, and for the rest, work with her Needle, read good Books, and order Family concerns, but chief the Education of her Children, of which more fully afterwards.  
About Five she retired to her private Devotions, and, they finished, came to me, and brought the Children with her, whilst we had them, to be seriously exhorted and counselled alone, and then to Pray in secret; for the happy success of which good Custom, I have as much cause to bless God, and do it most hearty, as for any circumstance of my Life; and if any will deride and scorn it, I can say with Job, Mock on: If idle diversions yield them more comfort, I envy not their choice, much good may it do them.  
I learned this Practice by reading the Life of holy Mr. Robert Bolton, more than forty years ago; and oh that these Papers might be blest to induce any to follow an Example set to me and them by so famous and so good a Man! To conclude and shut up this,  
I will transcribe, and allusively apply the words, wherewith devout Bishop Hall concludes his Art of Divine Meditation.  
Give me leave to complain with just Sorrow and Shame, that if there be any Christian Duty, whose omission is notoriously shameful, and prejudicial to the Souls of Professors, it is this of Meditation. This is the end God hath given us our Souls for, we misspend them if we use them not thus. How lamentable is it that we so employ them, as if our faculty of discourse served for nothing but our Earthly Provision; as if our reasonable and Christian Minds were appointed for the slaves and drudges of this Body, only to be the Caterers and Cooks of our Appetite!  
The World filleth us, yea, cloyeth us; we find ourselves work enough to think, What have I got? What may I get more? What must I lay out? What must I leave for Posterity? How may I prevent the wrong of my Adversary? How may I return it? What answers shall I make to such Allegations? What entertainment shall I give to such Friends? What courses shall I take in such Suits? In what Pastime shall I sp●nd this Day? In what the next? What advantage shall I reap by this Practice, what loss? What was said, answered, replied, done, followed?  
Goodly thoughts, and fit for spiritual Minds! Say there were no other World, how could we spend our Cares otherwise? Unto this only Neglect let me ascribe the commonness of that Laodicean temper of Men; or (if that be worse) of the dead coldness, which hath stricken the hearts of many, having left them nothing but the Bodies of Men, and Visors of Christians, to this only, they have not Meditated.  
It is not more impossible to live without an Heart than to be devout without Meditation. Would God therefore my words could be in this (as the wise Man saith the words of the wise are) like unto Goads in the sides of every Reader to quicken him up out of this dull and lazy Security, to a cheerful practice of this Divine Meditation. Let him curse me upon his Deathbed, if, looking back to the bestowing of his former times, he acknowledge not these Hours placed the most happily in his whole Life, if he than wish not he had worn out more days in so profitable a Work.  
Let me have leave without offence to draw a Parallel, and make a short Application of this Passage, (though 'tis hard not to write a satire, and enlarge on such an occasion,) What is the reason why the Married state, which a Gracious God appointed, that Man and Wife might be meet helps to one another, not only in Sickness and in Health, and the joint concerns of this present life, but also, yea chief, to help each other to Heaven, by building up each other in their most holy Faith, as Heirs together of the Grace of Life, as St. Peter speaks, and training their Children up in the nurture and fear of God, as both the Scripture, and our Liturgy direct we should? What, I say, is the reason that this holy State so oft falls short of attaining this designed Blessing, and rather proves a Cross, yea a Curse? Is it not from the neglect of the fore intimated Practice and Duty?  
Whence comes uneasiness in mutual Society, Discontents, Jealousies, Brawling, Weariness of one another, to name no worse?  
Come they not hence, from the neglect of God, and each others Souls and Spiritual Good? And because Men enterprise, and take in hand that honourable State unadvisedly, wantonly, and lightly, to satisfy their carnal Lusts and Appetites, as brute Beasts that have no understanding, not soberly, advisedly, and in the Fear of God, (against which our Liturgy so gravely and Piously gives warning,) and continue in it as bad, or worse, than they entered upon it, or at most respecting their secular concerns, void of any serious Care of promoting God's Glory in the Eternal Salvation of each others Souls. If hundreds censure me for this, I am content to bear it, if but one couple in every Hundred will vouchsafe to imitate our Custom intimated above.  
And if upon performing it with Sincerity and Seriousness themselves repent it, or God impute it to them as mispending time, let it be charged against me for seducing them from using it better, at the Day of Judgement.  
She always allowed her Maid's time to Pray alone, and would mind them of it till they were accustomed to it.  
But to proceed to the finishing the Day. She would then eat a small piece of white Bread, with a draught of household Beer, and because we had long dis-used set Suppers, when we were alone she would always herself bring me up some small matter, and would not be entreated to send it by a Servant, because she would not lose the Pleasure and Satisfaction of expressing her tender and endeared Affection, the kind and thankful remembrance of which is the only cause of my mentioning so small a matter.  
Then for an hour before Family Duty, she would Catechise the ignorant Servants, and teach them to read which could not; for often hiring Servants out of places where there wanted opportunity to teach the poor Children, and Catechise them, 'tis scarce to be believed how Ignorant many came, and yet I remember not any who stayed any time with us, who could not read competently well, and say both a Catechism which I find amongst her Papers, with this Title, A short and easy Catechism which I used to teach my Children when they were very Young, suited to their Capacity: And also the Church Catechism, which she taught them when they had learned the former, and she used to hire them to their own good, giving them Sixpence to accomplish the first Task, than a Shilling, and so on, promising them a Bible when they could use it, of which she gave many, and always new, and good ones, of double the Price she might have bought for. After Family Prayers, when she went up into her Chamber, whilst she undressed herself, one of her Maids (and if one read not so well as the other, she that needed most to be perfected) read a Chapter, after which, committing herself to God, she went to Bed, and after short Ejaculatory Prayers for the Mercies of the Day, and Petitions for Protection from the Sins, Temptations, and Dangers of the Night, she betook herself to rest. And this is the shortest Epitome of her Life, which at the lowest size was a constant revolution of days thus spent with the fewest idle vacant spaces that humane frailty can keep free from, not to say none at all.   

SECT. VII. How she spent a Week.  
THE next abbreviation of her Life, is to give an account how she improved a Week; for though every Week contained seven so well managed Days, yet more occurred in every one, well worth observing.  
To begin with the first day of the Week, or the Lord's Day, the Queen of days, the firstborn of all the Children of time in her esteem, to which she accounted a double Portion to be due of religious observance, and most raised Devotion, and always paid it.  
She was scrupulously solicitous both of the Negative and Positive Duties she judged to be required on that day, both to prevent the violation of that holy Rest, and to sanctify it: I might subjoin a short Treatise of that Subject, if I should collect and put together what I meet with from her own Pen concerning it in several places.  
For the first, as she gave it the full dimensions in early rising, so she would not suffer it to be entrenched upon by any works, but of absolute Necessity and Mercy; ordered things so, that her Maids must never make a Cheese that day, and would seldom use the Coach to carry her to Church, except in extremity of way and weather; and though none gave freer welcome on other days, would forbear inviting any on that day, to prevent diversions; and if Friends sometimes came in, would, as soon as it was possible, without uncivil rudeness, withdraw into her Chamber. After Dinner, at which she especially eat sparingly on that day, to prevent drowsiness at Church. She constantly called all the Family together to hear them read the Scriptures, and if any Neighbour were sick within such distance as would not hinder her timely attending public Worship, would not fail to visit them, and all the day she practised herself what she oft advised others. Isa. 58.13. She turned away her foot from the Sabbath, from doing her pleasure on God's Holy Day, and called the Sabbath her delight, the holy of the Lord, honourable, and honoured him, not doing her own ways, nor finding her own pleasure, nor speaking her own words, but delighted herself in the Lord, and in his Service.  
For the positive Duties. Being early up, she spent as much time in dressing her Soul to meet God, and as little as was possible in adorning her Body to the Eyes of Men, though always with a grave and decent neatness. She always retained a profound Reverence for the Name and Presence of God, so that she was always attentively devout, at Prayers and Sermons, to which she brought all her Servants with her, that they might not stay loitering idly at home, or by the way; and her Eye and Example would awe the ruder youth into becoming Carriage, for which end she would sometimes rise up and look about her, with good effect.  
After public Worship finished, she would retire for a considerable time to recollect, and pray over the Sermons, and after finishing what was her custom on other days to do. Besides the Servants reading every one a Chapter, when my weariness would not allow me to repeat the Sermons, she would desire my Curate to read some good Book, and oft would she do it herself. She read in the Family the Lord's Day the seven night before she died good part of Dr. Sherlock's Treatise of Death, and I must say, I remember not I ever heard Man or Woman exceed her in this kind: I confess with shame, I could not do it so well; for tho' she altered not a Syllable of the Author's words, her Reading might be called a Reading, and giving of the Sense; for tho' she read quick, she did it so smoothly and distinctly, and would place the Emphasis upon some word in every Sentence so intelligently, without any affected tone or vehement alteration of her Voice, that the change was scarce perceptible, (not so much as betwixt what we call flat and sharp in Music,) and yet would strangely facilitate the understanding of the Sense to low Capacities, an infallible evidence of her clear understanding it herself.  
After Family Prayer, spending some little time more than on other nights, in committing herself to God, she went to Bed, and adding to her usual Ejaculations Praises for the liberty of another Sabbath, Prayers for acceptance of the days Services, and pardon for the Iniquities of her holy things, she went to rest, and such were every Week's First-fruits.  
On Monday Morning awaking with God, and having blown off the Ashes which veiled the Embers, kindled by the ardent Fervour of the preceding days Devotions, she kindled them into an holy Flame, with which having offered up the daily Morning-Sacrifice, she next brought her Peace-offerings for the whole House of Israel. She had a very public Spirit, and enlarged Heart, on which she always bore the concerns of Zion, and preferred Jerusalem above her chief Joy. She stretched out her craving hands over the World, (as you'd find her express herself,) that the mighty God who calleth the Earth from the rising of the Sun, to the going down thereof, would shine out of Zion the perfection of Beauty, that he would pity them who sit in darkness, and the region and shadow of Death; that he would destroy Satan's Kingdom, and set free those who are in bondage to it; that he would exalt the Kingdom of his dear Son, till the little Stone cut out of the Mountain without Hands, might become a great Mountain and fill the whole World, and all the corners of it might see the Salvation of God; that he would effectually call out of Babylon his captivated People that yet are detained in it; that he would water abundantly with the fruitful Showers of his Grace all the Churches which his own Right-hand hath planted; and that he, with whom is plenty of Spirit, would pour it out abundantly, and furnish himself with fit Instruments to carry on the work of his own Glory, and Salvation of Souls; that he would give Pastors after his own Heart, who might feed his People with Knowledge and Understanding; that they may be delivered from Ignorance, Error, Heresy, and all Ungodliness; that they may adorn the Gospel with such a Conversation as becomes it; that all over whom the Name of Christ is called might departed from Iniquity. Beseeching the Lord to pour out abundantly the true Spirit of the Gospel on all who made profession of it, with all its Operations and Graces; as a Spirit of Wisdom, Knowledge, and the Fear of God, of Faith and Holiness, Repentance, and universal unreserved new Obedience, especially as an healing Spirit of Unity and Peace, mutual Forbearance, true Christian Charity, and Brotherly-Love, and as a mighty Spirit of Grace and Supplication, to obtain these Blessings for themselves and one another, for the Churches of the neighbouring Nations round about, by name; that God would give them one Heart, and one way; that the nicknames of Lutherans and Calvinists might be forgotten, and Ephraim and Judah might be one Stick in the Lord's Hand; especially for the distressed Protestants of France; that God would turn his Anger from them, cause them to be pitied by their Brethren, and effectually relieved; that God would show them why he contended with them, help them to repent of whatever had provoked him to so heavy displeasure; that their dross being consumed in the furnace of Affliction, he would choose them to himself, break the Iron Yoke from off their Necks, bound on so close by the hand of proud and cruel persecuting Tyranny; that being fitted for it, they might once more be entrusted with their Civil and Religious Liberties, and be gathered home from all the Countries into which they are scattered, to their own Land in Peace and Safety, and never forfeit it again.  
But with more ardent Zeal, if more be possible, did she pray for the Peace of our own Jerusalem, and wrestle with God to render these Nations fit for Mercy; for though she had a grateful sense of vouchsafed Deliverances, yet when hopes were gayest, and affairs most promising, she was full of Fears and Expectations of impending and approaching Judgements; and would often, yea, very often say, (for out of the abundance of her Heart her Mouth spoke) That if we traced God's footsteps in the Scriptures, he must change his usual methods, if he took not Vengeance of so provoking a Nation, which would not be healed; but in the midst of so many changes, would not be changed from open Profaneness, mutual Hatreds, and scorning and opposing serious Holiness, and solid Religion, and the power of Godliness. Good Lord avert from her survivors what she so reasonably feared, and thou hast freed her from the feeling of. The Righteous are taken away from the Evil to come. The rest of this Day she spent as others are described, and so the rest till Friday, the Weekly memorial of our Saviour's Passion. On this, after some necessary Family Affairs dispatched, she constantly retired, and spent it alone in religious Fasting: The House of Levy apart, and their Wives apart, Zach. xij. 13. And remembering who had blamed, exacting all their labours on a fasting Day, Isa. lviij. 3. she gave her Maids that day to work for themselves, to read, or spend more time in Prayer, if they had hearts to do it. And if she foresaw any unavoidable diversion, as being from home, or Strangers to come to us, she would prudently prevent the loss of that Day, by choosing one before, which might afford her the best vacancy. And though I confess she usually set but one day in a week apart, when I was at home, I have been, since her death, informed, both by those in my Family, and by her Diary, that in my absence she spent two, three, yea and more days in a week so. I add no more concerning her Week, but her awakened remembering on the last day of it, the approaching Sabbath, and solemn preparing to meet the Lord of the Day, on that day of our Lord, whose presence I comfortably believe she now enjoys, in a continual Sabbath, everlasting Rest. And this is the second Edition of her Life's Epitome, how she spent every Week.   

SECT. VIII. How she spent a Year.  
I Next proceed to give account how she used to spend a Year, in the larger Revolution whereof there occurred many things, which fell not within the narrower compass of a Day or Week; nor all precisely into that circle, (taken strictly and with rigour) yet are fairly reducible to that Head.  
Many of her Years, which consisted of such Days and Weeks as above described, being filled up with her prudent, holy, submissive Deportment under, and godly Improvement she made, of such Circumstances and Conditions of Life, as these that follow, many yearly, at least often.  

1. Her most endearing Affections, and obliging Observance, as a Wife, to myself.  
2. Her Lyings-in in Childbearing.  
3. The Baptising of our Children.  
4. Care and Methods of their Education.  
5. Monthly Sacraments.  
6. Of her Writings.  
7. Discreet Management of Family.  
8. Visitations by Sickness on ourselves, or Children, and some of their Deaths.  
9 Renewed assaults of her Enemy, by Temptation.  
10. A Catalogue of her Friends she used to pray for.  
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Some trying troubles on the Nation, on Friends, or Family.  
Signal Deliverances from Dangers.    
12. Going to Tunbridge-Wells.  
13. 

Keeping our Wedding-Day.  
Entertainments of Friends.    
14. 

Marriage of our only Daughter.  
Her death in Childbed the same Year, yet leaving a Son.    
15. Acts, and kinds of her great Charity.  
16. Care to advance God's Glory, and Salvation of others.  
17. Several Graces in which she was most eminent.  
18. Her Character.   
All which, If I should pursue, not in an historical Narrative of them, (that's neither my design nor business) but in her glorifying God in them, and making a spiritual Improvement and Advantage of them, and to teach others how to do the like, I might write a Volume of them, from the wise, pertinent, and holy Memoirs her Pen hath left me, and my own observation and memory would supply me with.  
My greatest labour therefore here will be to contract, and I must leave out much of that which my own Judgement tells me (if my Affection do not greatly bribe and flatter me) might not only be passable, but very exemplary and useful.  
I might have added more particulars, and set them in better order, and not blended, so promicuously together, Heavenly and Earthly, Spiritual and Secular Concerns. But it matters not, they both come within the compass of my design, to show how good she was in all relations and conditions; she was Mary and Martha both unto perfection, and acted Martha's part with Mary's Spirit.   

SECT. IX. Her Character as a Wife.  
I Should be too ungrateful to her Memory, should I not begin with the endearing Affections, and obliging Observance she always paid me as an Husband; on which Subject it is impossible to exceed, or Hyperbolise, though Love should render so dull a Pen Eloquent, (if that be not an impossible supposition.)  
Our mutual compellation was always, my Dear, not a word of coarse, or empty Compliment, but the sincere interpretation of the Language of our Hearts.  
All my concerns were nearer to her than those which were immediately her own; were I in any sort afflicted, she would with Passion wish she could exempt me from it, by bearing it herself. Whatever touched my Reputation, Peace, or Safety, touched her in the most sensible and tender part: I could give two most trying Instances of Envy and Malice, but I lay my Finger on both those Sores, that it may appear (blessed be God's Grace) I am guided by a better Spirit than to revive the memory of what we both so hearty forgave, and so oft and earnestly, jointly and severally, have begged of God both to forget and pardon unto those, who by their present Passions were hurried so far, as to afford us the trial and exercise of Christian Fortitude and Patience; and so meek, yea, generous a Charity, as I would not stand in need of from any Man, for all the World.  
On both these occasions, how did she comfort me, how did she counsel me to commit my innocent Cause to God; assuring me he would not fail to plead and defend it, and bring forth my Innocence as Light, and my Righteousness (in those particulars) as the Noonday, telling me nothing could ever make her shrink or quail, but guilt of which, blessed be God, we comfortably knew there was not the least Spark to raise that Blasting Smoke.  
How did she pray to God (for she knew the Case would bear Appeals to him.) How did she write to, and solicit Men! How did she walk, and ride, and repeat long Journeys beyond her Strength! Had not her Affections been both more strong and swift than Legs, or Horse, or Coach; and when a Gentleman had treated her less obligingly than by a message sent from himself, he had encouraged her to hope for, by her meekness of Wisdom, by her calm Replies, and by a convincing, prudent Letter which she wrote him, she obtained this acknowledgement from him, That she was a very good, yea, excellent Christian; but no more of these matters, let them be buried in her Grave, they'll not disturb her Rest, and I hearty pray, that when she shall rise to Glory, they may rise to no Man's Shame. Amen, Amen.  
Next to the things of God, my Company was the delight and satisfaction of her Life, and when I went from home, she would importune my speediest return, and if she had any Friend to visit, she would take the opportunity of my absence, that she might not be from me when at home; and if any Family affairs gave more trouble and bustle, she would not fail to have them finished whilst I was abroad, that there might be no molesting pother or noise in my Sight and Hearing; and as she often told me, next to the pleasing God, her greatest Care was, that I might never be displeased.  
If passing the love of Women be a superlative Expression, hers was more than so, passing the love of most Women, that there was not a Man on Earth I had cause to envy as happier than myself, in that respect: She was a Wife according to my own Heart, and even exceeded the Character of such an one, as with most earnest Prayers I begged of God to vouchsafe to me, when I was inclined to enter on the Marriage State. In this God did abundantly for me, beyond what I could ask or think, and, as a good Friend who came to comfort me since I lost her, was pleased to phrase it, alluding to the Expression, Ezek. 20.6. Of God's giving the Land of Canaan to his People. God had spied out a Wife for me, and as we have some hundred times blest God for singling us out from all other Persons in the World, to be joined in that most near Relation, so I repeat those Praises with profoundest Gratitude, from the bottom of a most humble Heart.  
She would often come into my Study to me, and when I have asked her what she would have, she would reply, Nothing, My Dear, but to ask thee how thou dost, and see if thou wantest any thing; and then with an endearing Smile would say, Dost thou love me? to which when I replied, Most dearly; I know it abundantly, would she answer, to my Comfort, but I love to hear thee tell me so. And once when I was adding the reasons of my Love, and began first for Conscience, she stopped me e'er I could proceed, as she was very quick: Ah my Dear, I allow Conscience to be an excellent Principle in all we do, but like it worst in Conjugal Affection. I would have thee love me, not because thou must, but because thou wilt, not as a duty, but delight, we are prone to reluctate against what's imposed, but take Pleasure in what we choose; so innocently witty would she be. They that have such Wives will easily pardon my fondness in this short Paragraph, and that all may do it, I wish that no Man living had a worse; but I'll not offend the most sour, or most squeemish, in like kind for the future.  
As she was all the best of Wives could be in time of Health, so if God sent Sickness, more than is credible to any but Eye-witnesses.  
It once pleased God to visit us with Sickness both together, she was taken first, myself in few days after, and both so ill, our death was expected by ourselves and others; but God was pleased to spare us longer. I recovered first, and when I could leave my Bed, and creep into her Chamber, the sight of me was like Life from the Dead. She hath oft told me, she could not express what alteration it made in her, the joy so revived her Spirits, it helped to cure her.  
There's not a Sickness nor imminent danger I escaped all the time we lived together, which she hath not recorded with most ardent Prayers, and signal Instances of God's gracious Answers of them, and most lively Praises, which might thaw a Heart of Ice into streams of devoutest Thankfulness; which even the fear of being prolix, can scarce restrain me from transcribing, but I will confine myself to one out of very many.  
November 30. 1675. being Saturday my Dear Husband came from London, and not well with a Cold. The Lord's Day following he Preached both parts of the Day. Monday he took Ruffi's Pills, he grew very ill with his Cold, which was accompanied with a Fever, and a Pleurisy. Tuesday Morning very early, I sent for Dr. Yardly, and Dr. Godfrey. On the Wednesday I sent to London for Dr. Walter Needham. My Dear Husband having Pains in his Side, was, by the appointment of his Physician's let-Blood three times.  
After his third Bleeding, he had a very sick Night, but not sensible of his Illness; for when I asked him how he did, he said, pretty well, though to my apprehension he was very ill. He groaned all Night, and very restless: when I raised him in his Bed, to take something to refresh him, he had tremble, and a fumbling in his Speech, and sometimes speak incoherently, which made me fear he was a little delirious; these bad Symptoms gave me the fear of the sudden approach of Death. I again sent for Dr. Needham, who lovingly came again to us: These Colds, with Fevers, were then the Epidemical Disease both of City and Country, of which many died, by which distemper my Dear Husband was brought even to the Mouth of the Grave, from which God mercifully retrieved, and gave me him again.  
Thus far the History of my Sickness, by her Pen, to which before I transcribe the Devotial Part, I must add from my own Memory to the Praise of God's Grace and Patience.  
The third time of my Bleeding, was by my own peremptory Resolution, which I hardly obtained the other Physicians consent to, it being the night before Dr. Needham came the second time but God, whose Mercy put it into my Mind, inclined them to consent to the Arguments I used for it, which were these, I told them my Pain continued in my Side, my Water as high and thick as ever, my Heat also, and dryness of my Mouth; I raised purulent and bloody Matter, and I bled at Nose, and urged, that Nature indicated thereby, what must relieve, and rising up in my Bed, I stretched out my left Arm, and humbly committing myself and the Success to God, said, I would Bleed again. The Physicians then consented, and proceeded to the Operation, and opening a Vein in my Left Arm, the Blood sprang out so abundantly, that they drew at least ten Ounces. After the closing the Orifice, being laid down again, My Dearest Dear, who had been all my Sickness my tenderest Nurse, my wakeful Watcher, and all, yea, more than could be wished, or expected, or possibly performed, without a spring of so strong and endearing Affection, to give and guide the Motion, became my Chaplain, if I may have leave to use such an Expression; and before the Symptoms she hath mentioned arrived at their height, kneeled down by my Bedside, and wrestled with God in Prayer, with such spiritual Fervency, and expressed herself so appositely, so pertinently, so suitably, and with such holy Ardour poured out her Soul to God, as I never knew exceeded, if equalled, by the ablest Christian, or Minister, in all my Life. Surely if ever the promise of pouring out a Spirit of Grace and Supplication was signally made good, it was then made good to her, and the effects of it to me; for as she was a true Daughter of Abraham, an Israelitess indeed, she risen from her Knees a Female Israel; she prevailed with God, I fell into so great a Sweat as was scarce ever known; and though the Night was full of the Symptoms she names, which so afflicted, and affrighted her, yet she retained her Presence of Mind to assist me with holiest Words, and kindest Deeds: In the Morning Symptoms abated, and when Dr. Needham came, and had felt my Pulse, He told me he came directly from Dr. Willis, who died that day at Eleven a Clock of my Disease; but added, with a Smile, he would not have told me so but that my danger was passed; and said, That under God, my last night's Bleeding and Sweeting saved my Life, without which, humanely speaking, I could not have escaped; blessed be God, who put that Resolution into my Mind, and heard her earnest Prayers.  
Now to return to her Pious grateful Words.  
I desire to bless God for every Circumstance of his Mercy in my Dear Husband's Sickness. The helps and love of Friends, the use of Physic, with other means, the constant and frequent Visits of Neighbour-Ministers, their Prayers for us, and of many other Friends, and good People in our behalf, to which I ascribe a great share of indulgent Mercy in sparing to me a little longer, my Dear Husband. God did not cast out the Prayer of the Afflicted, but in my Distress, when I cried unto him, he graciously inclined his Ear unto me, and helped me.  
Good Lord enable me with my yet continued Mercy, mutually to acknowledge thy Kindness, and by an exemplary holy Life, to declare thy great Goodness to us; Building up each other in our most Holy Faith, as Heirs together of the Grace of Life: And this Mercy wherewith thou yet entrusts me, Lord help me more to improve to my Spiritual Advantage, and continue him to length of Days, with the abundant Gifts and Graces of thy Holy Spirit, a choice and signal Instrument of thy Glory.  
I bless thee for thy supporting Mercy in my Relative Duty, in my many sorrowful Nights and Watch; that when my Sleep departed from me, I still might make my Addresses to thee, who never slumberest, nor sleepest; for thou always seest the afflictions of thy People, and knowest their Sorrows, and wilt not despise them that seek thee; thou hast restored Comfort to me, and to my Mourners, praised be thy Mercy.  
'Tis hard to passby her tenderness to me, of so recent Date as my last Year's Visitation, which held me so many Months, and brought me so low, and at length settled in my Right-hand, with such swelling and lameness, as took away its use, and under God, I own the recovery of it to her Skill, and Pains, and Kindness, by her frequent bathing, fomenting, and anointing of it, and preparing other, both inward and outward Medicines, so far to use my Pen, to pay this small tribute to her happy Memory.   

SECT. X. Of her Lyings-Inn, in Childbearing.  
GOD was pleased to give her strength to go out her full time of eleven Children; six Sons, and five Daughters, besides some abortive, or untimely Births. And if ever Children were Baptised in their Mother's Belly, (excuse the Expression) doubtless hers were so; I mean solemnly Consecrated to God, with fervent, frequent Prayers, and washed in a Jordan of her Tears, who bore them as truly in her Heart as Womb.  
I find all their Births recorded, with most savoury and devout Reflections, tho' some with more Enlargement, as attended with more signal Circumstances: I might transcribe them all, that the sweet Spirit of Praise, which breathes so fragrantly in every of them, might kindle and excite the like Temper in others, no Incense being more grateful to the Nostrils of that God, who saith, He that offereth Praise, glorifieth me; but I must contract.  
The twelfth of July, 1651, God mercifully Delivered me of my first Child.  
In 1652, I being big with-Child, had an high Fever, and was after a great and very hot fit delivered of a Daughter, Aug. 29. Being Lords Day, between four and five in the Morning, my Fever turned to an Ague, and held me ten Weeks, and brought me very low, yet God in his Mercy graciously spared me, and restored my Health, I bless him for it.  
Feb. 5. 54. God delivered me of a third Child, our first Son.  
God gave me a fourth Deliverance of a Daughter, stillborn, Dec. 23. 55. I went my full time, and might have been ever big: Blessed be God that spared his unworthy Creature.  
God gave me a gracious Deliverance of a fifth, a Son; May 15. 57  
God gave me a Merciful Deliverance of a sixth Child, a Daughter; June 8. 58.  
After a long, and hard Labour, continued three days, and three nights in great Extremity, all about me despairing of Life.  
God mercifully Delivered me of a seventh Child, a Son; October 22. 59 which Mercy much affected my Dear Husband, and for which my Deliverance I most humbly Bless God.  
I confess I never knew to what degree I loved her till that time, and never experienced such Raptures of Joy and Thankfulness, for any worldly Matter, as on that occasion; the Impression of which was so deep, that the remembrance of it hath a pleasing relish, even to this Day.  
God gave me a gracious Deliverance of an eighth Child, a Son, stillborn, after an hard Labour; December the 11. 1660.  
In this Lying-in I fell into Melancholy, which much disturbed me with Vapours, and was very ill. It pleased God to suffer my old Enemy very impetuously to assault me, etc. But more of this when I touch the return of her Temptation.  
God gave me Deliverance of a ninth Child, a Son; October 9 1662.  
God graciously gave me a speedy, and safe Deliverance of a tenth Child, a Daughter; November 14. 63. Of this Child more hereafter.  
God gave me a merciful Deliverance in a difficult and hard Labour, my eleventh, and last Child, a Son stillborn; May the first, 1665.  
Lord, I bless thee for my manifold Deliverances in these, and all my straits. I beseech thee enable me to render unto thee suitable returns of Praises and Thanksgivings.  
Three of my Children were stillborn, which, with the rest the Lord hath been pleased to take out of this Life, I humbly hope, and do believe, are now happy in Heaven, enjoying God to all Eternity.   

SECT. XI. Of the Baptising our Children.  
THose of my Children whom God wa● pleased to admit by Baptism into his visible Church on Earth, I can truly declare, and that without Hypocrisy, whatever may be my censure, that notwithstanding my present weakness in Childbed, I made it my Practice to importune God for a Blessing upon his own Ordinance, fitting myself for those Addresses as I thought most suitable to Prayer, by getting up out of my Bed; which I made haste to do, as soon as the Company which went to Church with my Child, had quitted my Chamber, which was always, and most to my Satisfaction, on the Lord's Day. Lord this is for my Comfort, and for which Practice I humbly bless thee, and for the liberty of all thy Holy Ordinances, and Privileges by them.  
And blessed be that God, who styles himself a God hearing Prayer, that he suffered not his Face to be sought in vain, for all the Children who lived to any years of Knowledge, gave very comfortable Evidences of their living up to their Baptismal Covenant, as shall be accounted for when their Deaths are spoken of.  
And upon this occasion of speaking of Baptism, it brings to my mind, (what I hope I may without Prejudice relate, to show how impartially I writ of her,) what I have heard her argue concerning the use of the Cross, very modestly and prudently; she had indeed no Bigotry for the outward appendages of Religious Worship, yea, was fearful many lost much of the Substance, by being overfond of the Shadow. Yet would she not run into the contrary Extreme, and she would say, she wondered so many good People took offence at the sign of the Cross; for said she, though I know the Papists superstitiously abuse it, and I fear some put more stress on it than they should, or is designed, or required by our Church; yet their abuse of it should not prejudice the use of it, as rightly understood; which, said she, I take not to be intended as any part of the Sacrament, nor to effect, or produce any thing in the Child which it would want without it, but to be a Memorial of our Saviour's Passion, and the Shame, and Pains he bore for us, and whatever may put us in mind of these, methinks should not be hardly thought on.  
I should be partial here, should I forbear to add her declared dissatisfaction at the imposing the whole charge in the Administration of Baptism on the Susceptors, without including jointly, at least one of the Parents, for which, with other Reasons, she would rarely undertake the office of a Godmother, and when she did, owned it as a Bond upon her Conscience, to be strictly discharged.   

SECT. XII. Her Care of the Education of her Children.  
NExt to their Baptism, properly follows her Prudent, Pious Care in the Education of her Children, that they might want no Accomplishments in this World, she could assist their attainment of; but especially to train them up in the true and early knowledge of Religion, and Nurture, and Fear of God.  
And here I might write a Treatise larger than the whole Book, without borrowing from any, but only her Pen and Practice.  
She considered Children as the nursery of Families, the Church, and Nation; and that Errors in their Education were hardly Corrected ever after; therefore she improved her utmost Diligence and Wisdom to teach them whilst young, the way in which they should walk, that when they were old they might not departed from it.  
She accounted it not only an Indispensable Duty to be done, but an high Honour to be entrusted by God, with the care of bringing up a Child for him; and she did not more truly travail in pain of them to bring them forth, than she did to bring them up, that Christ might be form in them.  
Without Vanity, she was as completely qualified for this Performance as was possible to be desired or wished; she was Mistress of her Needle to that degree, that she would blame herself that she had spent so much time and industry, to attain it in Worsted, Silk, and finest Thread for Point; none exceeded her, though they earned their Living by it.  
And for Houshould-Imployment, all that knew her, wondered she could so soon attain such universal Dexterity, and accomplished Skill in Country Affairs, being bred, and living most of her time in the City; but she being of very quick natural Parts, and close application of Mind to Business, soon made herself Mistress of whatever she set herself to, not only in what strictly concerned her Family-Inspection, to direct, and instruct her Maids, in Cookery, Brewing, Baking, Dairy, ordering Linen, in which her neatness was curious, even to Excess, and the like: But in Physic, Chirurgery, to assist the Neighbours of the Parish, and some Miles about, which she performed Skilfully, Readily, and with great Success, as they acknowledge by their grief for her loss, and the Furniture of her Closet still will witness, which she left furnished better than many Country Shops; and also in Preserving, making all sorts of English Wines, Gooseberry, Curran, Cowslip, Quince, etc. and whatever else was curious, to entertain, and please her Friends of higher Rank, to whole Testimony I appeal, whether this is not less than might be truly said; and yet her Wisdom (the true Wisdom of preferring Religion above all these) remained with her; and all she knew, she was ambitious to infuse, and to transmit unto her Daughters, who did not abuse her Hopes, nor shame their Teacher.  
I shall not insist on her Prudent Methods to accomplish them in the affairs of this Life, my Business being to make good Christians, not good Housewives, by her Example.  
Her first Care was, to keep their Minds uncorrupted by Vanity or Pride, therefore kept them at home, not to save Charges, but avoid Inconveniences; and therefore that they might not want what she could not perform, entertained a French Dancing-Master in the House, and had a Writing, and Singing-Master come to them at fit Seasons.  
How much, and how well they performed by their Needles, by the help of a well qualified Servant, but chief by their Mother's guidance, who taught both them and her, I wave the recounting of; because if it seemed not incredible, I own it would be Impertinent, and it may be censured as Vanity.  
But all this was by-Business, comparatively, her Work and Business was to cultivate their Minds, improve their Intellectuals, to season their tender Hearts with a due Sense of Religion, that they might be glorious within, she having no desire so Pathetic, no Joy so great, as to see her Children walking in the Truth, and in the Love and Practice of Serious Holiness.  
To promote, and forward this, she taught them to Read as soon as they could pronounce their Letters, yea, before they could speak plain, and sowed the Seed of early Pious Knowledge in their tender Minds, by a plain, familiar Catechism, suited to their Capacity, whilst very young, which I find among her Papers, that serious things might have the first Possession of their Hearts; and would strictly charge the Servants not to tell them foolish Stories, or teach them idle Songs, which might tincture their Fancies with vain or hurtful Imaginations, and choke the good Seed of Pious Instruction, or draw them from it.  
When they had attained the first, and smallest Sense of God, she would cause them to kneel down, and lift up their little Hands and Eyes to Heaven, (those humble Gestures being the silent Language of Natural Religion,) then would she dictate to them such easy words of Prayer, as were most level to their budding Reason: And when they arrived at four or five years old, she would teach them somewhat a larger Prayer, and cause them to go by themselves, till they were accustomed to do it of their own accord; and as they grew up, gave them directions concerning Prayer; of which I find a Treatise, which I would have called an excellent one, had it not been hers, so nearly Related to me; of which, more e'er long.  
When they could read tolerably well, she caused them to get by Heart choice Sentences of Scripture, then whole Psalms, and Chapters, which she oft called them to repeat, and gave them small pecuniary Rewards to encourage them, and that they might have somewhat of their own to give to the Poor; and when she gave Farthings or Victuals to travelling People at the Door, she would cause a Child to give it to them, to accustom them to be Charitable: And in this Pious, Maternal Care did she spend good part of every day, which should not have been omitted, when I gave account how she spent a Day and Week.  
When they had learned the Church-Catechism, she would have them answer publicly, that the meaner sort might be ashamed not to send their Children, and the poor Children might be quickened, and encouraged by their Example and Company.  
And having observed that many would read commendably in the Bible, where the Sentences are shorter, and the distinction of the Verses, and frequent use, much helped them, who could scarce do it intelligibly in other Books, where the Periods are longer, and not so well distinguished: She would give them other Books, and often hear them read them, and would make a prudent choice of Books of Instruction, and Devotion, and sometimes useful Histories; as the Book of Martyrs, and Abbreviations of our English Chronicles, and Lives of Holy, Exemplary Persons, especially of those who were so while Young, that she might do several things at once; both perfect their Reading, and inform their Judgements, and inflame their Affections to an imitation of their early Piety.  
She was also very Circumspect, not only to keep their Morals untainted from Pride, Immodesty, Lying, Contempt of, or deriding others, for their natural Infirmities, telling Tales, or causing Debate, or Anger, and the like, showing them the evil of those Courses; but also of their Gestures and Carriage, that they might contract no indecent Habitudes, or uncomely Postures, which might expose them to Contempt; but above all of this kind, pressing them to Cleanliness, and Neatness; intimating that it was a sign and evidence in some measure, of inward Purity, and would often tell them, that though all neat People were not good, yet, almost all good People were neat, and that she had rather see an Hole in their , than a Spot upon them.  
I pass by her Diligence in Teaching them whetever might fit them for all Family-Imployments, in Pastry, and Seasoning, of which her Friends were use to say, her Hand was never out, causing them to transcribe her best Receipts for things which were curious, but especially for Medicines, with Directions how to use them, that if God had spared their Lives, they might have been as useful in their Generation, as God vouchsafed her the Honour to be in hers.  
But I must by an enforced Brevity deny myself the pleasure of recording more, lest by a seeming Prolixity I displease others, and hasten to finish this Section with transcribing what her dear Pen had prepared for her Children many years ago, and I never saw till I was bereft of her.  
For my Dear Children, Mrs. Margaret, and Mrs. Elizabeth Walker; A Collection of Scriptures, some to excite, and move to, etc. Then follows many Heads, under which they are ranked; but because the order is changed in the Book itself, I shall rather touch the order in which they are at large set down. Then she concludes (what I may call the Title-Page) with these words, Directed to each of them singularly.  
All which to the Glory of God I humbly beg may be to your Soul's Advantage; so Prays with most earnest Request to God for thee, thy Ever Loving, whilst Living Mother, Elizabeth Walker.  
The first she gins with, bears this Title,  
It is the Duty of Christians to pray fervently and frequently, with Faith, with Humility, with Sincerity, with Constancy, with Watchfulness, in the Spirit, with warmth and Life.  
Then she gins with a description of Prayer, what it is, both as a means of Worship, whereby we honour, and give Glory to God, and a means of Grace, whereby we obtain Mercy and Help from him, and subjoins in seven large Pages whatever she conceived Expedient and useful for its answering both those ends; all which she confirms with most apposite and proper Scriptures, and Examples. I thought to have abbreviated it here, but when I went about it, I could not find one Line to be omitted, as useless, or that might well be spared, therefore must wholly pass it by, or add it entirely in the Appendix, amongst some other Papers of hers.  
The second Head is this. It is the duty of those whom God blesseth with the good things of this Life, to supply the necessities of those who want them, which God's Word, as our Rule, abundantly expresseth; or, a Collection of Scriptures to excite to a liberal Distribution to the Necessity of the Poor; for with such Sacrifices God is well pleased.  
Then she adds three Pages of such Scriptures Judiciously chosen.  
The third Head; Divers Scriptures which exhort to Meekness of Spirit: This contains six Pages.  
Then follows this single Page without Title, which I shall transcribe with my Pen, because she did it so signally in her Practice, that it contains her Picture to the Life, and was to teach her Daughters what they should be.  
Prov. 12.4. A Virtuous Woman is a Crown to her Husband; but she that maketh ashamed, is as Rottenness to his Bones.  
Prov. 31.17. She looketh well to the ways of her Household, and eateth not the Bread of Idleness.  
She stretcheth forth her Hands to the Poor, yea, she reacheth forth her Hands to the needy.  
She riseth also while it is yet Night, and giveth Meat to her Household.  
Col. 3.18. Wives Submit yourselves to your own Husbands, as is fit in the Lord.  
Eph. 5.22. Wives submit yourselves unto your own Husbands as unto the Lord; and the Wife see that she Reverence her Husband.  
1 Pet. 3.1.— 6. and ver. 3, 4, Likewise, ye Wives be in Subjection to your own Husbands; even as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him Lord.  
Let not your adorning be platting of the Hair, wearing of Gold, or putting on of Apparel: But let it be the hidden Man of the Heart, in that which is not corruptible; even the Ornament of a meek, and quiet Spirit, which in the Sight of God is of great Price. Good Lord grant me this, with all the other Graces of thy Holy Spirit. Amen, Amen, Amen.  
This last named Scripture was the Glass which she always dressed herself by, with exemplary, modest Decency, as became a grave, and holy Matron, and a Minister's Wife, as she would often urge as one reason of the plainness of her garb, which was never sordid, or negligent, though always in Black, never appeared abroad in any other Colour, so much as to a Knot or Ribbon: I with great Thankfulness acknowledge she was my Crown and Glory, and th● Heart of her Husband did safely trust in her.  
The fourth Head which she Collected out o● the Scriptures for her children's use, is, Th● Threaten in God's Word he hath denounc'● against Sinners, to keep your Hearts in a● awful Fear, that you neglect not God; remembering that as he has, and was, so he sti●● is and will be Just, in the Punishment of th● Breach of his most Holy, and Righteous Commands, in observing of which, there is gre●● Rewards. If his Wrath be kindled but a little who can abide it; but who knows the Power o● it? How then shall we be able to dwell wit● Everlasting Burn, and devouring Fire▪ Stand in Awe therefore, and Sin not.  
Then follow no less than forty nine Page● closely written, of God's severe Threatning● against Sin and Sinners in general, and the particular kinds of Sin, all exactly cited, as to th● Book, Chapter, and Verse. Oh, how richly di● the Word of God dwell in her! How did sh● Meditate in it Day and Night! That she coul● so readily turn to almost any place, only by he● own Memory and Observation; for she woul● sometimes, though seldom, come to me into my Study, and say, Pray, My Dear, tell me wher● are such Words (repeating them) for I know no● how to find them by a Concordance, never having used one.  
The fifth Head. The Promises for the Pardon of Sin, the faithful Say of God, worthy of all Acceptation. Jesus Christ came into the World to Save Sinners, yea, the chief of Sinners; in him all the Promises are, yea, and in him. Amen.  
Then she gins with Gen. 3.15. He shall ●ruise thy Head; a very comfortable Word to ●er who had so many Conflicts with the Old serpent, her Enemy, as she always called him. Then follows a choice Collection in ten Pages, which she concludes with, Rom. 10. For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth in him, shall ●ot be ashamed.  
The Sixth Head. The Promises to Perseverance in Grace: God which gins a good Work in the Hearts of his People, will perfect it; for he works all our Works in us, and for us, and to him be the Glory, who is the Author and Finisher, for we are kept by the Power of God through Faith unto Salvation.  
Then follow twenty nine Pages of such Promises.  
The seventh Head. The Promises in Affliction for Support and Comfort. God doth not willingly grieve the Children of Men; there has no Temptation overtaken you, but such as is common. But God in his Faithfulness will not suffer it to be above Strength, but will with the Temptation also make a way to escape; for he knows our Frame, whereof we are made and will not contend for Ever. Then follow twenty one Pages of these Promises, upo● Habak. 1.12. Art not thou from Everlasting O Lord, my God, my Holy one, we shall not dy● She adds, Blessed be God for these Words, an● all his blessed Promises, for which a Reaso● will appear afterwards, when she shows wha● support they yielded her in an hour of Temptation; in the close she directs her Words 〈◊〉 her Children, for whose use chief she ha● taken this Pains.  
Having these great and precious Promise● cleanse yourselves from all filthiness of Flesh, an● Spirit, perfecting Holiness in the Fear of God▪ For Godliness hath the Promises of this Lif● and of the Life to come; therefore seek first t●● Kingdom of Heaven, and its Righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you. The● concludes thus:  
I intent not by this Collection of Promise● and Threaten, transcribed out of Scripture, 〈◊〉 take you off from the Historical, and preceptory part of God's word, to which as nothing 〈◊〉 to be added, so nothing is to be diminished fro● it; but only to get Wine and Oil near-hand these precious Cordials not far off, when mos● need of them; therefore I request and charge your Conscientious Reading all the Truth's o● God, revealed in your Bible, the Holy Scriptures.  
The eighth Head. An abbreviation of Faith and Christian Principles, which (saith she) I have collected out of divers Authors; with some things of my own conceptions, as God helped my understanding. This contains eleven Pages, and is a very judicious, and useful, and methodical discourse; but because she distinguisheth not between what was her own, and what she collected from others, I transcribe nothing out of it. She concludes it thus, These Truths I do, with the best of my judgement, assent to; and beseech God to establish my heart in the firm belief of his Word. Good Lord let my Faith be sound, and saving also.  
The ninth Head I may call a Body of Divinity; which she gives no intimation whether it were collected from others, or of her own Composure, as she did in what went before; and therefore I have reason to think it was her own.  
It gins with a description of God, as to his Essence, Persons and Attributes, then proceeds to his works of Creation and Providence, etc. and proves, by apposite Scriptures, all she sets down. 'Tis very methodical and clear, in 44 Pages. If I have any judgement, an able Divine need not be ashamed to own it: and I think it would be no reproach to wish, That all could exceed it.  
When she hath spoken of Death and the Resurrection, she adds, Good Lord fit me for a dying hour: Bring me to it: In thy infinite Mercy be with me in it, and carry me through it.  
And after three Pages, in which she describes the happy estate of the Saints in Heaven, and ends with these words; It is an eternal Happiness, which is the crown of our crown. She concludes the whole with Prayer.  
Dear and blessed Lord, how unsearchable is thy Wisdom, Goodness, and unspeakable lovingkindness to poor Sinners! I beseech thee take off my affections to the transient things of this World; and wean my Heart from the Love of this present Life; for at thy right hand are rivers of Pleasures, and in thy Presence fullness of Joy, which no mortal Eye hath seen, nor Ear heard; neither can it enter into the Heart of Man, what thou hast prepared for those that love thee: for which blessed estate and rest, good Lord fit and prepare me, thy poor and most unworthy creature: even so, come Lord Jesus. Amen, Amen.  
The Tenth Head is marks of a regenerate Estate, by way of Question or Examination, Dost thou, etc. which she shuts up with this Prayer, after three Pages;  
Blessed Lord, thou art good, and continually dost good unto thy People. I beseech thee deliver me from a fluctuating and hesitating Mind, and help me, that I may, with full resolution, and fixation of Soul, cleave unto thee; that no lord, besides thee, may have Dominion or Rule over me; but that I may, with full purpose of Heart, choose thy Service; which may obviate all the Temptations of this World, either in the good things or bad things of it, or any thing which would stand in competition with thee, to allure me, or deter and scare me from thee: Thy Service is perfect freedom; Lord help me to make that good choice. Amen.  
The last Head is a very large and devout Form of Prayer and Thanksgiving; that as she had before, in the Theory, described Prayer, and given Directions how to render it acceptable to God, and prevalent with him; so she might exemplify those Rules that her dear Children might be taught, both by Rule and Example, how to make their Addresses to the Throne of Grace, to honour God, and obtain Mercy to help in time of need.  
I am sensible how long this Section, concerning her Care of her children's Education is; yet I might have easily made it twice as long; yea, 'twas hard to avoid so doing. I wish it may be exciting and useful to any Women, to stir them up to, and assist them in, the like diligence; that a Duty, the neglect of which is of so bad consequence both to Parents and Children, yea, to the Church and Kingdom, may be more laid to heart, and wisely and conscientiously practised. Amen.   

SECT. XIII. Of Monthly Sacraments.  
I Take the Liberty to call them so, because that was the designed, stated return of them; though I confess, they were sometimes deferred to five or six Weeks Revolution, because our plain Country People in some more busy times had not the Vacancy, from their urgent, pressing Employments (as Harvest) for Serious Preparation. She was a frequent, yea, constant Communicant; I remember but one Sacrament in all the Years we lived together, from which she was absent, and that was one of the Easter-Sacraments, when she had Received the Lord's Day before.  
She was always very Devout at the Celebration, and had an high Esteem of that Office in the Liturgy, and her Preparation was always very Serious before; never omitted to spend one Day at least, in Ritirement, to Fast, and Pray, and examine herself, and humble her Soul before God, and most of the Week would be much alone, Reading the best Books of that Subject, of which she had many; or Reading them in the Family to prepare the Servants, and would often prompt and exhort others not to turn their Backs upon that Holy Feast, to which God himself so lovingly Invited them; and yet withal, caution them, not to run to it Rashly, and without Consideration; that they might neither Starve themselves by neglecting that Food of their Souls, nor Surfeit on it, for the want of those Graces, upon the Exercise of which depends the Digestion of it, into wholesome and strengthening Nourishment, and when she came Home, she would give Solemn Thanks, and beg of God to make her constant in the Covenant she had so signally renewed with him.   

SECT. XIV. Of her Writings.  
I Know not whether most to wonder at the quantity, or quality of her Writings; I find so many, and they all so wise and good, and the rather, because her Pen was the only thing at which she was slow, and the time spent in Devotion, and Family-Affairs was so much, that either of them might have exhausted all, had she not improved every Moment, and let none run to waste. She was exceeding Expeditious in whatever she took in Hand, and would dispatch a Business while another would be going about it; yet (which she would bewail, but could not conquer) she was slow at Writing, beyond what was ordinary. She had been used from a Child to a kind of Set-Hand, and took off her Pen almost at every Letter, which put a great stop to her speed. She writ very straight, fair, and legibly for such a kind of Hand, yet was long about it; which notwithstanding, besides the large Book, of which so much before, she hath left many, both Books and Papers, Copies of good Letters, Meditations, and the like.  
There is one endorsed thus, Contemplations on the 104 Psalms, 10th Verse.  
In which, besides a large, Ingenious, and Pious Introduction, showing what led her to the following Thoughts (which was chief the consideration of God's unlimited Goodness to all the Works of his Hands, as the great Benefactor of the whole Creation; (which she handsomely illustrates in four Pages,) contains 190 Pages of the largest Paper of Twelvepences a Quire. Having set down the Words, He sendeth the Springs into the Valleys, which run among the Hills; she thus gins: This Scripture hath a large Extent, it hath a double Blessing in it, Temporal and Spiritual Enjoyments; the one may be extracted, or drawn from the other, it affords the upper by the nether Springs. The Valleys and Hills represent two sorts of Men; the fruitful Valleys are the Character of good Men, the barren Hills are the Character of bad Men; both Temporal and Spiritual Blessings are given, at least tendered to both good and bad, but they are differently received; and so she proceeds to so great Enlargement, and by many more Allegories Piously to fill up near thirty Sheets close written, but I refrain giving a farther Taste.  
There is also a large Meditation of a Bee caught in a Spider's Web, and assaulted by three Spiders successively after she had been dis-entangled once and again; to which she compares a Christian hampered in the Snares of Satan, and after some Freedom, yet again, and again molested by him; and very Piously, and Ingeniously runs the Parallel in many Particulars, in near two Sheets, which she concludes with a very devout Prayer, which respects her own afflicted, and vexatious Trials, by renewed Temptations, which may be suitably touched when I come to that Head: There is also a Treatise of the Grace of Humility, which was so much in her Heart and Practice. She describes it hath many Sentences about it, and there are Scriptures collected concerning it in lose Papers, but this was rather desired than finished; abundance more there are, besides Copies of very good Letters, which I forbear to mention, because I intent to publish some of them in an Appendix.   

SECT. XV. Discreet Management of her Family.  
SHE oft, and very well considered of what Consequence it is to discharge the Duties incumbent upon us in the several Relations and Stations in which God's Providence is pleased to place us, and that not only the credit of Religion in the Eyes of the World, but also the Power and Comfort of it in the Sight of God, and sense of our own Consciences hath great dependence on it, and that he or she cannot be a good Christian, who is not a good Husband, or Wife, Parent, Master, or Governess of a Family, and therefore much studied to know her Relative Duties, and to approve herself in the well discharging of them.  
Therefore she oftener Read, and oftener thought of the thirty first Chapter of the Proverbs, and her Practice was as good a Comment as can be made upon the oeconomick Rules there given. She was, as I touched before, Martha and Mary both unto Perfection, yet always acted Martha's Part with Mary's Spirit, (though Martha also was a good Woman;) she spiritualised her Worldly Businesses, behaved herself in her Family, as became one who was of the Family of the firstborn; made all her Employments a Sacrifice, by performing them in obedience to God, whose Providence imposed them on her, in setting her in a Station, in which they were required of her; not only submitted to them as Mortifications, (as is said of Marquis Renti, in the two years' Drudgery, and Diversion he was content to undergo, in rebuilding the Seat of his Ancestors, because he esteemed himself called to it when he was the Head of his Family,) but with a willing Mind cheerfully engaged in them, accounting all as done to God, which his Appointment made her Duty: For if the Maid-Servant may sweep the House to God, (as Mr. R. Bolton expresses himself) by considering it as a Duty, in the condition to which he calls her, how much more may the Mater-familias, the Mistress, govern it for him, while she hath an Eye to him who is the God of Order, and hath designed every one their Work, as well in the less, as in the larger Societies of Men.  
But I have already insisted on so many things justly reducible to this Head, that I have prevented myself, especially considering the more weighty part of Family-Discipline relates to Persons, and the lighter only to Things; having said so much of her Care of her Children and Servants, the other Branch may be quickly dispatched, with slighter Touches.  
What the Apostle saith of the Vessels in an House, some are to Honour, some to Dishonour; I may allusively say of Affairs, some are more Honourable and Becoming, some more Mean and Base; to this latter sort she put not her Hand, as it was not fit or decent that she should; yet would she not disdain to inspect, and order those, to whom they did belong. And therefore, though she was neither her own Cook, or Dairy-Maid, yet was she always Clerk of her little Kitchen, if I may so speak.  
But whatever required more Art and Curiosity, for the Closet or the Parlour, as Preserving, drawing Spirits in an Alembick, or cold Still, Pastry, Angelot's, and other Cream-Cheeses, of which she made many, both for home Expense, and to present to Friends, (and have been begged, and sent, at some hundred Miles distance,) they always passed through her own neat and Skilful Hands; especially since the Death of one, and Marriage of our other Daughter, on whom she imposed those Matters, to perfect them by Practice, in what she had so accurately taught them.  
So for all sorts of English Wines, and Cider, which when Friends have commended, (it may be too highly,) saying, I had constantly the best they ever drank; she would betwixt Jest and Earnest sometimes reply, His Cider! 'tis my Cider: I have all the Pains and Care, and he hath all the Praise who never meddles with it. To gratify those whom such an Account may please, I will venture to set down her last Years Experiment. Having a good Plantation both of Redstreaks, which are the Herefordshire Sider-Apple, and Gennet-moils, which are the Worcestershire, and make a Cider of a very different Body, Colour, Gust, and Flavour. I desired they might be put into sundry Vessels after they were ground, and pressed severally; but she came to me and said, My Dear, thou knowest not the trouble of drawing off so many Vessels, I'll make an Hogshead of them, putting both together. I left her to her Liberty, and it succeeded so well, all that taste it, say, they never drank so good.  
But I have stayed too long in the outward Court of her Secular Accomplishments, and Care, I will hasten out of it by a few Paces more. She was Careful without solicitous Anxiety; Frugal without sordid Parsimony; Liberal, without squandring Profuseness; Laborious, without servile Drudgery; Decent, without vain Ostentation; Circumspect, without disquieting Diffidence; Neat, without Niceness, would not sound ill if my haste would allow me to study Cadencies, and Truth would permit it; but I want a without to follow that Epithet Neat; for if in any thing she knew no Bounds or Limits, it was in this; and she would often say, she envied Great Persons for nothing but the neatness of their Living, which a plain Country Family would not admit of.  
I shall conclude this Section with some few of her oeconomick Axioms; such as these, among many: Want nothing, but waste nothing. I hate a base, fordid Spirit, but I reckon it not such to spare well, what would be spent ill; what is spoiled doth no body any good. When she laid by what was not at present beneficial, she would say, What is not useful now, may at another time be needed; and though she would not use the Proverb, Thrift is the fuel of Magnificence, that lofty Word sounding too big for her humble Mouth, and Mind, yet a Note or two lower she liked well, Honest Frugality is the Nurse of Decent Hospitality; and if we had not the most, her Prudence took care that what we had was usually of the best, at least made so by her well ordering it.  
She was exceeding watchful to prevent danger by Fire, and to that end, would see all raked up safe before she went to Bed, a small Negligence often losing what the greatest Diligence cannot recover.  
But no Circumspection could be greater than what she constantly Exercised, to prevent both Extremes, of Quarrels betwixt Fellow-Servants, or too great Familiarity betwixt Men and Maids, which might turn to worse Inconveniences; and if she spied any uncivil, or wanton Gestures, she would severely reprehend them, and wisely and gravely admonish them of the Evil; telling them, that Modesty was a Woman's Ornament, and Guard of Chastity, which would seldom or never be attempted, did not some lightness, or unwary Carriage embolden those who did assault it, and the Flames which scorched the Female-Honour, were mostly kindled by Sparks of their own striking.   

SECT. XVI. Visitations by Sicknesses on ourselves or Children, and Death of some of them.  
THough there was not one of these which she hath not Recorded, yet I shall touch but few of them, she being always the same under the like Dispensations, all of a Piece.  
I am very sensible how little others are concerned to be acquainted with God's particular Deal towards so private, and obscure Persons; yet her affectionate Tenderness, her devout Addresses to God, her Faith in dependence upon him, her meek Submission to him, her silent Acquiescence under them, and the Supports God vouchsafed her in such Trials, I think may be useful to other Women, Wives, and Mothers in like Trials, which is the end for which I writ the whole.  
I have given one Instance of her Behaviour in one of my Sicknesses, and could add many more, in all which she manifested no less endearing Love to me, nor less fervent Addresses to God in time of my Danger, or Pious and enlarged Praises upon my Recovery.  
December 1660. After Lying-in she had a long and sore Sickness, of which she thus writes:  
I acknowledge, to the Praise of God, that in this Sickness I had many Manifestations of the Love of God in his People, besides the very great Care, and most endearing Love of my Husband, so exceedingly expressed to me. Most were much concerned for me, and were great Solicitors at the Throne of Grace in my behalf. I bless God that did not suffer my strong Enemy to Triumph over me, though he impetuously assaulted me; for greater is he that is for me, than he that is against me.  
I remember that in this Sickness, which held me long, and brought me very low, that almost a quarter of a Year I had one or two to watch with me every Night, in which as in other long Sicknesses I was never unprovided, but had the continued readiness of Friends to me or mine in their Attendance and Help, for which I bless God. A plain Neighbour, a poor Woman, came to see me, and, with much Joy, seeing me out of my Bed, told me, she never awaked in the Night but she Prayed for me, and according to her plain Expression, said, that I had as many Prayers as if I were a Queen. Good Lord shower down the Blessing of Prayer upon my Soul.  
God's good Providence has been such to me, that with other signal Mercies, I cannot choose but express his kindness to me, in restraining the Smoking of a Chimney, in a Chamber which was most convenient for me at my Lyings-in, and in times of Sickness; which at other times, when I have had little use of it, hath been very subject to Smoke, but than it never annoyed me, how fantastic this may seem to any; yet I bless God for it, who compasseth me about with loving Kindness, and tender Mercies.  
My Daughter Margaret had a long Quartane Ague about the Year 1663. which held her three Quarters of a Year. We used several Medicines, but they proved ineffectual; but by God's Providence, a very holy good Man,— my very choice good Friend, a great support to me in my Afflictions, came to see us; and advised me to the use of Matthews' Pill. My good Friend helped me to weigh out twenty Grains, for twice taking; which had so good effect, that after the first she took, she had not the least Symptom of a Fit; which before was very afflictive. I bless God for the Mercy; and verily believe, the benefit was more from the Prayers of the good Man, than from the Medicine, which hath been used oft by others, and not had the like success.  
In the Year 1667. my Daughter Margaret had a most dangerous Fit, which exceedingly surprised me with great Fear. The more because my Husband was a Mile or two from home. She was suddenly taken with most violent Vomiting, viscous, green, and black Matter; and so sick withal, as if she would have died presently. She Vomited tough Phlegm, like Gristles, with which I thought I saw digested Worms; which Matter I believe was contracted by her long Quartane. We could not tell the certain occasion of her illness; but feared, it might be the giving her some Mercurius Dulcis, which having been kept long, was grown Crude again. But whatever it was, we hope it contributed much to her future health, through the overruling Goodness of God; for the abundance of corrupt Matter which came away must needs have been very prejudicial to her, if it had been retained.  
O Lord, I bless thee, who canst, and dost bring Good out of those Evils which are most affrighting and disquieting to us. I beseech thee with this, and all other thy providential Dispensations to her, quicken and excite her to a thankful Acknowledment of thy Mercies, in an Holy Life, and her future dependence and trust in thee.  
Such devout and grateful Improvements did this holy Woman constantly make, on all God's Providences towards herself and others: Which I humbly and hearty pray they may kindle in all who read them, in the like circumstances, to themselves and theirs: which is the only reason of my transcribing them.  
The next afflictive Providence I shall take notice of, having passed by many, is the Sickness and Death of her Daughter Mary; which she sets down, more largely than usually, with the circumstances which attended it. I shall shorten it what I can, retaining the substance; because it may be useful to provoke Children of the same Age to an early sense of Piety.  
My sweet Child, and dearly beloved Daughter Mary, a sweet tender hearted obedient Child, of great Prudence, and early Piety, and exemplary Inclination to the knowledge of God, and concerns of a better Life; she fell suddenly ill of a Sore Throat, Jan. 17. 1669. and after four Days illness, sweetly fell asleep in Jesus Christ, Jan. 21.  
She was Six Years and a quarter old when she departed this Life. She was of a quick apprehension, an even temper, cheerful but serious; of a pretty presence, not bold but of an innocent confidence; a sweet composure of Love and Humility; of such Generosity she would not lie; I do not know that ever she spoke an untruth; she was Religious; she coveted the best things; much loved her Books; and when she read got most of it by heart, Psalms, and divers Scriptures; which when rehearsed to others, she would repeat so sententiously, that thereby might be discovered the affections of her Heart and Soul in the love of God's Word.  
Half a Year before she died she would scarce give herself the liberty of her meals, but would be taken down from Table, if she might, to get to her Book; and would by Candle-light sit reading by me an hour, sometimes two by the Glass. She would be attentive at the reading the Scriptures in the Family, and ask her Sister the meaning of some Passages she understood not. She would constantly go alone to Prayer. She told one of the Maids the Devil tempted her to Play at Prayers; but she had prayed against him, and that he did not trouble her so much since.  
She desired one of her Sisters to grant her a Request, and said, that she must not deny her: Which was, Not to refuse any good Counsel, when ever it was given her; but to accept of it from whom soever it came. Another time, being with her Sisters as they sat at Work; she told them, all those things would be dirt in Heaven: And it most concerned them to get their Sins Pardoned, and an Interest in Jesus Christ. Discoursing of the Vanity of this World, and Happiness of being Good, and fit for Heaven.  
As she had opportunity, she would frequently be giving good Counsel, with much Sweetness and Gravity.  
If she were ill, she would strive to hid it, for fear of Grief to her Father and myself; saying, when we asked her how she did, Pretty well, I thank God. Four Days before she died, when the Maid went to help her up in the Morning, she told her she was very Sick; but God would do her good by that Sickness, and she should love him the better for it.  
In this last and short sickness, she had very serious apprehensions of Death. Said she should die, but was not afraid of Death: And desired she might die quietly, and without disturbance. The Physician desiring to give her a little Wine, asked her if she loved Sack? she answered, No. He desired her to take a little: She said she would if he pleased; but she did not love it to fuddle with. A few hours before she died, she desired to go to Bed, (out of which she had been taken by reason of the Phlegm that troubled her,) and I being unwilling, she said, she would now go to Bed for adieu, and for all: Where she fell a sleep in Jesus; enfolded in the Arms of Everlasting Mercies. She resigned up her Soul with these, and the like Expressions, Lord let me come to thee, my Lord and my God: And, Lord Jesus receive my Spirit. I acknowledge the Words were given her, but she readily received them, and oft repeated though she could not speak but with difficulty; she had been so affable and winning to all, Rich and Poor, that many shed more Tears for her, than at the departure of their own Children; she was much desired in Life, and of all who knew her, much lamented at Death.  
How partial soever this Relation may seem to any, and as from bribed Affection, yet I assert the Truth to God's Goodness, who hath ordained Praises in the Mouths of Babes and Sucklings, and hath, I humbly hope, now perfected the same in the Consummation of her Eternal Bliss, in the Fruition of himself to his Everlasting Praises.  
I have hitherto in this Account left out many remarkable Passages for Brevity; let me obtain liberty to transcribe the rest of the Paragraph verbatim, word, for word, as her Pen left it.  
Lord I bless thee that of Eleven, for whom I Praise thee, thou hast yet spared me two; I beseech thee, if it may consist with thy good Pleasure, continue them in this World, keeping them from the Evil of it, to a good Old-Age, choice Instruments of thy Glory. God Lord Sanctify them with thy Grace and Holy-Spirit, and with an Indelible Character and Inscription, stamp thy own Image on them, that they may be thine by Grace and Adoption. Lord be thou their God and Portion. I beseech thee put them not off with any thing less than thyself. Good Lord, I beg that thou wilt take a through and full Possession of their Souls, and give them to retrieve my Errors by a more early knowing, serving, and loving of thee, and punish none of mine Iniquities with their Sins, but keep them blameless to thy Everlasting Kingdom, and bind up their Souls in the bundle of Eternal Life, Amen, Amen.  
January 23. 1669. Was a day of Mercy to me in the midst of my Affliction, being Lord's Day, my sweet Mary lying then Dead with us in the House; the extremity of my Affection forced me into the Chamber where she than lay, a cold piece of Clay: I there poured out my Soul to God in Prayer, and from thence returned into to the Chamber of my signal Mercies I have received from God, who comforteth those who are cast down. Though he denied my vehement Desires, and wrestle with him in the time of her Sickness, for her longer continuance with me in this World, the Lord abundantly made up, and compensated my Loss.  
I took my Bible, and my Intention was to Read in the New-Testament to allay my own Grief, with the dolorous Sufferings of my Saviour, but my Bible suddenly fell open in my Lap, and my Eye presently fixed upon Habbak. 1.12. which was powerfully set home upon my Heart, with great Comfort, and Refreshment, with full Measure running over, streams of Mercy, and Loving Kindness; yea● of tenderest Mercies flowing into my Soul; an Eternal God in exchange of a transient Comfort. The Lord tendered me himself, who is from Everlasting, with this Propriety; the Lord my God opposing his all-sufficient Righteousness against all my Unrighteousness, My Holy One, I should not Die, but Live. Lord, how hast thou silenced my inordinate Passions, and Affections, in superabundantly out-bidding all Creature-Comforts and Relations! I beseech thee enable me so to live here, that I may ever live with thee, where I shall sin no more, and Grief, Sorrow, and Sighing shall flee away.  
The same Lord's Day in the Afternoon, my Daughter Elizabeth, (whom God gave me June 8. 1658.) to our great Satisfaction and Comfort, suddenly broke out into a Flood of Tears, and most Pathetical, Vehement Desires after God, and his Grace; with Confession, and bewailing of her Sins with such sensible, and suitable Expressions, as shown it came from her very Soul, which drew plenty of Tears of Love and Admiration from us all  
O my God, how shall I love thee, how shall I Praise thee for this Grace, which I trust was the Work of thy Blessed Spirit! Good Lord confirm and establish the Thoughts of her Heart before thee for Ever.  
This day was a Tragicomedy, if I may so speak; Bitterness turned into surprising Sweetness; Weeping had continued for a Night, but Joy came in before the succeeding Morning, even Joy unspeakable, and full of Glory. I never remembered my Dear under such transports of Spiritual Peace and Satisfaction, as from the Consolations of God, from the Manifestations of his Love, which flowed into her Soul from that Scripture ; and I may truly say, the Impressions of it never wore wholly off, but even at many Years distance, the naming of those Words would renew the Spiritual Relish she tasted in them, and the briny Tears for the natural Death of one very desirable Child, were swallowed up by the Tears of Gladness for the lively Symptoms of the spiritual Birth of another, not less dear to us; The House was a Bokim, not one dry Eye; the Pathetic Earnestness with which the Child cried for Pardon, and supplies of Grace, inflamed and melted all that heard her, and the abundance of Tears she shed so freely, were like Water put into a Pump; it brought up even Buckets full from all that saw them: What would I not give for such another Evening?  
I know there are too many in the World who will make these things the Subject of their Mirth and Scorn, and opening other Books much oftener than the Holy Bible would be more affected, with an auspicious Cut, or turning up a lucky Trump, than lighting on the divinest Promise in the Sacred Volumes, and will stigmatize such Impressions with the Contemptuous Brand of Enthusiasm; or at the mildest, slight them, as the Effects of warmed Fancy: But let them alone, I'll not disturb their pleasing Dreams; yet, Wisdom is Justified of her Children, and though I will not presume to say, We speak Wisdom to them who are Perfect, and write such things for them who have their Senses Exercised, to discern and relish them. Yet I cannot but call to Mind how Petrus Blesensis endorsed his Treatise of the Love of God, Secretum meum mihi, My Secret to myself; and I hope this will meet with some Readers to whom it may not be as insipid, as the White of an Egg, to allude to Job's Expression; and for those who think it the cheapest and quickest way to ease their Minds, in their unacquaintedness with such things, to ridicule them in others, I say, Mock on.  
I pass by, for Brevity-sake, many excellent Passages of most Exemplary Piety, in several Pages relating to the Occurrences of near three Year. Then follows,  
In the beginning of September 1671. my Daughter Elizabeth had a great Fit of Sickness, which brought her very low, a Fever, with a Rhumatism; we had the Advice of eight or nine Physicians from London, and Chelmsford, and five upon the Place, etc.  
Myself watched many Nights with her, the time I could spare in my careful attendance on her, I spent in Prayers and Tears at the Throne of Grace in her behalf, from whence I had a Merciful Return. One Night she rutled, and breathed short, which made me fear the approach of Death. I having by me Oil of Sweet-Almonds, new drawn, I desired to give her some of it, but was afraid to attempt it, and her Stomach did so nauseate what was given her, though in itself Pleasant. I went from her into another Chamber, and earnestly besought God if he saw it good for her, to incline her to a willing taking of it. I brought her five or six Spoonfuls in a Silver Cup, which she received of me without speaking one Word against it, and drank it off, without the least reluctancy or Regret. I do most hearty bless God who did not cast out my Prayer, the Oil caused her to Vomit much tough Phlegm; and withal gently Purged her, after which she recovered Health, I thank God.  
Blessed God, I beseech thee enable her to render to thee suitable returns of Love and Obedience, that the residue, and remainder of her days here, may be in thy Fear, not to offend thee, but faithfully to serve thee, who didst remember and help her in her low Estate, that when thou shalt Consummate her Days on Earth, she may be ever with thee in thy Eternal Kingdom and Glory. Amen.  
I shall conclude this Section with the Account of her Carriage, and Demeanour in the last Sickness, and Death of this Dear Beloved Child. I confess she is very large in what she writes of it, therefore I shall contract it what I can, though I find not an impertinent Line in so many Pages, and I hope it will not seem tedious, because it is so suitable to the End I design; which is to propound her Example of Motherly Affection, and Christian Submission to, and Holy Improvement of God's smarty Trials. She thus gins:  
I have now one of the saddest of God's Providences to record, which hath befallen me in the Comforts of this Life; I beseech God to sanctify it to me, and those concerned with me. Then having at large related all the Circumstances of her Sickness, she proceeds. She was sixteen Years, three Months, and eleven Days old when she died. After fourteen Days Sickness of the Smallpox, she changed her Corruptible State, I humbly hope, into Immortal Glory, where she shall never Sin, and the Effects of Sin shall be no more.  
She was a very Beautiful and Lovely Woman, etc. God gave her a good understanding, etc. And so having described her Body and Mind exactly, she corrects herself; but thus to  her may not suit my Pen: But I may acknowledge these Accomplishments to the Praise of God's Goodness.  
The ground of my Comfort is, her sweet Inclination to the things of God, and her Souls concerns, as to her eternal State, unto which she is gone unspotted, from the gross defilements of the World, and was Mercifully preserved from ever falling into any scandalous Sin, and is set out of the reach of Sin, Temptation, and Sorrows, got into Harbour, off a Tempestuous Sea.  
I bless God we have good hopes of her Eternal Peace and Safety; for besides a blameless Conversation, free from gross Enormities; she was very Conscientious in the Duties of Religion; she would always speak the Truth.  
She was meek of Spirit, very humble and charitable to the Poor, and Pitiful, and would relieve them as far as she had wherewith to do it; she was very tenderhearted, fearful of Sin, and of being found an Hypocrite.  
Besides Family-Prayers, she Worshipped God in private twice a Day in secret Prayer; in the Morning she read the Scriptures, and in the Afternoon spent an hour or more in reading good Books. She did exhort others to serious Piety, and in time of Health, would be counselling, and advising the Servants privately to be Religious, and to take heed of delaying, and putting off their Returns to God.  
She had great Impressions on her Heart, as to the careful observation of the Sabbath, and when she had made any digression with Worldly Discourse with others, she would make acknowledgement she had done amiss; a Sin lightly considered, and as little bewailed.  
‛ Then she relates the Impressions of God's Spirit on her Heart when twelve Years old, (of which before;) and her Patient, and Pious Carriage in her Sickness three Years before this. Then proceeds,  
She had also Experience of Spiritual Temptations, but resisted them with Abhorrence. In this her last Sickness she acquainted me with them; telling me, she had been much troubled with a wicked thing; I asked her what it was, she said she would not speak it for all the World, it made her fear lest she had committed the Sin against the Holy-Ghost. Poor Lamb! she kept this Trouble to her half a Year, only her Sister knew it, and oft see her sit and Weep most bitterly; but I humbly hope, God gave her strength against the Temptation, and quieted her Mind: After she revealed this Affliction, and better understood the nature of these Troubles, which as God enabled me I informed her, and strove to Comfort her.  
In the time of this last Sickness, she oft asked me to Pray with her; which when I performed, I was too absolute with God for her Life, all the time of her Sickness, without express Submission to his Will. The Lord pardon the Extremity of my Affection.  
In this Sickness she was very tenderhearted, expressed herself very Understandingly, and Piously in Prayer, with other sweet and gracious Requests to God, she begged of the Lord, that the Infection of her Disease might spread no farther in the Family; which Desires of hers the Lord heard, and granted. For which Preservation I do desire to be thankful to the God of our Mercies, which in the midst of his just Judgements for my Sins, in this heavy stroke, shown us much Compassion, in preventing our farther Calamity in that Disease.  
The dear sweet Child oft said, She should die; yet saying, If the Lord pleased to spare her, she would labour with watchfulness to serve him better, and to amend all she had found amiss; desiring me to be her faithful remembrancer.  
She was troubled that sometimes she had lain in bed too long in the morning; especially for being straitened for time on the Sabbath Day, which caused her to slubber over those Duties which should have been better performed; bewailed her unprofitableness, and promised, if she recovered this sickness, better to observe the Lord's Day.  
To the Physician that attended her, in her sickness, she said, That he had many opportunities in going to sick and death Beds, to mind him of Mortality, and though none should be excusable before God; yet they should be most inexcusable, that had such frequent warnings: Said, That in health was the fittest time to prepare for death, for in sickness she could do little more than consult her ease.  
Dear Child, she one Morning desired to see her Father, and that she might see his Face; saying, She had now taken her leave of her dear Father's Face. But the Lord spared her a little longer, and she did see him again; and now I humbly hope she sees the face of her Father in Heaven.  
Dear Child, she desired her Father and myself to forgive her, in what she had at any time offended us; saying, If the Lord saw it good to spare her, she hoped she should double her Diligence in her Care, that she should never grieve us in any thing. But this testimony, I bless God, I can give of her, Few Children exceeded her in dutiful loving Obedience to her Parents.  
She expressed herself very affectionately and honourably of her Sister, and that she was sorry she had sometimes diverted her, by staying in her Closet when she would have been better employed.  
Sweet Child, she was very tender spirited, and was troubled for several little things, which were very small or no Offence; and if she had done any thing amiss, would ask forgiveness.  
She would sometimes say to me, my dear Mother, you cannot conceive what passes through my poor head, nor what your poor Child endures. And then she would bless God that what she suffered was not Hell, where the Damned had not a drop of water to cool their Tongue: And said, What is that I feel compared to the sufferings of my Saviour, who underwent such torments to save Sinners?  
Dear Lamb, she desired that what Money she had might be given in the Parish to some poor people whom she named; and that her dear Father would extend his Charity out of what he would have bestowed at her Burial. Which was performed.  
In the whole time of her sickness I was not from her but one night, not being well; the last night but one before she departed this Life; neither was I from her at any time, but when the pressing necessities of my frail Nature urged it for a little rest; and she was very glad when she saw me again, and would express her loving Affections and Thankfulness to me for my Care of her. I had many sweet endearing expressions from her, of her Love and Duty. She said, If the Lord spare me I hope I shall do thus as I have promised: But if I die, my dear Mother, you will remember what I now said to you; and I could be content to be a little Child again, that I might lie at your Breast and Bosom.  
I have transcribed this long account, hoping it may be useful to some young Gentlewomen, Daughters of my dear Wife's Christian Friends, or others into whose hands, their kindness, or God's Providence may put it. Now follows her exemplary Submission and Improvement.  
She was exceeding desirable to us, for the loveliness of her Person, sweetness of her Disposition, readiness of her Obedience, quickness of her Parts, serious Inclination to the ways of God, and many sweet and winning Qualities, which rendered her exceeding amiable, and very pleasant to all that knew her.  
But it was the Lord, the sovereign Lord of us, and her, and all the world, whose she was much more than ours. God doth all things well, wisely, righteously, graciously, and most faithfully.  
The Lord was pleased to stir up great sympathy and tender Compassion in his People, with many Prayers for her in her sickness, and for us since; and though it pleased God to deny them for her longer continuance in this World, yet, blessed be God, we have great cause to hope in his Mercies, that those Prayers are not lost, but for the Sake, Merits, and Mediation of her Redeemer and Saviour Jesus Christ, are granted to an higher end in eternal Bliss.  
Good Lord, sanctify all our Afflictions to us, that we may bear them with meekness and submission, that they may not only be the Effects of thy Displeasure, but of thy adopting Love.  
Good Lord, sanctify this heavy Affliction to us, and show me in particular why thou contendest with me: Therefore, besides thy Holy, Righteous, and Wise Providence, and Immutable Decree, which had determined her time, and the measure of her Days, which I desire humbly, and with all Submission to Adore and Acquisce in. Good Lord, give me to know and lay to heart the forfeiting Cause on my part, which moved thee to smite with so severe a stroke, in bereaving us of so desirable a Child, and so great a peace of the comfort of my Life in this World. Lord, pardon my Ingratitude for Mercies enjoyed, that I have not so improved them to thy glory, by a more careful, circumspect, exemplary, holy Life. I beseech thee forgive my slackness in seasonable reproofs, admonitions, advice, and counsels to my Children or others. Although thou seest good to cut short my opportunities, yet help me better to improve what thou wilt still intrust me with, and forgive me all my neglects of my relative Duty. I desire to own thy Righteousness, and that thou hast punished me less than my Iniquities deserve.  
I bless thee that thou hast spared to me my dear Husband; I beseech thee mightily to furnish him with the Gifts and Graces of thy Spirit, and give him a long continuance in this Life, very instrumental to thy glory, the benefit and great advantage of thy Church and People, and at last full fruition of thyself in eternal Glory. Lord, I bless thee that thou still entrusts us Parents to a Child, I beseech thee bless this only one, and enable us with much Wisdom and Diligence to exhort, instruct, and train up for thee, her thou hast yet spared to us. Good Lord bless her, and she shall be blessed: Bless her in Soul, with the plentiful Effusions of thy Holy Spirit, and all the Graces of it. Bless her Body with an healthful Constitution, and Honour her with long Life in the ways of Righteousness: Suffer not her heart to be set on the gilded Vanities of this World, but grant her of the things of this Life, what thou thinkest good for her, and be thou her God and Portion; and when thou shalt conclude her days on Earth, I beseech thee receive her to thy heavenly Kingdom. Amen, Amen.  
I am sensible of the length of the preceding Section, and will not make it longer by a needless and useless Apology, needless to those who are acquainted with the actings of that sweet Spirit, that breathed so fragrantly in her, on such occasions; and useless to those who are not only Strangers, but Enemies to such a temper of Mind; and had it contained but twenty lines, would have esteemed it too long by fifteen of them. I shall endeavour brevity in those which follow.   

SECT. XVII. Renewed Assaults of her Enemy by Temptation.  
THis was her almost constant trouble for many Years, which she used to call, emphatically, Her Affliction: For 'twas with her, one of his living Members, as with our Blessed Lord, her, and our Head, of whom I noted above, When the Devil had finished all his present Temptations, he departed from him for a season, which clearly intimates his returning to renew his Assaults. She sometimes had a breathing time vouchsafed her, by the gracious Restraints God laid upon her Enemy; but usually not very long: for using to afford her the best Assistance that I could, I sometimes for some Weeks or Months have refrained to mention them, that I might not awaken the sleeping Lion; and she taking no notice of them, I have often said, I hope, my Dear, thou hast been now some good space free from thy Affliction. Alas! my Dear, would she reply with a deep sigh, I have kept silence, because I would not weary thee with my continual complaints. And other whiles would gratefully acknowledge God's goodness, in yielding her some Respite, some Calms and quiet Intervals. Yet after the Day God so strongly comforted her by Habakkuk i 12. though I cannot say she was wholly free. I do not remember she ever complained of her Temptations being either too fierce or frequent, as they had been before, nor did she once mention them in her last Sickness. Blessed be God's goodness to her.  
This cruel, but cowardly Enemy, usually made his fiercest Onsets when she was exercised with Indisposition of Mind or Body. I will give one Instance of each.  
First, Under Indisposition of Mind with great Sorrow.  
In the beginning of May, 1680. an Affliction befell me, my former Troubles returned upon me. A wound not healed brake forth with deep Trouble of Mind, much Afflicted with blasphemous Suggestions. The good Lord rebuke them, and with his All-sufficient Grace, cast out of my Soul whatever may offend and provoke him to so severe a Scourge, which in my own strength I am not able to stand under, so unsupportable is the burden: But the good Lord give me to see, that by the supporting Grace of his former Compassions, I am preserved from the poisonous infection of them. Satan taking advantage of my melancholy Disposition, growing upon me after the Death of my dearly beloved Child, Mrs. Margaret Cox, renewed these Assaults.  
And as in such Cases, the subtle malicious Enemy will follow his blow home, as far as he is suffered, and multiply every Molehill into a Mountain, as we speak Proverbially; so he endeavoured to increase her disquiet, by another very small Circumstance. For she proceeds in her Complaint. I had also a great damp and check on my earnest Endeavours to teach my little Boy his Book. He at little more than three Years old would read well in his primer, on a sudden he forsook it, not through any evil Disposition in him, I am not able to give an account of it; but it occasioned me much grief and trouble. But I bless God for his Mercy to me. Half a Year after I began anew with him, and he hath with greater readiness to it, and love of it, learned much better than before. So indulgently condescending was the divine Goodness, to relieve her suitably, and prevent the occasions her Enemy catched at to disturb her by.  
Secondly, Under Indisposition of Body, by a long Sickness.  
It pleased God to suffer my old Enemy impetuously to assault me: This Visitation was very cloudy, which then I could not see through, nor apprehend God's Goodness, though he vouchsafed many discoveries of his Favour to me.  
I shall not multiply Passages of the same import, nor pursue all the Methods her Christian Prudence made use of for her support, as frequent Conference with myself, and some few choice Christian Friends, whom she much esteemed for their great Piety, experience in spiritual Matters, and prevalence with God in Prayer. She made no noise with her Troubles, revealed them but to few, and to those whom she judged fittest to counsel and comfort her, and sympathise with her in her Temptations, as having had Experience of the like, or been oft consulted by them who had. But her best Defence was to take to herself the whole Armour of God, and her chief Refuge was to the Throne of Grace, to appeal to God who comforteth them who are cast down, and to wrestle with God for help in time of need, whom she used to importune to teach her hands to war, and her fingers to fight in her spiritual Warfare, and to carry on the War at his own Charge, because the Quarrel was his, and managed against the grand Enemy of his Glory, as much as of her Peace,  
I shall transcribe a Paper which I find Endorsed thus:  
In time of Temptation, writ by me Elizabeth Walker.  

O Most holy, wise, powerful, gracious, faithful, unchangeable, and eternal God, I thy poor afflicted Creature, tossed on Waves and Billows of Sin and Temptation, fly unto thee for Refuge in this Storm, begging of thee thy supporting Grace, helping me against the Assaults of my spiritual Enemies, by what wile soever they invade my Soul, with abhorred impure Motions, vile and detestable Suggestions, which, through thy Grace, I loathe, O blessed Lord, and enter my solemn Protest against them; Defiance and Detestation of them. Good God, I would not have an irreverent thought of thy sacred Being, incomprehensible and most excellent Perfection, and transcendent Glory, which I would, and do with my whole Heart, Soul, and all the Powers of my whole Man, with all integrity acknowledge and subscribe to with mine own Hand, to which, O Lord, I beg the Seal of thy Spirit, as a Witness to my Soul, that I am, in Christ Jesus, thy Child and Servant,  
Elizabeth Walker.   

Engaged I am, O Lord, by Covenant with thee in Baptism, to fight thy Battles, I beseech thee put on me that whole and complete Armour, that I may be able to resist my strong Enemies, which war against my Soul, and fight against thee. Blessed Lord, I desire to prostrate myself at thy Feet, in the deepest sense of my own Unworthiness, that thou shouldest look upon, and help such a Miscreant, and forlorn Sinner. But for his sake that never sinned, I beseech thee support me with thy compassionate Mercy to me a loathsome and defiled Sinner, and give me not over to spiritual Judgements, hardness of Heart, blindness of Mind, Impenitency, an evil Heart of Unbelief, departing from thee. Give me not up into the Hands of them that hate me, and would work my Ruin. I beseech thee do not choose my Delusions, leaving me to a deceivable Heart, to which I dare not trust, without the Guards of thy Holy Spirit. Leave me not, O God, to my own strength, in which I cannot do the least good, and without thine shall fall into the greatest evils of Soul and Body, and sink to the bottom of the bottomless Pit of Sin and eternal Misery; from which, O God, I beseech thee let thy unfathomed Mercy in Christ Jesus speedily prevent me, and give a mortal stab to all my Corruptions, by what Course soever thou wilt take with me, only let me fall into thy Compassionate Hands. Good Lord bind up my Wounds, and heal my Putrifying Soars. I beseech thee forsake me not in the time of my older Age, when Strength faileth; and suffer not the defects of my Body to become the Sin of my Soul.  
I beseech thee suffer no Trial to be above my Strength; but Blessed Lord, thou that hast suffered being Tempted, make a way for me, that I may be able to bear it. I beseech thee lay that Hand on me thou tookest hold on Peter with, that I may not sink in the deep Waters, in which there is no standing. Good Lord suffer no Weapon form against me to Prosper; but bring me up out of my Astonishments, and Confusions of Soul; though the Enemy break in like a Flood, let thy Holy Spirit in my Heart, lift up a Standard against him. Good Lord take a full Possession of my Soul, and suffer no Rival with thee; let me be guided, governed, and acted by thee. Good Lord let no Sin have Dominion over me. I beseech thee fill my Heart and Soul with the Graces of thy Blessed Spirit. Deep Reverentialness of thee, much Love, Fervour and Zeal for thy Glory, which I beseech thee cause to be ever very and exceeding dear and precious to me, and suffer not the Envenomed Arrows of my Enemy to stick on me; but I beseech thee quench all those Fiery Darts, the Poison of them drinketh up my Spirits. Good Lord apply to my Soul that healing Balsam, made of the Blood of the Son of God; and with an Indelible Character let thy Law be written on my Heart, O Blessed God, Father, Saviour, Sanctifier. I beseech thee make this the transcript of my Soul, in an Holy Life, in Submission and Obedience to thee in all things, with all possible Adoration, Thanksgiving, and Praise unto thee, O Lord, most due, in Heaven and on Earth, to which I say Amen, Amen, Amen.   
She Read also all the good Books with intentest Diligence she could inquire out, or be informed of on this Subject, and wept Buckets of Tears to quench those Fiery Darts; which, though she had an Excellent Eye, brought her many Years since to the use of Spectacles, and caused her oft to use the Psalmist's Expression; My Eye is Consumed because of Grief, and waxeth Old because of my Enemy. And would often Pray that her Bodily-Infirmities might not be her Souls Dis-advantages; and say, That though they were not her Sins, they were the Effects of them.  
Thus was her Life a continual Warfare, in which she fought the good Fight of Faith, and was more than Conqueror through him that loved her and helped her, and I am comfortably, upon good Grounds, persuaded, hath received a glorious Crown of Righteousness, from him whose Appearance she so hearty Loved, and so constantly and earnestly waited for. Her Warfare is accomplished, and she rests from these, and all her Labours; and as she overcame in his Strength who taught her Hands to War, and Fingers to Fight, and covered her Head in the Day of Battle; so to him be all the Glory, and Eternal Praises. Amen, Amen.   

SECT. XVIII. Friends she used to Pray for.  
I Subjoin to the Precedent, an Account of another Paper, which, as the last abovenamed, I found in a distinct Sheet, with this Title:  A Catalogue of Christian Friends, whom I desire in a peculiar manner to present in my poor Prayers to God, at the Throne of his Grace, and that God would do for them, for Soul and Body above what I can ask. 
Then follows this Prayer:  
GRacious God, thou hast commanded to Pray for all Men, but especially for the Household of Faith. Lord thou never saidst Seek my Face in vain, but hast with great Condescension and Encouragement Invited thy People to make their Addresses to thee, for themselves and others. And hast joined with the Command, thy Promise to hear, and grant agreeable to thy Will what is best for us. Lord thou givest Liberally, and dost not upbraid, and wilt not send thy People away Empty, seeing thou always hast it plentifully by thee. I come unto thee in the Name, and for the Sake and alone Righteousness, Merits, and Mediation of thy Son, and my alone Saviour, Jesus Christ, in the behalf of myself, and Christian Friends. Lord, I beg of thee for thy Church, and peculiar People, and by name present before thee, some known to me, my Christian Friends; them, and their Joynt-Relations. Good Lord shower down on them the Blessings of Prayer.  
Gracious God I do beseech thee extend thy choicest Favours to my most near Relations, my Dear Husband, my Dear Grandson, his Father, and his Relations, with my other near Relations.  
Good Lord be very gracious to our Neighbouring Ministry; Mr. Alchorne, Mr. Hublon, Mr. Lo, Mr. Arrowsmith, Doctor Fuller, Mr. Siday, with the rest. Lord give them the Plentiful Increase of their Labours, the engrafting many Souls into thy Kingdom. And be very gracious to those who have known my Soul in Adversity, and have been earnest Petitioners in my behalf at thy Throne of Grace. Good Lord grant me the Blessing of Prayer, and requite them and theirs in Spiritual Blessings.  
Good Lord, remember in much Mercy the Relations of my dear Deceased Friends. Be thou the God of the Widow, and the Father of the Fatherless Children.  
Also any that ever asked my poor Prayers. Gracious God, though these I name, I stretch out my craving Hands over the World. I beseech thee let thy most suitable Mercies reach them.  
Good Lord be Merciful to this Town and People in a sound Conversion: Bless our Family with Soul-Mercies, and all our Servants.  
In the Margin are named about thirty Heads of Families, with their Relations, of almost all Ranks and Degrees; from Right-Honourable, down to them of low Condition, for whom she had a peculiar Esteem, and endeared Affection, who so far suffer with me, that they have lost a sincere Friend, and humble, earnest Intercessor at the Throne of Grace. I will use an Expression of her own Pen, touched above on the like occasion.  
I humbly hope these Prayers remain upon the File of God's Mercy. And I humbly, and heartitly beseech him they may be answered with Blessed Returns upon myself and mine, and upon all them and theirs, for whom they were sent up with so devout and commendable Charity and Zeal. Amen.   

SECT. XIX. Some trying Calamities on the Nation, on Friends and Family, and signal Deliverances from Dangers.  
AS she was none of those who regard not God's Works, nor the Operation of his Hands, but duly observed, and humbly adored his Providential Dispensations; so she cast them not behind her Back, but constantly Recorded them with Awakening, Pious Reflections upon them, whether relating to the Nation, Friends, or Family. I shall scarcely mention one of twenty, only touch a few, one or two of a kind, as Instances and Examples to others, to provoke to Imitation.  
About four years after King Charles the Second coming into England, began the great Plague, May the 5th, 1665. of which died in and about London, 68592. (I think it should have been 98592, her Pen by an easy Mistake, pointing the first Figure upward, which should have been turned downward,) as hath been Computed; besides great Multitudes in other Parts of the Kingdom.  
In the Year following was the Dreadful Fire, September the Second, which Consumed and Burnt down Eighty nine Churches; and, as Account hath been given, 13200 Houses. Lord how manifold are thy Judgements! Give the Inhabitants of the Earth to learn Righteousness thereby.  
If some might blame me, yet I believe some would have thanked me, had I added many more of these National Concerns, as a very brief Chronicle; especially with her useful Reflections. Whoso are Wise will consider these things, and they shall understand the Loving Kindness of the Lord; whoso doth his great and wonderful Works, that they ought to be had in Remembrance. But for Brevity I refrain.  
And as she took notice of public Concerns, so did she also of what touched particular Persons, especially her Friends; as for Instance: January 13. 1672. God was pleased to suffer a sudden and lamentable Fire to Consume in a few hours a large House, the Habitation of a good Gentleman, our Friend and Neighbour, Mr. Luther of Miles', three Miles distant from us, upon which she wrote a most kind and Christian Letter to him, of which I find the Copy.  
She records the Deaths of many Friends, and always with a short Character of them, and useful Improvements. As for Instance:  
April 12. 1678. It pleased God to take to himself the Most Excellent Lady, the Countess of Warwick. She was Eminent in Religion; a sound Christian in Knowledge and Practice; exceeding Charitable; did very much good; a very sincere and obliging Friend; very sweet in Disposition, and in Condescension to all; even to those much below her; she did excel both in Religion, and in all other commendable Virtues; she lived very desirable, and died much bewailed, as a deep Loss to her Relations, to the Neighbourhood, to the Church, and People of God, to all that knew her, amongst whom, to my Dear Husband; to him she was a most entire Friend, and to myself.  
Good Lord Sanctify to us this heavy Deprivation, the loss of our Honourable and most Endearing Friend. Lord make up the Breach, which for Extent is very wide; yet, not beyond the Bounds of thy Boundless Compassion. Good Lord fill up to us, and all that share in this smarty touch of thy Hand, with full Supplies fetched beyond Creature-Enjoyments, more immediate from thyself in thy immutable Friendship, and neverdying Love and Favour, in that unchangeable Rock of Ages, Christ Jesus; which Lord vouchsafe to grant. Amen, Amen.  
And having named several Deaths of other Friends, with true Characters of them, she concludes:  
Good Lord Sanctify to me these frequent Warnings of Mortality, and Death. I beseech thee fit me for my Departure out of this World.  
She mentions also three Eminent Deliverances from the Danger of Fire breaking out in our House, in which we inhabited, and one in another House of ours, in the Parish, which were prevented by signal Providences, which she sets down, and closes with most thankful Praises.  
There's not an Eminent Danger, into which I fell, and out of which God's Mercy rescued me, which she remembers not, with Expressions which testify a most Dear Affection to myself, and a most Pious and Devout Sense of God's Watchful Providence, and Comfortable Instances of his Gracious Answers to her Prayers.  
I shall touch but one or two out of very many.  
August 1660. My Dear Husband coming from London, fell into the Hands of four Robbers, which prevented his coming Home that Day, which much troubled me, being Saturday Night, and being very Tempestuous with great Rains, Lightning, and Thunder; but after some time spent by myself, the rest of my Family being in Bed, I poured out my Request to God in his behalf; my Heart being much quieted, I went to my Rest, where God gave me the Repose of the Night, and in the Morning brought home my Dear Husband, to our mutual Comfort, and his performing the work of that Day in God's own Service. Blessed be God.  
He received no eminent Harm; but attempting to escape, one of the Thiefs with a Club struck him on the side of his Head, but his Hat broke the Blow, that he had not much hurt, I bless God.  
They took his Money, Watch, and Rings, but none of his ; and though the tender Mercies of the Wicked are cruel, God so overruled their usual harsh demeanour, that one of them pulled off one of his own Coats and wrapped it about him for some time, and set him under a Tree to shroud him from the Rain and Tempest. Blessed be God for his Preservation in this Danger.  
Some Passages in the preceding Paragraph run so parallel with what we read, St. John 4.50. that I shall transcribe the Words, and then make an unforced and appposite Application of them to the purpose for which I produce them, and allude to them. Then enquired he of them the Hour when he began to amend: And they said unto him, Yesterday at the seventh Hour the Fever left him; so the Father knew it was the same Hour in which Jesus said unto him, Thy Son Liveth; and himself Believed, and his whole House.  
She intimates that, and when she poured out her Requests to God in my behalf, and that her Heart was much quieted, and she went to her Rest, and God gave her the Repose of the Night; and I know it was the same Hour in which I was delivered from those violent Men, and I do believe God heard her Prayer, and Bless him for it: And O that others would believe him to be a God hearing Prayer, and would be encouraged to call earnestly upon him!  
There follow after this more than twenty eminent Dangers by afflictive, trying Providences, and very signal Deliverances from them. I'll touch but one of all these, (before I reach one at about thirty Years distance from what I last mentioned, (though all attended with Devout Reflections.  
July 4. 1676. My Dear Husband was under some Indisposition of Health, he was Feverish, I feared he would have had a Fit of Sickness, which had very sorrowful, oppressive Impressions on me. My Dear Husband than made his Will, (that is a new one, for I had made one many Years before,) and read it to me, expressed his much Endearing Affections to me, in his great Love and Care of me, with so great a part of his Estate he gave to me for my Plentiful Susistence after his Decease. This Kindness I desire to acknowledge with Thankfulness to God and my Dear Husband. Lord, I Bless thee for thy sparing Mercy in the reparation of my Dear Husband's Health, which I beseech thee continue to length of Days in this Life, and when this shall be no more, Lord crown with thy exceeding Weight of Eternal Glory. Amen, Amen.  
Since which, making another Will, I gave her my whole Estate Personal, and Real, (what designed for Charity, and a few Legacies excepted,) with power to sell any, or all my Lands, lest any unforeseen Emergency should need extraordinary Supplies; but she earnestly entreated me to alter that Power of Selling, being abundantly satisfied to confine herself to the Personal Estate, and Revenue of the Land, which I gave her liberty to raise Money upon, to be repaid in some Years after her Death, to make as sure as I could she should never want any thing which I was able to supply her with; which I mention to encourage Wives to deserve as well, and Husbands to compensate so well-deserving Wives.  
What should have been immediately subjoined to my Escape from violent Men in 1660▪ because of the too great similitude between them, is my deliverance in 1685. I will not say from more unrighteous, yet I must say from those which are more inexcusable; for God himself seems to extenuate the Fault of them who in Necessity take from others, to satisfy their own Hunger, and pressing Wants; but I never read that either God, or any Man, (except those like them,) excused those who sin of Malicious Wickedness, and gain nothing, besides the filling up the Measure of their Iniquities, but the satisfaction of their own spiteful Malice; in troubling and afflicting others.  
I will not transcribe what her Pen so largely, so truly, so piously sets down on this occasion, only the number of the Days, which I confess she calls the short Triumph of the— being exactly Ten, puts me in mind of Rev. 2.10. and if this fall into the Hands of any who made themselves Accessories, and guilty, post factum, by a snearing Pleasure they took in the wicked Oppression of the Innocent, I pray God give them Repentance.  
And I think it is no harder to forgive them, than it was for Tertullian to glory in the Christians behalf, that Nero was their first Persecutor; whom he, speaking in their Name, calls Damnationis nostrae Dedicatorem; It must needs be good which Nero persecutes. And we have a surer word, St. John 15.18, 19  
A great many more afflictive Dispensations the Divine Wisdom and Faithfulness saw good to exercise us with, to enforce us often to the Throne of Grace to obtain Mercy to help in time of need, and many most signal and surprising Deliverances from them, did his Goodness and Lovingkindness seasonably vouchsafe us from them, and most gracious Supports did his tender Compassions afford us under them, frequently bringing Meat out of the Eater, good out of evil, filling thereby our Hearts with his Love, and our Mouths with Songs of Praise and Thanksgivings to him, the Rock of our Salvation, and our Refuge in times of Trouble, and repeated Experiences of his readiness to pity and to secure us, raising up those hopes which make not ashamed. All which she records with so savoury a sense of God's Mercy, and such lively Expressions of most humble and holy Hallelujahs, as might inspire most serious Sentiments into the Reader; but I shall slide over them in silence, because, as I hope many do not need those Sparks to kindle their gratitude into Flames; so many are of so prejudiced a frame of Spirit, that to use so base a word, as fitted to so base a temper of Mind, they would rather put them out, than suffer them to kindle into a blaze of Devotion, on so damp an Hearth as are the Hearts steeped in impure noisome Lusts, not only destitute of all Sense of the Power of Godliness, but implacable Enemies to it, in all who own and love it.   

SECT. XX. Of our going to Tunbridge-Wells.  
THough it be known to many, that we most frequently went to Tunbridge-Wells from 1661., and after some Intermissions, almost every Year till 1689. yet more may wonder why I writ a Section of it here, to which this short Account might serve for answer. I do it because I find so much concerning it under her Pen, who is the Subject and occasion of the whole. But that's not all, it is to show how she behaved herself there, as well as with what Christian Frame of Spirit she attended God's Providence, in expectation of a Blessing from him who made the Fountains of Waters, and gave to them their useful Properties, and rendered them very beneficial to her. Many, 'tis true, go thither solely, or chief, to drink these Waters for their Health; but it is as true, many go thither for Pleasure and Diversion only; as many for a mixed reason including both; and to this last Rank belongs her going thither: But lest any should be surprised by this, I must Interpret myself.  
She went thither to drink the Waters, which oft proved very advantageous to her, and that End was common to her, with many others; and she went for Divertisement and Pleasure, as many more; and this also was common to her with Hundreds, in Sound, but not in Sense or Meaning, and it may be was peculiar to her; and it is possible, few, if any, ever went so many years to Tunbridge-Wells on her design, and so improved it as she did; for while too many place their divertisement in easing their Minds of the Cares of their ordinary Employments, and as a Carnaval, to gratify their loser Fancies with freer Conversation, displaying their gaudy Bravery, Walking, Dancing, Gaming, not to speak so severely as to say, to drink Iniquity like Water, without numbering either Draughts or Glasses.  
She went (I do not say at first with that Design, but when Use and Experience had taught her the opportunity and satisfaction of that Practice) as to a place of Privacy and Retirement, to be vacant to God, and her Spiritual Concernments, which I hope I shall evince to be unquestionably true, though it may seem a Paradox, and next to Impossible.  
Let me introduce this Narrative, (to render it more Intelligible,) with the Examples of two Fathers (if I may so call them) of two very different Churches; Cardinal Bellarmine, and Mr. Isaac Ambrose. Bellarmine, as Scholars well know, was for many Years engaged, and as we speak Proverbially, over Head and Ears in deepest closest Studies, in Reading, and Disputing, and Publishing his Controversies; yet he reserved to himself a Month out of every Year, his Dear September, which he wholly spent in Devotion, in Contemplation, Prayer, and such like Holy Exercises, which immediately, and solely respected the purifying and perfecting his own Mind and Heart, and Saving of his Soul.  
Mr. Isaac Ambrose, who was, I think, a Nonconformist Minister, though I cannot affirm it, whose Works have sold so well both in Quarto and Folio; his Prima, Media, ultima, and his Looking unto Jesus; Printed first in a large Quarto Volume, and which was highly Commended to me by a very Learned Roman-Catholick, and the devoutest Man I ever knew of that Communion. This Mr. Isaac Ambrose, though he was indefatigably Painful in his Ministry all the other parts of the Year for the Souls of others, yet in Autumn, for a Month, silenced or suspended himself, if I may so phrase it, which Month he spent most part in the Fields, and Solitary Woods, (Places like Southburrow, Canes,— or Mercers-Woods; like Culverden, Rusthall-Common, Cuverly-Plain, or Fant-Hill, (this is Tunbridge-Wells Language,) and the Places adjacent to the Wells, which I have known almost a Wilderness, though now become a kind of Pentapolis, an Heap of Cities joined in one, by such a Multitude of Commodious, Sumptuous Houses.)  
And in these lonesome solitary retreating Places, far from disturbing Noise, or distracting sight of Men, looking off all other Objects, did he spend the days of this Month, looking steadily to Jesus, Conversing not so much as with Books (if I remember right what I read so many Years ago, and have not now by me to consult again) in Meditation, Contemplation, Thinking, and with intensest, closest, most fixed Application of his Mind to unseen and Celestial things.  
And what these two sequestered Months were to the  Fathers in their several ways, was the Water-drinking Season to this good Daughter of the Church of England, an Advantage as conducive to her Soul's Health, and Vigour, from the still Waters of the Upper Springs, as those of the Nether Springs were to the relief of her Body.  
'Tis fit I should account for what I say, which I will do when I have a little touched some Passages left by her own Pen, which speak the Pious Sense she had of God, as in all things, so in the Tunbridge Journeys; one or two Instances may suffice for this.  
July 5. 1680. I went to London through the great Love and Care of my Dear Husband. In order to my going to Tunbridge-Wells to drink the Waters, I being not well, my Dear Husband, Self, and Maid-Servant with us, the Eighth of the said Month, through God's Merciful Providence we came safe to Tunbridge, and were well accommodated, and stayed drinking the Waters six Weeks, I hope with good Success; with other Mercies there received, 'twas not the least, that I there met with some of my choicest Friends: Blessed be God for that his Favour to me, and for all the rest. We came Home August 21. where we were very welcome to our Family, and Parish-Neighbours, with much Expression of Kindness, and found all well, Praised be God.  
July 16.— 81. My Dear Husband, with myself, and Child, went from Home to go to Tunbridge-Wells on my Account, to drink the Waters; we lodged the first Night at Bromly, next Night at Tunbridge Town, not being certain of our Lodgings at the Wells. But the next Day through God's good Providence we were received and accommodated where we were the Year before. That Morning, 18. My Husband and self drank the Waters, and continued them twenty nine Days with good Success, Thanks be to God for all the Mercy of that Journey and Place. We returned August the 16th, and came home the 18th, found all well, blessed be God, and for Welcome of Neighbours and Friends.  
Thus did she continually in all her ways acknowledge God. This taste is enough.  
Now to confirm what I affirmed before, how she improved this Retreat and Retirement to Religious Purposes, I know it is one of the most common Rules given to, and received by Water-Drinkers, to relax their Thoughts, not to be Intent, or over Serious, not to Read, or to apply their Minds closely to any thing during the time that they stay; which Rule I fear is not so good as common, nor needful to be observed, as easily believed through too much Propensity to Self-Indulgence; for I never knew the Waters more beneficial to any than to my Dear Wife, who never purchased the Success at the p●●ce of losing so much Precious Time. But on the contrary, as that Month used to be at Home the most busy and interrupting time of all the Year, by reason of Harvest; and being Blest with Servants to whom we could and did intrust those Affairs, without solicitous Diffidence of their honest, prudent Care and Diligence; it was the quietest, and most sedate and calm Vacancy which fell within the twelve months' Circle, which she employed accordingly.  
Being now free even from the moderate Cares of usual Inspection of her Family, she risen at her constant Hour, four a Clock, and spent two hours or thereabouts with God; then having begged a Blessing on them, about Six began to drink her Waters, Walking, and Conversing with serious Christian Friends, till she had finished that Day's Waters, and dined about one a Clock, and sat an hour after in Converse. The rest of the Day, which was here free from Domestic Cares and Inspection, and had no Diversion but receiving Visits, (which some Persons of Quality would condescend kindly to make her, and of which she would repay with Civility, as many in one day, as she received in four or five,) she improved in Devotion, Reading the Holy Scriptures, and other useful Books, Meditation, and secret Prayer, and walking in a private commodious Walk, (which lay near our Lodgings,) which she much delighted in, and called her Walk, for the Convenience it afforded her, both for the Health of her Body, and Satisfaction of her Mind. Only she would appear once, or at the most twice in the whole Season, on the Greene's on a Dancing Night, not so much by Inclination, as to avoid the Imputation of Moroseness and Affectation. Her Charity was also always very considerable at Tunbridge-Wells; where she obtained signal Mercy from God, she shown Mercy for his sake to those she judged fit Objects of it; though she had but a shallow Purse, she had deep Compassions, and I find above twenty Shillings in Money given in a Water-Season, besides Bibles and other good Books which she carried down with her, sent for to London, or bought there, to give away to poor People as often as she went.  
The commodious Privacy of our Lodgings, (which we never changed, after we found the conveniency of them, for many Years,) contributed much to her undisturbed Retirement; for the House standing alone, out of the noise of Ranting Neighbours, and of no great Receipt, that we could usually fill it with our Friends, and so choose our Company; we had little Molestation by noise or hurry, or disagreeable Conversation which is not the least troublesome Grievance of that Place.  
I know we were censured for the reputed meanness of our Lodgings, but though we had no obligation to please any but ourselves in that Particular, yet for the Reasons mentioned, and many more, we would not have changed them for any we knew of thrice the Weekly Rent, though they had been offered us on equal terms we paid for ours; and therefore we used to send beforehand to secure them, my Dear using to say, She had rather not go, than be disappointed of them when she came thither. So dear was the advantage of so calm a Privacy to her in the midst of so great a Noise and Hurry, as usually attends that Place and Season.   

SECT. XXI. Of the keeping our Wedding-Day, and Entertainment of Friends.  
SO deep a Sense of the Divine Goodness (which singled us out from all other Persons in the World to be joined together in that nearest Relation) had the mutual Satisfaction, and constant wellpleasedness with each others Society, impressed upon us, that our humblest and most hearty Praises for it were not only as a Drink-Offering, poured out upon every daily Sacrifice; but upon every annual Revolution of the 23d of July, we doubled our solemn Thankoffering to God, and rejoiced before him with (I'll for once step beyond the usual modesty of my Pen) a generous and noble Festival Entertainment of our Right Honourable, and other much Honoured Friends, who oft vouchsafed us the Favour to rejoice with us, and I have had near thirty Bucks from Leezes on that occasion, so well was our Day and Custom known and approved of.  
And I have had many pleasant things said at my Table in our Innocent Mirth, of the fewness of those who could keep their Wedding-Day with so cheerful, and so serious thankfulness; the very last, three Coroneted Heads, and others of best Quality, (next to Nobility,) honoured us with their Company, and numbered thirty nine Pies in one Dish, made by the Hands which received a Wedding-Ring so many Years before, and seemed well pleased with the neatness and plenty of their Entertainment; but especially with the grateful acknowledgements we made to God, and one another, that his Mercies, and our Contentments, had much exceeded the number of our Years.  
At other Feasts, in which we often Entertained our Worthy Friends, and Loving Neighbours, though it was our joint Charge, yet it was usually her sole Care and Trouble; and when I have asked her what she would have, though sometimes she would tell me, yet other whiles she would reply, I pray thee let me alone, trouble not thyself; let me but know whom thou Invitest, and leave the rest to me; I'll be thy Warrant, there shall not want what is sufficient and convenient.  
But some may say, to what purpose was this waste? Why was not this rather given to the Poor? (But rememember it was Judas Iscariot who asked that like Question.) And others may object, St. Luke 14.12, 13. When thou makest a Dinner or Supper, call not thy Friends nor thy Brethren, nor thy Kinsmen, nor thy Rich Neighbours, lest they also bid the again, and a Recompense be made thee: But when thou makest a Feast, call the Poor, the Maimed, the Lame, the Blind, and thou shalt be Blessed, etc.  
To which let me make this modest and true Reply: She did all this in Effect. For she provided so liberally, (and for that very End,) that there was more left when all our Guests and their Attendants, and our own Servants, and Labourers about the House (who were all called in) were satisfied, than was Spent, and Eat. And usually more than, in a stingy Niggard's Hand, would have maintained a bigger Family than ours at lest a Fortnight. All, or most of which she distributed so liberally the following Days, that she feasted more poor Families with the Remainders, than Persons at the first furnishing the Table.  
And the next Morning after a Feast, she had always store of Patients, for the forwardest would disguise their Errand, and send a big Girl with a Glass or Galley-pot, to pray her to send her somewhat for a Pain of the Stomach, or some such like Infirmity; to whom she would merrily answer, I know her Disease, keep your Glass; and would cause her Maid to bring a good Platter full of Victuals, and bid the Messenger tell her Mother, She would have her take that, and it would not fail to cure the Pain at her Stomach. And those who came not of their own accord, she would send for, or send them their Doses of the like Physic; having before distributed it into as many Heaps as she designed to feast Families; and I never saw her more pleasant upon any occasion; for she fed the Poor with more delight than she Eat her own meals. So true is that Saying of that great Advocate for Charity, the Reverend Doctor Hamand; No Sensuality is so great as this, to give.  
And this was not the only Feasting them, but every Christmas all were Invited, Rich and Poor; and she would encourage them to bring all their Children, and provided a Table for them by themselves; and when their Parents would excuse their bringing them; she would say, Trouble not yourselves, I love to see this little Fry; they are as welcome as yourselves, though you be very welcome. I writ not this as if it was fit for the Great ones, to tarnish, and slain their Husband's Dignity, by condescending to like Familiarity with them of low Degree, but to be a Pattern to such mean Folks as we, who stand on the same low and humble Level, who, I dare secure them, will lose neither Love nor Honour by it.  
I shall conclude this Section with a few Words, to show how Providence prevented, that this kind Custom died not before her. Last Christmas, not to spare my Purse, but my Dear Wife's Pains and Trouble, I told her we had now continued this Custom a great while, and that I thought it too burdensome to her; a Dinner signified not much to the Rich, and for the Poor I would take Care they should be no losers. She at present seemed well pleased with what I said, and acquiesced in it. But upon second Thoughts she said, My Dear, I thank thee for thy Tenderness to me, to prevent my Trouble; but I am rather willing to undergo it, were it greater, than to discontinue a Practice so long used constantly, and thereby occasion any misinterpretation, as if it proceeded from Parsimony, or abatement of Kindness; therefore I entreat thee let us continue to do as we have hitherto done Yearly, only let us try to have all in two Days we used to have in three; and if our House will not contain them all at twice, to some of the poorest I will send double as much as they could have eaten here. And so it was agreed, and performed, and so her last Christmas was as kind and Charitable as those of former Years.   

SECT. XXII. Of the Marriage of our only Daughter, and her Death in Childbirth the same Year, yet leaving a Son.  
IT is not to be wondered at, that she should write so many Pages of this Come-Tragedy (as I called another Providence mentioned before, a Tragicomedy) whose Pious Kindness was so mindful in Holy Prayers and Praises, not of herself alone, but of her Honoured Friends. I shall touch but one or two for Instance, and I cannot single out any more suitable than of those Right Honourable Ladies, whose sweet Condescension not only vouchsafed to give this our Dear Daughter frequently their kindest and familiar Conversation, but borrowed, and desired hers almost whole Summer's divers Years. Concerning these young Ladies thus her Pen speaks:  
The Lady Ann, the Lady Mary, and the Lady Essex Rich had a Pious Education, under ●he tender Care of the Right Honourable the Countess of Warwick, their Aunt, whose great Care of them, and Kindness and Love to them, supplied and over-shot the measures of what could be expressed to them by the tenderest Mother. Of two of their Marriages she writes thus:  
December the 11th, 1673. The Virtuous and Right Honourable the Lady Mary Rich was Married to Mr. Henry St. John, the Eldest Son of Sir Walter St. John, a Pious, good Family, and an ancient Baronet, and great Estate. Blessed Lord thou hast abundantly enriched them with the Blessings of the Nether Springs, full streams in the good things of this Life, let it not be their all, but turn these Waters into Wine; give them the Blessings of the Upper Springs, the plentiful Effusions of thy Spirit flowing into their Hearts and Souls, that they may build up each other in their most Holy Faith, as Heirs together of the Grace of Life.  
June 16. 1674. The Honourable Lady Essex Rich was Married to Mr. Daniel Finch, Eldest Son to his Father, then Lord Keeper of the Great Seal of England. Good Lord give them the Blessings of thy Right-hand, and continue to them the Blessings of thy Lefthand also. But let not their Portion be only in this Life; let thine own Prerogative have the Supremacy in their Hearts, and accelerate and quicken them to thy Service, that Glorifying thee on Earth, they may be in Everlasting Glory with thee in Heaven. Amen, Amen.  
I will mention no more like Instances, and humbly beg Pardon if I have been too bold in touching these.  
I now come to the Title of this Section, and shall add nothing of my own, only transcribe, and that with Abbreviation, what her Pious Pen hath left me; not that one Word need to be retrenched upon other accounts, but only to avoid Prolixity.  
January 17. 1675. My Dear Husband, and my Dear Child Margaret Walker, went to London, in reference to our great Concern, her Marriage, our only one, so dear to us. She was Married February the 1st, 1675. to Mr. John Cox, Barrister of Grays-Inn. His Father lived at Coggshall; his Relations very honest good People, and very well to live in the World. God hath graciously provided for her a loving Husband, a sober Person, and I hope, a good Man. God consummated their Choice by Mr. Gifford, a worthy good Man, Minister of St. Dunstan's in the East, in London; whither she was accompanied by the Right Honourable the Countess of Warwick, with the chief of the Family, from Warwick-House, and with many other manifestations of Kindness God shined upon her, and in all respects gave her a comfortable Day. I draw the Curtain of a modest, etc. over the rest, lest the Thankfulness of her who was so truly humble, should incur the unkind censure or suspicion of Vanity, and concluding what I have omitted, with these Words: And with many other Favours God hath honoured them. She proceeds:  
Lord, I desire to own thy Goodness, as the Fountain Head from whence flows all Good, to be enjoyed in the things of this Life and concerns of a better, and more endurable Estate for their Soul's advantage.  
For which, I beseech thee give them a capacious Heart to know, love, serve, and enjoy thyself, and vouchsafe them of the good things of this World, what thou seest convenient for them, and help them to be contented to be without what in mercy thou deniest them.  
Good Lord keep both them and theirs inoffensive in this World; and when they shall go hence, and be no more in this Life, Lord grant that where thou art they may be also, in Eternal Glory. Amen, Amen.  
Thus far the pleasant and more lightsome part: Now follows what's more dark, and doleful.  
I have now a very smarty, afflictive Dispensation from God to record, very pressing by his afflictive Hand on us.  
I acknowledge, very deservedly for my Sins the Lord hath taken from us out of this Life our only One, the most dearly Beloved Daughter, and Child of my choice Affection's, Mrs. Margaret Cox; she was married February the first, 1675. The 19th 〈◊〉 November following she was Delivered of a Son, Lord's Day seven a Clock in the Morning. She continued pretty well two or three Days; Tuesday following sickened of a Fever, and died December the 5th, 1675. But God in the midst of his just Judgements remembered his Mercy to us, hath spared the little one to us, Blessed be God for it, and received the Motherless Babe into Covenant with himself by Baptism. I Bless God he is the Son of good Parents, his Father a very sober and a good Man, his dear deceased Mother was a fine, lovely, handsome, well accomplished Woman, both in Nature and Grace, to God's Praise I do make my Acknowledgements, let it have no other Censure. She was of a quick Apprehension, modest, humble, discreet, and of a good Judgement, and well fitted for Family-Government and Employment. She had a sweet amicable Deportment, and graceful Behaviour; these Endowments through God's Kindness to her, rendered her very desirable to all that knew her.  
God was pleased to give her much Honour and Esteem in this World, with which she retained a lowly Mind, with much sweet obliging Kindness to all acquainted with her. She was very Friendly to the meaner sort, very kind and charitable to poor People, to whom she had a very compassionate Heart, and bountiful Hand in relieving of them, which she did with great Privacy, though God hath been pleased since her Death to make it known by them in their Acknowledgements, and bewailing their loss of her. I bless God she lived very desirable, and died much lamented; she was a very loving, dutiful Child to her Parents, a very endearing Wife to her Husband, and very sweet in all her Relations; she was very acceptable to all her Husband's Kindred, by whom the loss of her was much bewailed. God was pleased to make her married condition very Satisfactory to herself, and all concerned; and though God was pleased to conclude it in so short a time, taking her out of this Life scarce eleven Months from her Marriage, which was accompanied with great Joy and Kindness of Friends; yet God filled it with the close crowded manifestations of his Love and Favour to her; yea, her whole Life, from her Cradle to her Grave, to which she went with much Decency and Honour, and which is much more valuable, unblemished, free from the gross defilements of this World. The Lord was pleased to fit her for himself by a tender crazy Constitution of Body, she was much afflicted with Headache, and other Illness, which she bore with much quietness and submission under God's Hand, by which he led her to the consideration of a better Life.  
About four Years of Age, on days of Prayer and Fasting, she would sit by me the whole Day, and at Prayer hold up her little Hands, which in her riper Age, with continuance from her Childhood, she performed more understandingly.  
She was constant in Religious Duties, conversant in God's Word, the Holy Bible; which whilst she was a Child she oft read through, and got much Scripture by Heart. Also read many good Authors, several good Books her Dear Father or myself commended to her, which Practice she did not decline, neither before nor since her Marriage. She constantly, at least twice a Day, made her Addresses to the Throne of Grace in Prayer.  
When she was very young she would give an account of a Sermon, and repeat most of the Particulars, or Heads of it; and as she was religiously habituated from her Childhood, I do humbly hope, God confirmed her by his Grace to Perseverance in the Ways of God.  
She would excite others, not only in her own Practice, but by her Counsels as to their Souls Concerns.  
Amongst other her good Advices, as her Dear Husband since her Death hath informed me, she said to him; ' That she did not question but he Prayed alone before he had her, and said, so did she; and desired him to continue the same, that one Prayer might not be lost by their Joint-Prayer, which they used once a day, going together alone to seek God, besides public and Family-Worship. They oft said, that nothing should more oblige them to each other, than their mutual Love to each others Souls, in their helping one another in their way to Heaven. I bless God for his signal kindness to her in him so near and dear to her; not only making them one Flesh, but one Soul, and both one Spirit in himself.  
In the time of her Travail, and following Sickness, she was very Meek and Patiented, as in all her former Sicknesses, and Pain: The Disease took her Head, which deprived her of her Understanding; but I bless God, that so guarded her Tongue, that she did not dishonour him. The Lord was pleased to give her some little relaxation of her Disease, in which Intervals she expressed herself Piously: And desired of her Relations the careful and good Education of her Child; said she had oft begged of God in the behalf of her Relations by Marriage, and for those who were not disposed of, that God would fix them so, as might be their best advantage both for Soul and Body, and desired there might continue a Loving Respect between both Families; which I do beseech God to preserve.  
Her Disease did not give her leave to express herself, as otherwise she might have done, much more to God's Glory, and the Comfort of her Friends. But Blessed be God for his Grace bestowed on her, that her Evidences for her Eternal Happiness were not to seek upon her Dying-Bed, but were in the safe Hand of our Saviour, and sealed with the Signet of God's Right-hand, with an indelible Character and Inscription of God's Holy Image and Law on her Heart, by his Holy Spirit, as a Title to those Eternal Mansions of Glory purchased for her with the precious Blood of her dear Redeemer, Jesus Christ; in which Blessed Estate I humbly hope she is, in the Everlasting Fruition, and Enjoyment of God, his Elect Angels, and those Blessed Spirits of the Just made perfect. Her Flesh also shall rest in hope of a glorious Resurrection; when Mortality shall be swallowed up of Immortality, God will join Soul and Body in an indissoluble Union with himself, in that abundant Entrance, into the Everlasting Kingdom of our Lord Jesus Christ; so shall she be for ever with her Lord in thy Eternal Praises. In which Persuasion, good Lord quiet my Heart, that I may acquiesce in thy unerring Wisdom. Good Lord scatter the Fogs and Mists of my unruly Passions, that hinder the sight and view of thy reconciled Face, and Favour to me. I beseech thee Pardon my Sins and Offences, which have provoked thee to this manifestation of thy displeasure against us, bereaving us of our Children, that of eleven none remains; and of this, the loss more grievous than any of the rest, though they, with her, through thy Kindness very desirable to us, but she our last, one and all. Lord, shouldst thou take my Forfeitures, how destitute should I be, not only of Children, but of all thy sustaining Mercies, and above all, in the irreparable loss of thyself, who art abundantly better to me than Sons and Daughters.  
Good Lord sanctify to me this Dispensation, and help me to find out the accursed thing which provoked thee to smite with so heavy a Blow. I beseech thee, with this correcting Hand beat off the busy Flies of Sin and Temptation, that they may not corrupt my Soul. Good Lord cleanse me from all filthiness of Flesh, and Spirit, that I may perfect Holiness in thy Fear, run with Patience the Race thou hast yet set before me, finish my Course in thy Service, and conclude my Life in this World to thy Glory, in the Salvation of my Soul, for Christ's Sake.  
Lord, as for myself; I beg of thee to be very Gracious to those related to us by the Marriage of our Dear Child; though thou hast loosed the Knot that so nearly joined our Families, I beseech thee do not untie those Affections that should continue Mutual Love. Good Lord let that dear Chid she hath left behind her, cement and join our Hearts in joint Thankfulness unto thee, and unite us one to another. Lord, give them thy choice Favours in Jesus Christ, pardon of Sin, with the Graces of thy Holy Spirit, and order and dispose for the best whatever may concern them and theirs, as to a happy tendency to their well-being in this World, and attaining of thyself in endless Glory.  
I beseech thee be very gracious unto him whom thou hadst united so nearly to her in a sweet Conjugal Relation: Lord, I have sinned, and he also suffered. Good Lord, let all Grace abound to him in all concerns in this Life, and for a better; and let her gain be his great Advantage, joining his Heart more closely to thyself.  
Good Lord bless that single Posterity of his and ours, left of her who was his dear Wife, and our dearly Beloved Child. I beseech thee be his God in Covenant with him; and, Lord, give him the Efficacy of his Baptism, that he may be thine by Grace and Adoption. I beseech thee take full and early Possession of his Heart. Good Lord keep out the Vanities and Follies of Childhood, and Youth, that while he is Young he may be a Beloved Disciple of Jesus Christ. If thou seest it good to continue him in this Life, I beseech thee grant that he may in his dear Mother's room Honour God in this World, with an exemplary, holy Life, a choice Instrument of thy Glory. Good Lord, charge thy Providence with him in the whole course of his Life, and make up all Relations to him in thyself: Graciously support him in, and through this World. Good Lord preserve him from the Soul-ruining Evils of it, and when thou wilt take him hence, I beseech thee receive him to thyself, in thy Everlasting Kingdom, in the full Fruition of God in Glory.  
Lord, though thou was pleased to clip off so great a piece of the Comfort of my Life in this World, denying my Vehement Desires and Requests, with the many Prayers of thy People, and our Christian Friends, for the longer stay of our Dear Child with us in this World; yet thou art not the less a God hearing Prayer, but hast heard, and granted to an higher End, not here on Earth with us, but in Heaven with thee, received in the Arms of Everlasting Mercies, to which Blessed Estate I beseech thee bring me, and those Relatives very dear to me. Good Lord sanctify to us this Chastening Hand; and though thou cuttest off the Streams, my Comforts of this Life, let not my Soul be as a parched Heath, that receives no good, but draw me to thyself, the Fountain of durable Mercies; give me those Living Waters from the Wells of thy Salvation, the Light of thy Countenance, with thy reconciled Face and Favour, those Rivers that make glad the City of God. Good Lord vouchsafe me the sweet refreshing gales and incomes of thy Spirit, and with thy Grace conduct me off these ruff Seas of Sins and Sorrows, to my desired Haven and Port, in those Eternal Mansions of Glory, where all in thee shall meet with full Enjoyments of God, and one another, with sweet acclamations of Thankfulness and Praises to thee our God, for Ever, for Ever. Amen, Amen, Amen.  
I have transcribed this long Paragraph, without altering, or changing the order of a Word; if some may account it tedious, who either have not been exercised with such Trials, or have other shorter and cheaper ways to relieve themselves against them, let them use their own Methods, without censuring, or despising hers. This was her Heart's Ease when she was overwhelmed, pouring out her Complaints to God in secret was her best Anodine; but I hope it will need no Apology with most, and if it doth with any, I'll not run the risk of losing my Labour by attempting it, where the Success is so doubtful and unpromising.  
I shall venture to enlarge this Section a little farther, for three Reasons; First, To show the ardour of her Zeal for the Spiritual good of this Child, so exceeding dear to her, which may be an Instructive Example to some Mothers or Grandmothers to stir up the like towards their Descendants, as nearly Related to them as this Child to her. Secondly, Because I foresee I shall not in the Body of this Book have much farther occasion to trouble the Reader with any long transcripts out of her Writings, what remains being designed for the Appendix, which will be entirely her own. Lastly, To imprint upon the Child due Sentiments of Gratitude to God and her.  
I meet with many Expressions of most Pathetic Tenderness towards this dear Child, who now, next to myself, was the Centre, in which all the lines of her strong Affections terminated.  
July 14. 1679. Our dear sweet Child went to Coggshall to his Father's House, the Lord preserve him from all Evil, and Bless him, and comfortably restore him to us again. About a quarter of a Year after he returned well to us again: Blessed be God for it.  
We went four Miles from Home to visit a Friend; our dear Child was preserved in an apparent Danger. The hinder Wheel of the Coach was very like to have borne him down, and gone over him, as he was going into the Coach, the Horses being disturbed by a strange Horse, went away; but through God's preventing Goodness I had a quick apprehension of the danger. I suddenly pulled him away: Blessed be our good God for this Deliverance of our dear Child; he had no harm, the Wheel durtied his Hat and Coat; good Lord help me to live thy Praises, who art the God of our Mercies.  
Some may say these are small Matters, but I say they are no small Evidences of a very thankful sense of God's Mercies, and will leave them inexcusable who are not thankful for greater.  
In the Year 1682. God was pleased to put me in fear of the speedy dissolution of our dearly beloved Grandchild. He was in a languishing, consumptive condition, with other symptoms of the Disease: His Breath was very short; had lost his Appetite; he looked very Pale; was very Lean; which impressed on my Thoughts that God would take him from me. To his Righteous Will I laboured to submit, but God was pleased to reverse the Sentence, with a Blessing on means used; the Prescriptions of Dr. H. whom we sent for from London to him, and with my own great Care of him, he recovered Strength, to God's Blessing I ascribe the Praise, who did not cast out my Petition. Good Lord, let this pledge of thy compassionating Mercy to me, strengthen my Faith in the grant of my more Earnest Request, that I may assure myself, agreeable to thy Will, of his Sanctification. I beseech thee season his tender Mind with the savoury Knowledge of thy Blessed self. Lord, I do not ask of thee the Excesses and great things of this World; not Earth, but Heaven, thy Blessed self: I beseech thee put him not off with any thing less than thyself. No Lord, I beg thou wilt withhold the grandeur of this Life from him, farther than thou wilt give him an Heart to lay it out to the best advantage of thy Glory on Earth, the procuring a better Estate in Heaven, those Everlasting Mansions, where are durable Riches, an Eternal weight of Glory, purchased with the Precious Blood of Jesus Christ, which good Lord grant unto him. Amen, Amen, Amen.  
June 19 1688. My dear Grandchild escaped, by God's gracious Providence, a very terrible Danger of being Wounded, or sudden Death, (which danger she describes) had not God's watchful Compassion interposed, I cannot express the terrible Consequence which might have happened. I am not able to recount thy multiplied Mercies in delivering us from present Dangers, and many we know not of. For this, and all, good Lord, accept as I would render them, from a Heart sensible of thy Mercies, my most grateful Acknowledgements; and in consideration of this, I beseech thee make deep Impressions on the Heart of my poor Child, and us his Parents concerned for him, that he and we may live thy Praises. Amen, Amen.  
I will satisfy myself with the Perusal of the rest, and not trouble the Reader by transcribing more, though all improved to Holy Purposes, and the Reflections made with such warm Expressions, as I conceive might be very apt to kindle the Flames of Devoutest Thankfulness in those who read them, no words being more likely to affect the Hearts of others than those which so evidently proceed from the Hearts of those who Speak or Writ them, and feel what they utter; according to the Advice good Bishop Felton used to give his Chaplains (of which the Excellent Bishop Brownwrig was sometime one) to steep their Sermons in their Hearts before they Preached them.   

SECT. XXIII. Acts and Kind's of her great Charity.  
THough the Title-page gives this Section a Right and Claim to one moiety of the whole I writ concerning her; yet, I would have it interpreted with some grains of Allowance; for, alas! how could any thing she gave be called her Charity, who was a Wife? or how could it be called great, when all we both possessed, had the whole been given, could not in rigour bear that Epithet. I will therefore account for both in a few words. First therefore, though a Wife, she had a freedom of my little All, where I was Cajus, she was truly Caia, according to the old Roman Phrase; she had free access to whatever I was Master of, so abundantly was I satisfied in her Integrity and Prudence; (and to touch so small a thing as a Testimony of her wise Care, and our mutual Confidence to avoid the clog of many Keys, she contrived to have five Locks open with one Key, and had two made, one for each of us, that upon no occasion of the others Absence, either of us might be shut out from what was kept under them; and so for a few other Locks she provided double Keys, one of which she kept, the other hung up in my Study.) Now when any object of Charity offered itself, she would, serve the occasion, as she also did for her own Expense out of my Store; but would after, always tell me to a Penny what she took, which I have, times without number, not only excused her from, but almost chid her for; but she would not be persuaded to mend that Fault, so tender was she. Whereupon I told her, I would ease us both of that needless and uneasy Trouble, by allowing her a fixed certain Sum, that she might have no shadow of a Scruple left in using of it as she pleased.  
I may indeed be ashamed to name it, and it had been a niggardly, and indecent Proportion, had I had more than one competent Living; but being as it was, she would have no more; only said merrily, My Friend, this shall not debarr me of my former Freedom; which on my part it never did, though on her part never was made use of. The Sum was the rents of a small Farm of Nineteen Pound a Year, which was always called hers, and I used to call her my Landlady cheerfully, when I duly paid her Nine Pound, ten Shillings on the half-years day, and some little Perquisites about the Yard, more than were spent in the Family, which were also her Propriety, and which might together amount to about Twenty two, or Twenty three Pound a Year in the whole. Out of which she clothed herself very decently, and many Poor, very warmly, and did much other good, as I shall convinsingly evidence in what follows. So true is the Saying, Nullum numen doest si sit Prudentia, Wise Contrivance will supply all other Defects. And as an observing Gentlewoman said, She never knew any had the Art so perfectly as Mrs. Walker, of making a little show a great deal, or going a great way. This small Pittance being absolutely her own, her scrupulous Tenderness was freed from giving me account what she did with it, and I from the irksome trouble of receiving it; and what she spared out of it was properly her own Charity.  
Now, though to give more than her whole Allowance, would be a lean and starveling Charity from those who have more than they know well what to do with; yet, our gracious Lord, the most unexceptionable Judge of these Matters, tells us, the poor Widow's two Mites was more than the bulky Sums which the Rich cast into the Treasuries of God out of their Abundance, who rather squander their Superfluities than retrench from their Necessities, to help the wants of the Indigent; (though I wish there were not too few even of such Squanderers.) And the Holy Apostle tells us, If there be a willing Mind it is accepted according to what a Man hath, and not according to what he hath not, 2 Cor. 8.12. And I bear her Record, that to her Power, yea, beyond her Power, she was always willing and ready to communicate to the Wants of others; for how straight soever her Ability might be, she was not straitened in her own Bowels.  
And though what she did from her own allowance was in strictest Sense her Charity only, yet this only was not all her Charity; for she having a joint Interest in what was mine, she was sharer with me in the disposing or retaining of it; and I can with Truth and Comfort testify, she never dissuaded me from giving, often encouraged me to give, and would say to me on such occasions, My Dear, I think none of our Estate laid out so well as what is laid out so, nor any part kept so safe as what is deposited in God's Hand, and committed to his keeping.  
But this is not all, she would be overbalanced against her own Inclination, if there were Charity in the case. She was not more averse from any thing than the enlarging our Family, loved to have it as small as might be, that it might be still and private, free from disturbing Noise, and distracting Diversions, which unavoidably attend the increased numbers in an House; yet, was cheerfully content when Charity opened the Door, made the Fire and the Bed. As in the Case of Dr. Tongue, whom we entertained so many Months; and Monsieur Barnaby Gennays', who was sent to me but for four Weeks, and left to my sole Charge (five Pounds only allowed towards his admitting into St. John's College in Cambridge,) for six whole Years; two in my Family to be Clothed, Fed, and Taught, till fitted for the University, and four there, till he had his Degree of Bachelor; and yet she never repined or grudged the Cost; yea, took daily Pains to hear him read English, and teach him to pronounce it right. I'll touch no more Instances, lest I be suspected to borrow my own Praise under the disguise of paying hers, only adding the last, which is not liable to that suspicion, because it rather tends as much to my own Reproach as to her Honour. My Curate dying in my Family of a Consumption, and other Infirmities, September last, which had occasioned to us both much Charge and Trouble, and who had been attended with as kind Diligence and Care as if he had been our own Child. After some little time I told her that I would forbear taking a young Man, at least for the present, into the Family, because the public Charges were so great; and I thanked God I was able to perform my Work myself, to which she presently replied: Nay, My Dear, whatever thou sparest in, spare it not in that. Thou never keptest them for thy own Ease, but for their Benefit, to train them up to be fit for God's Service, and useful in the Church, and seeing they have all proved so well, and been so well preferred and provided for, and so approved of in their Ministry, continue to do as thou hast done so successfully so many Years; there is as much need still, as ever, of so assisting Youngmen, and let not that Practice cease, the reason of which is not ceased. I yielded, took her wise and honest Advice, and wrote immediately to a worthy Friend in Cambridge, who provided me one whose Character answered my Desires. But his Mind altered since my Wife's Death, by prospect of Preferment in the College, and I wish he may never have cause to repent it, by being worse disposed of. And if so mean, and so obscure a Person as myself may have leave to speak out, and declare my Sentiments in this Affair, without imputation of Vanity, or Offence to my Betters; if every Minister of my Ability, (not to say of double to mine,) would please to take a poor Scholar into his House as soon as they have commenced Bachelors in Arts, and then are forced to leave the College very raw, because they can no longer have subsistence as Scissors, and would lend or give them Books, direct them in the reading them, and assist and inspect their Studies, (to say no more) there would not so many young Students be at loss for Maintenance, and be forced so Callow, and Pin-feathered, (I borrow that Expression from my Dear, which she was often heard by others, as well as by myself, to use,) and like young Partridges, to run with the Shell upon their Heads; and to get Bread, be constrained to undertake the teaching others, what themselves have so imperfectly learned.  
But to return to what was properly and purely her own, the acts of her Charity were more than the kinds, and both as many as she met with Objects that wanted it, both in giving and forgiving, and both proportioned to the Necessities of those who needed; that before her Rent-day came, she was often near, or quite exhausted; and would pleasantly tell me; Thou must expect no hoard of Money when I am Dead, for I am almost Bankrupt. Then I would tell her, I would supply, or if she would, advance some part beforehand; which I never remember she accepted more than once, three Pounds.  
She used, as soon as she had taken her Allowance, to separate nine Shillings six pence out of it, into her poor Man's Box, to be ready for smaller common Charities. But though this was her first Quota, this was far from being all; for I find twenty six Pound, three Shillings, Fourpences set down in two Years given away; besides what she might forget, or omit, though some small part I confess was rather Courtesy than strictly Charity, as given to Friends, Servants, or the like. And she would give liberal Sums; I find twice five Pounds, ten Shillings given to the French Protestants, for whom she had a great Compassion, one year after another; and I have been informed by an Honourable Lady that she left five Guineas at a time with her for their Relief; but it may be these might be the same, and I would not make it more than it was in Truth.  
She also gave twenty Shillings a time to the Briefs, for both French and Irish Sufferers, and other Guineas at a time I find set down in her Paper, and know of by other means. Also, ten Shillings, five Shillings, and very oft, Half-Crowns. I find also twenty Shillings in a Year given at Tunbridge-Wells, which she distributed to the Poor in smaller Pieces, Shillings, Six-pences, and Farthings, besides the Books she gave.  
But besides what she gave in Money, she both bought good Cloth to  poor Women and Children; the day but one before she sickened, she enquired of the Tailor what poor Children he had made the last  for, that she might order the rest, which then remained in the House to some other. And a little before she bought that whole Piece of Cloth from London, she caused Wool to be spun, and strong Linsy-Woolsy to be made, to supply many poor children's wants; and she was as careful of their Bellies as their Backs; to feed the one, as warm the other, as wants no Proof nor Instance. She used also to buy Primmers, Psalters, Testaments, Bibles to give away, and other good Books, Crook's Guide especially, to give to poor Children and Families. She much delighted and abounded in that kind of Charity, giving useful Books; and before she was prevented by settling a School to teach all the Poor, that not a Boy or Girl in all the Parish, but may be taught to read perfectly, unless it be their own, or Parent's fault, she used to pay for the Schooling of poor Children.  
And being put together, it amounted to a pretty considerable Sum; what she yearly gave to poor Women when with-Child, not only old Linen, but a good new Blanket every Lying-in, which was so customary and constant, that it was almost claimable as a due Debt; and not only the Parish poor Women, but some Borderers have been Partakers of it. And I have been told already by one in that condition, Now her Mistress is dead she must come to me, so unwilling they are to let so known a Custom die with her; with which freedom, as I was not offended, so I discourage not others from making use of the like. She would be also ready to supply the Poor with Work when she heard they wanted, though she had no present need or use of what they wrought in, and sometimes gave it away, and so made at once a double Charity; yet, would never take advantage of their Necessity, to make them work the Cheaper. And she had learned a commendable Rule of her Father when she was young, which was, Never to buy too good a Pennyworth of poor People, or higgle too much with them; which she would do with others, and would buy very prudently, of which I could give a pleasant Instance; but never forgot her Father's Rule in Practice.  
I esteem it no reproach to her Memory to acknowledge that some of her Relations were fallen into a mean and low condition; especially seeing they had fair and decent Portions left them, equal, or very near what I at first received with her; and although their straits were the effect of their own Folly and Indiscretion, which might have been a plausible Excuse for neglecting them, yet, she rather pitied than upbraided them, and was very kind and liberal in relieving them and theirs; and as a Testimony that she was not weary of well-doing, I confess I have forty Shillings in my Hand she gave me in her Health, to be sent to one of them, which was not done, for want of opportunity to return it to her at North-Allerton; but, God willing, shall be done by the first opportunity I can meet with to do it safely. I mention no more of this kind, but her excess of Thankfulness, wherewith she overpayed me for any thing I did for any related to her; always telling me on such occasions it was a trouble to her that any of hers should be burden some; and, I thank God, I never reckoned it a burden, because she always owned it as a Testimony of my Endearing Love to herself.  
This I think sufficient for the account of her Money-charities', though I believe several have sliped my Memory; upon the whole, taking one Year with another, she did not fall short of that Excellent Lady, the Countess of Warwick's Proportion, (or quota pars,) which was so wondered at when I first acquainted the World with it, the third part of her separate Maintenance separated to Pious Uses. But, if we may compare small Sums with great, Mites and Sheakles, with Pounds and Talents, the Charity of this little Woman was so great, she gave more than half away; and out of her twenty two, or twenty three Pound a Year, seldom expended ten on herself; I believe some Years not above seven, or eight, and gave away the rest.  
But lest the endeavour of my Quill, which is to persuade other Women to be Charitable by her Examples, should prove like throwing Feathers against the Wind, be blown back in the Face of him who throws them, and not reach them at whom they are thrown, (I speak of Women of her Rank and Size, not of those who prune themselves with the sick Feathers of their Husband's Estates, as Eloquent and Pious Mr. Shute, checked the gaudy Excesses of the moderate and modest Days in which he Preached,) and be rendered unsuccessful by their Fears, that such supplying others, will make them moult what is otherwise necessary to maintain that Port and Decency which becomes their Quality and Station. Let me assure them, by her Experience, they are more afraid than needs; a moderate Sum prudently managed, will answer both designs; that Body may be dressed neat and fine, and its Hands may be open and munificent, in which there dwells a discreet Mind, and a charitable Heart.  
I dare appeal to Persons of the best Quality, who often honoured her with free admittance to their Conversation; yea, to the Female-Criticks of Tunbridge-Wells, and Walks; the severest, (the Court its self not excepted,) if she ever appeared in a sordid or contemptible garb, she was not garish or flaunting, she despised and hated that, but all the ornamental Part was as good as any of her Condition wore; it is true, she bought not often, but she bought the best, and kept them so neatly, they always shown like new, and she was not concerned or ashamed to be seen more than once or twice in the same Dress, and she had an Art to disguise what was the same, to look like quite another thing. I know I am beside the Cushion, and should be much ashamed of what I writ were not my honest Design my just Apology: Which is, if it be possible, to remove one of the most obstinate Objections which hinders Female-Charity, (though not in all;) they fear it is inconsistent with their appearing so fine and trim, as is expected, without a great Fund, or a Spring as quick as Tunbridge-Wells, which yields Waters sufficient, and to spare for all that come. But repress your Fears, silence your Excuses, what has been done may be done again; a small Root in a good Soil, will spread to admiration in Branches, and in Fruits; a large Heart will pick a great deal out of a narrow Purse. Hers was a faint Spring, yet it let no Channel be dry, not to say filled them all. I am confident, if others would set their Hearts as God inclined hers, they would equal, or exceed her; and my hearty desire, that they may so do, both in Work and Recompense, I hope will excuse what I writ, to help, yea, to press and push them forward.  
Next to the Charity of her Purse was that of her Pains and Kindness, of her getting and improving Skill to assist the infirm and indisposed by inward Sicknesses, and outward Wounds and Sores: She had a competent good measure of Knowledge both in Physic and Chirurgery, which she attained with no small Industry and Labour, and increased by Experience. Her first and main stock she acquired from a Brother-in-Law, a very able Doctor of the London College, who Married her Sister, and was very freely communicative, who wrote her many Receipts, and directed her what methods to proceed in for most common Diseases, into which her poor Neighbours might be incident; and she was very inquisitive of other Doctors, and had many English Books, Riverius, Culpepper, Bonettus, etc. which she read, not to say studied. And good store of Vomits, Purges, Sudorificks, Cordials, Pectorals, almost all kind of Syrups, strong and simple distilled Waters, several Quarts of which she left (yea Gallons of them she used most,) which it is pity should be lost. These cost some Money, but more Pains and Labour to prepare them; and as much variety for Chirurgery Ointments, Oils, Salves, Cerecloths, etc. and she pretended more to the latter than to the former, and had been very inquisitive to inform herself by Men and Books; and as she was very ready to help, so she had been often very successful in both.  
Many, 'tis possible, might exceed her in what follows, whom I know not of, but none ever equalled her, that came within my Observation, in the obliging Charity, to put forth her utmost Ability and Strength in assisting the Sick, and Infirm; not the meanest Neighbour whom she would not visit and help in such Circumstances; administer to them what in her Judgement she thought most proper for them, and not only direct how to use what she brought them, but stay with them, or come again to see the Operation or Success; and she confined not this Kindness to the limits of the Parish, but would extend it to some distance. I will take the freedom to give one Instance, because the Reverend Person, for, and to whom she performed it, in thankful Acknowledgement ever after, used (both while she lived, and since she died) to call her his Nurse.  
A Neighbouring Minister having a long and dangerous Sickness, when upon a Visit made him, she took notice, that (as she feared) he wanted Persons of Experience about him, (having before lost his Wife, and his Physicians by reason of distance could not be long or often with him,) she daily went to him for many days, at near two Miles distance, and stayed with him most part of the Days. I affirm not that she watched with him any Night, (but I am sure she hath done so elsewhere, and perfectly remember when, and where,) because it hath slipped my Memory; and though she was so modest as not to assume much to herself, I have heard her say, She thought God made her Instrumental, not only to the speedier recovery of his Health, but preservation of his Life.  
Another object of her Painful Charity (which I the rather name because our Litany expressly reckons it amongst the objects of our devoutest Prayers,) was, Women Labouring with Child, whom she would rise at any hour of the Night to go too, and carry with her what might be useful to them, having good Skill, and store of Medicines always ready by her for such occasions; and there was scarcely ever any difficulty in that case round about, but recourse was made to her, both for Advice and Medicines; and, if might be with Convenience, for her Presence, which was always very acceptable and comfortable to the distressed Women when the distance was such that she could afford it.  
I might write well near as much of her forgiving as her giving Charity; for, though the objects and occasions of exercising this Grace were not so many and so frequent as those of the other; yet, what they wanted in number, was made up abundantly in Weight and Measure, under which pressures and provocations, she behaved herself as became the Daughter of him who was Dumb before the Shearers, and opened not his Mouth. She would not recompense Evil for Evil, nor answer reviling with reviling; but committed her Cause to him who Judgeth Righteously, knowing it was for his sake she was so despitefully used, and thought it not strange, that seeing the Master of the House was called Beelzebub, those of his Household should ●e called so too. She had well studied our Saviour's Sermon on the Mount, and considered that Passage especially, (for she reckons the Practice of that Lesson amongst the signs of a Regenerate State,) St. Matth. 5.44. I say to you, Love your Enemies; Bless them that Curse you; Do good to them that hate you; Pray for them that despitefully use you, and Persecute you; that ●e may be the Children of your Father which is in Heaven.  
And, to confess her Weakness, I am persuaded she thought it as true a sign of a sincere Christian to love an Enemy, though a bad Man, for the natural Image of God remaining in him, as some do, to hate a Friend, though a good Man, for the renewed Image of God which appears in him: If her Opinion be an Error, I hope it is on the Right-hand, and so may escape being reputed an Heresy. But I remember I am writing of Forgiving Charity, and I would not give occasion to start such a Question as I once heard started by a Gentleman after a lashing Sermon, Preached on a Text of Mercy. He said in Droll, 'Twas a Sermon of Mercy; but the question is, whether it were a Merciful Sermon.— Sed motos praestat componere fluctus, Peace, and be still unruly Passions. What hath added to her Crown o● Glory, as I am confident her Carriage in such rencounters did, should be taken by th● better Handle, esteemed favours for the Issue● rather than injuries for the Design. When Bee● fight, the throwing dust upon them, it is said, will puiet them: She is dead, and her Dus● shall for ever extinguish all Resentments, and let them be buried in an Eternal Amnestry.  
Had she lived, or I wrote of her in another Age, one thing more might have been added to the List of, or brought up the Rear of her Charity; that is, the temper of her Mind and Carriage towards those who were not altogether of her Size and Dimensions, nor cast exactly in her Mould. I confess, she was one of the old-fashioned Christians, who thought her Heavenly Father's Example an Authentic Warrant for her Imitation, of whom whosoever feareth God, and working Righteousness, is accepted. And though Virtues and Vices change their names, and grow unmodish and obsolete, like Garbs and Words, yet old Wine relished best to her palate, which so many spit out as soon as taste, and cry, it is vapid or eager. Some perhaps may wonder that so wise a Man as St. Paul should not only allow Moderation to be commendable, but enjoin it as a Duty, and press it by the Medium of the Day of the Lord drawing near; Let you Moderation be known unto all Men, the Lord is at hand. When now his coming is sixteen hundred Years nearer, most Men are as many Miles more distant from Moderation than when he wrote. But I must acknowledge, how much soever it may lessen her in the Esteem of any, that she had a Latitude (not in her Conversation, for she always walked in the Narrow Way) in her Judgement, about little indifferent Matters. (Oh, how Diametrically opposite are some in both!) She observed there were Men of all Complexions, and Blacks and Tawnys, as well as Whites, were Descendants of the first Adam, and so she hoped those of different Persuasions might be engrafted into the Second Adam; and therefore thought Job's Words Canonical to this Day; Why Persecute we him, seeing the Root of the Matter is found in him?  
She did not think all, that in a few things dissented from the Communion in which she lived, such rank Heathens; that if she heard a Man name them without setting a stigmatising Brand upon them, like the  Jews of St. Paul, upon the mere naming of the Gentiles, Acts 22.22. She should cry out, Away with such a Fellow from the Earth; for it is not fit that he should Live.  
It is a true and weighty Saying, worthy our Remembrance and Imitation, That the prime Object of God's Love is his Dear Son, and next to that, the Image of his Son wherever he finds it. And she wrote after this Copy, she loved the Lord Jesus in Sincerity; she loved the Lord her God with all her Heart, and all her Soul, with all her Might, and all her Strength; and her Neighbour as herself. She would speak evil of no Man; do evil to no Man, but did all the good she could, as she had opportunity; especially to the Household of Faith. And though she loved the whole World with a love of Benevolence, she loved those chosen out of the World with a Love of Complacency. She had a peculiar Esteem of, and Affection for God's People: Her choice delight was in the Saints, and those who excelled in Virtue.  
She was not ashamed to be accounted their Sister whom Christ was not ashamed to call his Brethren; the Profession, but much more the power of Godliness was so far from being terminus Diminuens, an abatement of her value and kindness, that it much endeared those to her in whom she found it, and fastened those Bonds more strongly which had been tied by Nature, Neighbourhood, or Friendly Conversation. I excuse not the length of this Section, it being not easy to write too much of that of which she never thought she practised enough; though she had, as it were, habituated it into her Constitution, it being as the Element in which she lived.   

SECT. XXIV. Of her Care to advance God's Glory, and the Salvation of Souls.  
I have so far prevented myself in both those in what I have already written of her, that scarce any thing remains to be farther added anew concerning them; and I confess it seems to myself somewhat improper to make a distinct Section of what is the Subject of the whole. The Care to promote those was as the Spinal Marrow in the Body; yea, as the Soul, which animated the whole; as the Pith which ascends from the Root of a Tree through the Trunk to every Branch and Twig. She set the Lord continually before her, had respect to him in all her Thoughts, and Words, and Actions, and reveered his Presence in all her Natural, Moral, Civil and Religious Performances. Seeing him that was Invisible, that nothing might escape from her which would provoke or dishonour him who is of purer Eyes than to behold Iniquity, she yielded the Throne of her Heart to God; and whether she spoke or wrote to others, or Prayed for them, she exhorted, or entreated, that the Interest of God's Glory might be uppermost, obtain the Supremacy, and nothing be its Rival, or stand in competition with it. Such Expressions frequently occurring in many of the Passages above related and transcribed from her Papers; and for the promoting the Salvation of others, she remembered and practised our Saviour's Counsel to St. Peter; Thou, when thou art Converted strengthen thy Brethren. I have given account above of her indefatigable Care, and zealous Diligence in instructing Children, Servants, Neighbours; and it is unreasonable to conclude I have little to say on this Head, because I will not say over again what I had so fully said before. Her Converse was generally very Serious, Savory, Edifying; few have come to see me since she died who have not told me how frequently and faithfully she used to give them good Advice and Exhortations to be sincerely Religious; and indeed, she was endowed with an extraordinary measure of Courage, Prudence, Faithfulness, to give necessary, free, kind and seasonable Reproofs, Admonition, and Instructions, and would not suffer Sin to be upon their Souls whom she had any opportunity to rescue from it; at least, would use her best Endeavours to effect so good a Work, and would speak so home and plainly to them who needed it, that I confess I have sometimes thought she rather exceeded, and have between ourselves intimated so much to her, to which she would wisely, and with just Apology reply; My Dear, we must deal freely, and speak home in such Cases, not mince the Matter and speak slightly, it will not be minded if we do, and as good never a whit as never the better; it is well if all we can say will effect what it is said for; and if they be not convinced both of their own Error, and our , and made to feel what we speak by our plain and faithful Earnestness, all the rest is lost to them and us; they'll be no better for it, and we shall not have the comfort of discharging the part and duty of true Christian Friendship. And she had often good success; but once above other times, so eminent and signal, I can hardly forbear to relate it, and I have heard her more than once or twice make mention of it with Thankfulness and Comfort, and as a good encouragement to do the like. She had a very awakened Sense, and deep impressions on her Mind of that Estate which is on the other side of Death, and was full fraught with Love and Pity to Immortal Souls, and would do all she could to the saving of her own and others, and therefore accounted all kindest offices not worth the name of true Friendship, which stopped short, and reached not to, at least, had not a fair tendency towards the Eternal Salvation of her Friends.   

SECT. XXV. Several Graces in which she was most Eminent.  
I Have cause to repent those hasty Thoughts set down before, page the 50th, as Heads to be touched more fully, by which I have made myself Debtor to the Reader's Expectation, to write somewhat of the Title of this Section; for when I set my Thoughts to single out in the Prospect of them all, which shined with the greatest Lustre, all were so fair and bright I am at a loss on which to fix the Preference: For I may say of her with Modesty and Truth, what St. Gregory Nazianzen saith of his Sister Gorgonia with wonder, That she excelled in all Virtues; and St. Jerome of Nepotian, that he was so Eminent in all Graces as if he had excelled but in some one alone. She was complete in Christ, had taken to herself the whole Armour of God; not an almost-Christian, but throughly furnished to every good Word and Work. And as God had preserved her, that though she was assaulted by many Buffetting Temptations, she was not overcome by them, and that no Iniquity had Dominion over her, to Reign in her Mortal Body, or Immortal Soul to blot her Name or Profession with any Scandalous Offence; so every Grace of the Spirit, with all which she was very plenteously adorned, exerted its self with Vigour, was not raked up in faint and lazy Habits.  
Her Knowledge in which the New Man is renewed, and without which the Wise Man tells us, the Heart cannot be good, was clear, solid, and indeed Masculine, beyond the Proportion of her Sex and Degree, as may appear by all she wrote; and she would discourse and argue very knowingly, and with sound Judgement upon any Point of Divinity, as occasion offered. The Oil which fed this Lamp was her much Reading good Books, but especially the Holy Scriptures, in which she meditated Day and Night; and if the Saying be true, a good Textuary is a good Divine, she might have some pretence to that Character; for though I will not say (what is said of Apollo's) she was mighty in the Scriptures; yet, I may say truly, the word of Christ dwelled richly in her; and if David's delight in the Law of God made him Wiser than the Ancient, yea, than his Teachers, she might be near as Wise as some of them, considering that her Knowledge was not merely Notional and Swimming in her Brain, but Experimental and Practical. She felt and tasted, yea, lived the Truths she knew; and teaching her Children the grounds of Religion, grounded herself more deeply in them.  
Her Faith was strong, by which she gave Glory to God; not an Airy Fancy, but a firm Persuasion, built upon the Rock of Ages. She knew whom she had Believed; it may appear what Mettle that Shield was made of, by the many Fiery Darts of the Devil so impetuously thrown at her, and so incessantly for many Years, and so successfully, and so triumphantly quenched by it.  
Her Charity, that greatest of Graces, the very Bond of Perfection, the Crown of all the other, and which covers a Multitude of Sins, that Bud or Blossom of Glory which shall be full Blown, and arrive at maturity in Heaven, where it shall never fade or fail; it was so fervent and fruitful, (as may appear by what I have so truly written of it in a distinct Section,) that I dare appeal even to the most uncharitable and prejudiced Illwill, if it were not Eminent, to Superlative Degree and Measure.  
For her Patience, which met with so many, and so smarty Trials both from God and Men, yet had its perfect Work, and by it she possessed her Soul in submiss and silent Acquiescence, charging herself Humbly and Wisely, but never charging God frowardly and foolishly; meekly complaining to him, never peevishly complaining of him.  
Her Sympathy with others, in their sufferings and sorrows, was as signal as her Patience in her own. And as she had very tender and strong Affections, her usual saying was, great Affection, great Affliction: And that they who had many Friends, must needs have many Sorrows; because they must share with them all, in their Troubles and Crosses. She had well learned that Apostolical Lesson, to Mourn with them that Mourn, and bear others burdens, and so fulfil the Law of Christ; as I find her more than once express herself, in Consolatory Letters, many of which she wrote to her distressed Friends, under calamitous Providences; and would tell them, she would willingly put under her Shoulder to ease the pressure of their loads, they groaned under: And would often from her own Experience declare, That she judged the Griefs of others to be the biggest part of our uneasy disquietings in this Life. But no Afflictions were so pungent, and entered so deep into her pious tender heart, as those of the Church of God; and the tyrannous Persecutions on those who suffered for the Gospel of Christ, and for his sake were killed all the day long, and counted as Sheep for the slaughter: As the Hungarian, French and Peidmount Protestants.  
Her Pity to the Poor was very great, not only in the cases touched before, but in her care to rescue from present and eternal Ruin, those who were desperately running into both. To this end, she ventured to take up several Beggar-boys and Girls at the Door; and after cleansing them from their nastiness, receiving them into the House, of which some proved well, and she obtained the end she aimed at; but more untractable, and deceived her Expectation and Desires: yet this did not discourage her. I shall give one Instance, which will hardly meet with its parallel.  
And, as in many more like cases, she exceeded most others, so in this she outdid herself. About three or four Years since, there came a forlorn Creature begging to the Door; a Girl of about Thirteen Years old, in such a loathsome pickle, as may slain my Ink to write, and turn the stomaches of the Nice to read it; almost eat up with Scabs and Vermin; and as ignorant of God and Christ, as if she had been born and bred in Lapland or Japan, and scarce Rags to cover her; yet this blunted neither the point nor edge of her Compassion, but rather whetted and sharpened both. When she had asked her many Questions, both of her miserable Condition and Religion; of the latter of which she knew not one syllable; but that her Christian Name was Mary, her Surname was Bun. The case seemed so desperate, it almost posed and put her Pity to a Plunge what to do to rescue her from the very Brink and Precipice of Temporal and Eternal Ruin; but while she was Eating what she sent her warm, being well nigh starved, she considered what might be done; she feared, if she dismissed her so, her Ruin was next to inevitable, and not to prevent that to her Power, she judged inconsistent with the Love of God dwelling in her Heart. She then resolved, not on the shortest, but the safest Course, having engaged her to promise to be honest, humble, thankful, and a good Girl if she could be recovered. She ordered clean Straw to be laid in an Outhouse, where she lodged, and fed her, until she procured a Charitable Neighbour to strip her, cut off her Hair, and wash her; for it was not possible to cleanse her otherwise; she also provided old  to keep her sweet and warm; then she used means to cure her Itch, and when some Months had perfectly recruited her, and made her like another Creature, she clothed her new, took her into the House, taught her the Catechism, to read, and do somewhat in the Family which might fit her for a Service, and prevailed with a Rich Farmer who had Married one of our Maids, to take her Apprentice, promising to  her well. She wrote a large and excellent Letter to persuade him, besides discoursing with him.  
He consented, received her upon Trial; but when she was to be legally Bound, that the latter Years of her Apprenticeship might compensate the unprofitableness of the first, a new difficulty arose; none could bind her validly but her Father, or the Parish from whence she came; many Messages, and one or two special Messengers were sent, but all in vain. What should she do more, she resolves to go herself, order the Coach to be ready to carry her the next Day, entreated me to go with her as far as North-Hall, twenty Miles distant, a troublesome Journey cross the County. We came to Sir William Lemmon's, because the Girl told us her Father worked constantly with him; it was our unhappiness that Worthy Person was from Home; and though we found the Girls Father, no words could make the least Impression on him, or extort other answer from him but, That she was a naughty Girl; He would neither meddle or make with her; We might do what we would; not so much as once I thank you for all your Cost and Trouble. We left him, found another chief Man of the Parish; but the Overseer for the Poor being absent, nothing could be farther done at present; only the Person we last spoke with seemed sensible of the Matter, promised to take effectual course that the Girl should be duly Bound to the good Master provided for her; but after tedious waiting and expecting, and nothing done, we were forced to send her back with Horse and Man to the Place from whence she came, only with this difference, She was in good Plight, and well Clothed, and taught somewhat, who, when we took her up, was one of the forlornest, miserable Objects I ever saw. And if this will not prove the Pity of this good Woman to be a little above the ordinary Pitch and Size, I must confess I have mistitled this Section, and own she was Eminent in no Grace at all. I hope naming Persons and Places will give none offence: I conceived it necessary to make it evident I writ not Romance, but matter of Fact, and unquestionable Truth.  
For her Repentance, it was her daily Business to renew it, and approve it to be sincere; as if she had thought herself as Tertullian wrote, Born for nothing else but ad agendum poenitentiam, To do Penance, or Repent. She was a great Weeper, (though innocently Cheerful in Conversation when she liked her Company.) I am persuaded she shed more Tears 〈◊〉 especially in the time of her Temptation) to prevent Sin, and in Praying against it, ●han some Hundreds ever did to bewail it when committed; and she was frequent in keeping solemn private days of Fasting and Humiliation, as was hinted when I shown how she ●pent a Week, pag. 48.  
Her Reverential Fear of God was very remarkable; she could not endure to hear Sacred things spoken of with lightness, much less with scorn and ridicule. If any had heard a Story of the Profaneness of any other, and went about the telling of it, she would put forth both her Hands, as thrusting him away, or move them to her Ears as if she would stop them, and cry out, I pray tell no such Stories in my Hearing; and if they desisted not, would hasten away. These Holy Impressions were first rooted in her by the Practice and Example of Mr. Martin (who published Bishop Brownrig's Sermons,) whom she frequently heard when young; whom I have often heard her mention with Honour, as a Person who always spoke of God with profoundest Reverential Awe she ever heard any Man, and grew up more and more in, and after the time of her long and sore Temptations by Blasphemous Suggestions, lest her Enemy should take advantage by any Profane Word spoken in her hearing to tincture her Mind with any Thought or Notion unsuitable to the most adorable Divine Perfections.  
Yet this great and solemn Reverence she always retained towards God and Christ; notwithstanding, I must acknowledge she used not to bow at the sound and mention of the Name of the most Holy Jesus.  
Her Love of God was as raised and fervent as her Fear of him was submiss and calm. She was a Terrestrial Seraphim; this Grace was always flaming; all her Sacrifices were offered up with Divine Fire, upon an Altar not built of hewn Stone, but of Earth or unpolished Stones, upon which no Tool had been lifted up (if I may allude to that passage of the Law,) which might pollute it; I mean, an Heart profoundly humble. As the Glory of God was the End she always propounded to herself, and his revealed Will was the Rule and Measure of all she said or did; so the Love of God was the Spring and Principle from whence all was derived and flowed; as the Hart panted after the Water-Brooks, so her Heart panted after God. Her Soul was a-thirst for God; the Living God; crying with David's Pathos, When shall I appear in the Presence of God. She loved God for himself, and all she loved besides, she loved for his Sake, and the more of him she found in any thing or Person, the more dearly did she love it.  
And because she knew mere Pretenders are but God's Flatterers, they only who intent what the Profess, are God's Friends; as Maximus Tyrius, a Heathen Philosopher, could observe; and she had learned from a greater and better Master, who bids us, If we love him keep his Commandments.  
Her Obedience was very uniform, universal, unreserved, constant; she did not pick and choose, but that she might not be ashamed, had respect to all God's Commandments. She did not cull out cheap and easy Duties, and draw back her Hand from touching what seemed more burdensome and heavy; but what was God's Will Commanding, was her Will Obeying; and what was his Providential Will in ordering and disposing, was hers in approving and submitting, without regret and murmur. And for Sins, she dealt not with them as Saul with the Amalekites Cattle, slay, mortify only the lean and refuse, and spare the fat ones, abstain from such as had no bait of Pleasure or Profit to bribe her, not to pass Sentence against them, but shut her Eyes against such Bribes; she kept herself from her own Iniquities, would not taste the least Morsel of forbidden Fruit, seemed it never so pleasant to the Eye, or liquorish to the Taste; in a word, The Law of God was written on her Heart, and her Life and Conversation were a Counterpart and Transcript of it.  
My thoughts of her Virtues bringing to my Mind the remembrance of other good Women, and amongst them Huldah the Prophetess, in whose time the Law was found, (the Copy of which had been lost in the Evil Days before Josiah,) almost transported me to write what others would call (and I would not deny to border on it,) an extravagant Hyperbole; that if the Law had beed lost with us, it might have been renewed and copied out from her Life and Practice.  
Her Sincerity was very Eminent, she hated Guile and Hypocrisy with a perfect Hatred; how oft hath her Pen left it written, and her Heart and Tongue uttered it an hundred times more, Let Integrity and Uprightness preserve me. She would not, could not disguise and act a Part; her Conversation was in Simplicity and Godly Sincerity; she knew God could not be mocked, and she dreaded the Thoughts of doing it; and she was of so generous a Temper she scorned to deceive Men, and she feared exceedingly to deceive herself; and therefore was often searching and trying herself, and ways putting herself into the Balance of the Sanctuary, and crying to God in David's Language: Lord, search me and try me, and see if there be any way of Wickedness left in me, and lead me in the Way Everlasting.  
I will join her Modesty to her Sincerity, because there is no greater Impudence than to be an Hypocrite, who cunningly hides (to escape the reproach of open Wickedness) from the Eyes of Men, what, with Atheistical Boldness, he is neither afraid nor ashamed to display before those Eyes which are as a Flame of Fire, from which nothing can be hid, and as easily will detect it as earnestly detest it, and severely avenge it.  
Her Modesty, (which you heard before she called the Woman's Ornament,) was so undeflowred, that she loathed in others what had the slightest appearance of staining or tarnishing that orient Beauty and adorning Comeliness, and which she strove to plant in her Daughters, as the fairest Flower in that Garden, which she cultivated with her best Industry; and for herself, I can, and do give her this true Testimony; I never heard a Word proceed from her Mouth of unpure defiling Sound or Sense, or of least tendency to either. Her Garb and Dress, her Carriage and Gestures, and her whole Conversation were all of a Piece with her Communication, which was always Savoury; Seasoned with Salt that it might Minister Grace to them who heard it.  
I confess, I reckon neither a slattering fordidness in Dress, nor Pusillanimity to speak out in reproving Sin or Sinners as occasion required, any branches of Modesty, (as I fear some do) in respect of Garb or Words, for I have showed before, both how exact her Neatness, and how great her Courage was, to make and keep her Faithful to the Interest of God and Souls. The Righteous is bold as a Lion, and so was she.  
But this hindered not her Meekness, she was as meek as a Lamb in her own Cause, though bold as a Lion in the Cause of God; no true Virtues interferre, or are inconsistent; I could prove this by Instance. She indeed was quick, and prone to be hasty, this was, if any, the Sin of her Constitution; but, ware of it, she doubled her Guards to prevent a Breach upon her weak Side. She had gathered more than five Pages of apposite Scriptures which exhort to meekness of Spirit, as I touched before, page 74.  
The third of which is Psal. 18.23. I was also upright before him, and kept myself from mine eniquity. Which I conclude she did upon that account, because she found herself liable to be surprised by that Infirmity of her Natural Temper, Hastiness, the contrary to Meekness; those Sins being most properly called our own which proceed from our Constitution, Callings, and prevailing Custom. And the next is, Job 13.31. If I did despise the cause of my Manservant, or my Maid-Servant when they contended with me. Which she set down to keep her from being angry without hearing their Excuses, if they had any, to extenuate a Fault, or not beyond Proportion to it, if they had none; and many or her Servants, as well as myself, can witness, if she had exceeded in her Reproofs or Chiding, she would chide herself more than she had done them, and pray them to forgive her; so much more willing was she to bear Shame than Gild. She proceeds; Cease from anger, and forsake wrath; fret not thyself in any wise to do evil, Psal. 37.18. And next, A froward heart shall departed from me. But I shut the Book, or I should with transcribing and remarking fill a Sheet, and weary my Reader.  
She was a very discreet, wise, and prudent Woman, and of a good Judgement; she was indeed, sometimes pretty positive, stiff, tenations and adhesive to her Sentiments; which I have gently reproved, as being a little overweening and too well conceited of her own Wisdom, which I remember with great regret; but clear her, and confess my own Error without any regretting what I now do therein; for I must acknowledge that the Event for the most part proved, she was in the right, and persisted not out of Humour, but because her Opinion was well grounded, and fixed upon good Reason.  
She was an excellent Proficient in satisfied Acquiescence, and had learned the Art of Contentment to Perfection; she had attained to a Ne plus ultra, in the things of this Life; she did not only not desire, but was afraid of being greater or richer in this World than God had vouchsafed to make us; she chose to follow, not to lead, or dictate to the Motions of Divine Providence, and she knew my Mind so well, she needed not to do it when we were alone; but she hath often said before many Witnesses what I am about to relate.  
When many Friends who knew her Humour would be saying, I would be shortly so or so preferred; I suppose in Merriment rather than that they really thought so; she would reply, and entreat them to hold their Peace, saying, Such Discourse was very unacceptable to her; and lest their vain Breath should Infect me, (though I thank God, whose Sacred Name I would not use in vain, I never found myself susceptive of that Infection,) she would drop such preventing Physic: What can we desire that we want? What have they who have so many Preferments more than we, but a greater Account to give at the Day of Judgement? We have enough to answer all the ends of Necessity and Decency, and somewhat to spare for Charity; we know not what it is to be in straits, and often lend, when others who have so much more are forced to borrow. It is a low and easy thing in our Circumstances to be content, it is too cheap a Return for our Enjoyments; it concerns us to be highly thankful, the Good Lord make us so: And therefore I pray find some other Discourse, and leave this idle and unwelcome Twattle. So freely would she speak when they had teazed and warmed her, not to say vexed her, with their impertinent Harrangs.  
And indeed she was very thankful; what a sweet Spirit of Praise breaths in all I have transcribed from her Papers? and she did truly abound in this Grace. She had well learned the Apostle's Lesson, In all things to give thanks: she blessed the Lord at all times, his Praise was continually in her Mouth. She seldom enterprised any thing without Prayer, and as seldom finished it without Praise; comparatively, she esteemed Praise much more excellent than Prayer, not only as it is more like the Employment of the Holy Angels, and the Spirits of Just Men made perfect, but as it is less selfish, and hath a more immediate aspect upon God; our own Necessities constrain us to cry to God for Relief, and the worst Men will Pray, yea, and make Vows when they are in fear, but only good Men will return to pay their acknowledgements when their turn is served; all the ten Lepers cried for Mercy, but where are the nine? there was but one of them found to render Thanks. St. Gregory the Great gives this Reason why, of all the holy Men of God mentioned in the Sacred Oracles, David only is called the Man after God's own Heart: Because he wrote the Book of Psalms, those Divine Praises. Praise is so agreeable to the Heart of God, (he that offereth Praise, glorifieth me;) that the Man of Praise is the Man after God's own Heart; and this good Woman hath left this comfortable Evidence, and ground of hope behind her, that she is gone to the place where Eternity will be spent in endless Hallelujahs, and Songs of Thanksgivings, who did so anticipate that State and Work whilst here below. She hath left sixteen whole Pages of one form of Thanksgiving, which she gins thus:  
Lord what shall I render to thee for all thy unspeakable Benefits in thy Mercies to me! I beseech thee in the remembrance of them, let thy Holy Spirit excite and stir up in my Heart a thankful Acknowledgement. Lord, I bless thee for thyself, in whom all Perfection is Eternal and Unchangeable, an Everliving and Immortal God, filled with all adorable Excellency, the Author and Original of all things, the first Principle of all good, who art most amiable to an Intellectual Eye, most adequate and proportionable, most suitable to Immortal Being's. Thou Lord, art the Felicity and Bliss of Souls, etc. And so she proceeds sixteen whole Pages without any vain Tautologies, only beginning the several Paragraphs with Lord I bless thee, or the like, (this is written the most curiously of any thing I yet have found of hers) and continues to the End with most raised Fervours of Holy Praises; I can scarce forbear to say, with flowing streams of sweet and Pious Eloquence.  
I will venture my Reader's Candour to excuse my adding the last Lines.  
I bless thee for the hopes I have of a glorious Resurrection when thou wilt be glorified in thy Saints; thou wilt say to the North give up, and to the South, keep not back; that thy Sons may be brought from far, and thy Daughters from the ends of the Earth; and all as Faithful Depositories shall restore to thee at that universal Jubilee; then shall my Dust arise and Praise thee. I bless thee for thy Kingdom, afree Donation and Inheritance of thy Saints; there shall be no pricking Briar, or grieving Thorn, when I shall neither fin nor sorrow any more, but for ever be in the Exaltation of Eternal Bliss, where thy Angels, Cherubims, and Seraphims adore and worship thee with the highest fervour of Zeal and Love, and where my Soul shall shine in its full Strength in thy Everlasting Praises. Amen, Amen, Amen.  
And there is not one Line less warm and savoury in all the other than are this Beginning and Conclusion of it.  
The time would fail me to recount and reckon up all the other Graces in which she was Eminent, and to blazon their Lustre, and reflect their Brightness. The tenderness of her Conscience, which was very remarkable, as I could Evidence in many Particulars; this Pulse of her Soul beat very quick, but withal was very even and uniform, she used not to strain at Gnats, and swallow Camels. Her Rule was in dubious Cases, always to choose the safest to the best of her Judgement, not to consult with Flesh and Blood, and be swayed by the Advice they suggested, to do nothing rashly, but with due and prudent Deliberation. She was afraid of Sin, as Sin, and therefore of all Sin, and would abstain from all appearance of Evil. Though she was not such a Stoic as to esteem all Sins equal, yet she esteemed none in itself little, because there is no little God to sin against; no little Law to be despised; no little Heaven to be lost; no little Hell to be endured: But an Almighty God, a Royal Law, an Heaven of unconceivable Glory, and an Hell of endless and easeless Torments were concerned in all, and it renders the least Sin in its own Nature, a very great one to venture on it boldly against the light and dictates of Conscience.  
Her Care to improve that Inch of precious Time on which so vast an Eternity depends, was very signal. She squandered not an Hour, scarce suffered a Moment to run waste; she used, she knew no Games, nor needed other to relax or recreate her Spirits but vicissitude and variety of commendable Employment; the change of Business sufficiently relieved her, when she was weary of one, she counted it a Refreshment to set upon another. As a Traveller who sometimes Rides and sometimes Walks, but still proceeds, continues his Journey, changes his Posture, but not his Design; and few ever made Religion their Business more intently, and with fewer Interruptions.  
Her public Spiritedness should not be forgotten, the concerns of the Nation, especially of the Church, lay very near her Heart: She preferred Jerusalem before her chief Joy.  
I will wrap up this Section with two which were diffused and spread over all the rest. Her Zeal and her Humility.  
Zeal is not so properly a distinct peculiar Grace, as the Cream and Flower of them all, the Oil which swims upon the waters of the Sanctuary, the Varnish which both preserves them from fading, and gives a shining, advantageous Lustre to all the Colours with which the lively Picture of the new Creature is drawn; not a distinct piece of the Divine Armour, but the Edge and Keenness, the Furbishing and Brightness, both of offensive and defensive Arms.  
Her Zeal was very vigorous and lively; she knew not what it was to be dull and sluggish: Whatever her Hand found to do, she did it with all her Might; and Nature, which too often is the remora of Grace, in her was a nimble and useful Handmaid to it. She had an agile active Body, Spare and Lean, feared to be Fat; saying, She hated to be clogged with a foggy bulk of Flesh, and of a vivacious sprightly Soul, and these streams being in the right Channel Whafted her as Wind and Tide, to her desired Port and Harbour, that she was never becalmed or Wind-bound, but Sailed amain, and kept on her Course with swiftest Expedition, till she had finished it with Safety, and with Joy; not that I ascribe it solely or chief to these, but principally to the Divine Gales of the Holy Spirit of God, so freely and plenteously vouchsafed to her; that Wind which Bloweth where it listeth: And for ever Blessed be his Goodness which so often filled her Sails.  
Lastly, She was clothed with Humility, as the Apostle counsels; this I might call her Dust-gown, for the aptness of the Allusion, but it hung not so lose about her, but was girded on with the Girdle of Truth about her Loins; she wore it constantly, no dress was more becoming herself or others in her Account; she studied to bring it into Fashion by her Example and Advice; she bought several of Mr. W. A's Treatises of that Subject to give to Friends; those who received them will attest it; and I hinted before she had made preparations to write a Tractate of it. Amongst other things she had to say of it, she had prepared this Encomium, That it is the Foundation that gives Stability, the Strength which gives Security, the Ornament that reflects Beauty, and the Completion which gives the finishing strokes to all other Graces.  
I shall not, after all this, need to draw her Character distinctly; if I do any thing in that it shall be added in the close of all.  
I am now arrived at my Mournful Heavy Loss, and her much waited for, and desired Gain, and great Advantage, her much bewailed Death, to prepare for which had been her daily work for many Years, which happened February the 23d, this present Year 1690.  
Her Sickness was short, but blessed be God her great Work was not then to do. She began to complain Wednesday Noon, but dined with me; took her Bed that Afternoon with design to sweat with a Dose of the Lady Kent's Powder, but could not sweat. I sent for Dr. Yardly early Thursday Morning, a Vein was opened, other Administrations ordered, which seemed to succeed so well, that we had scarce any apprehensions of Danger. She sat up four hours Saturday, till seven at Night, and thought herself, and so did we, refreshed and better by it; but a complicated Disease, a Rheumatism, Erysipelas, and Peripneumonia, by God's Wise and Holy Righteous Ordering prevailed against her Strength and our Hopes. And on the Lord's Day she passed to her dearest Lord, and the wellbeloved Bridegroom of her Soul, to begin that Eternal Sabbath which shall never be interrupted nor cease. She spoke not much in her Sickness, hindered by the shortness of her Breath, and swelling of her Face. What she did was suitable to her Holy Life, and I believe God hid from her as well as us, the near approach of her Death, in Mercy to us all. One of the last Words she spoke to me was before my going to Church; A short Prayer my Dear before thou goest.  
She was Buried February the 27th following with that decency which is fit for others to relate than myself, and now she sleeps in Jesus, who, by his Burial perfumed and warmed that Bed of the Grave for all his Members, where we leave her in hopes of a Glorious Resurrection when her Dust shall rise to praise him.    

AN APPENDIX: Containing some few of the Directions she wrote for her children's Instruction, mentioned Sect. 12. And some few Letters written by her.  

I Desire it may be remembered she wrote these, not for grown and experienced Christians, who might be fit to instruct her than be assisted by her, much less with the least Prospect they should ever be published or seen by many Eyes; my own never saw them till hers were closed; but I hope may be useful for young ones and Beginners, and as such I recommend them to her Friends to communicate to their Children, if they think good, and have not given them better of their own; and therefore it is not just to measure her Abilities by the scantling of this Performance, but to consider the End to which it was designed, to suit the Capacities, and assist the tender Minds of those for whom they were written, when I guess they might be about twelve, or fourteen years of Age; for one of them died at sixteen; and with this equitable Allowance I hope they may be very passable, if not commendable and useful.  
For my Dear Children, Mrs. Margaret and Elizabeth Walker.  
IT is the duty of Christians to Pray fervently and frequently, with Faith, with Humility, with Sincerity, with Constancy, with watchfulness, in the Spirit, with Warmth and Life.  
Prayer is a means whereby we give Worship to God, giving him the Glory of all his adorable Perfections.  
Prayer is the Soul's Motion to God; Desire and Expectation are the Soul of Prayer.  
Prayer is a knocking at the Door of God's Grace and Mercy in Christ for all manner of Supplies you stand in need of.  
Prayer is a Wrestling with God; the Lord is willing to forgive, ready to hear and help, yet he delighteth to have his Strength tried, Gen. 32.24, 25.  
The work of Prayer is not so much to lift up the Hands, and Eyes, and Voice, as to lift up the Heart and Soul.  
In Prayer is required extensiveness and intensiveness of Mind, and Heart, with Importunity, which consisteth in a frequent renewing of our Suits to God, notwithstanding all discouragements, with a patiented waiting for returns of Grace.  
Prayer must be a Premeditated Work, as to the Sins to be confessed, the Wants expressed, the Mercies acknowledged; but especially to have right apprehensions of the Purity, Majesty, Immensity, All-sufficiency, Fidelity, and Bounty of the Lord, to whom you Pray; with Faith in his Promises and Providences, and his Almightiness to supply your Wants in the things of this Life, and the Life to come.  
Be much with God in Secret Prayer, and let not the fire of the Spirit, and Holy Zeal be wanting in any Duty, which, in the Hearts of God's People send out Holy Vapours of fragrant spiritual Desires and Requests to God, Vials full of Odours, which are the Prayers of the Saints, Rev. 5.8. compared to sweet Incense, Mal. 1.11. How near are the Saints thus exercised to Jesus Christ? There is but a step, as it were, between them and Heaven. What precious answers of Grace receive they oftentimes from the Oracle of God.  
You will do well to observe the fittest Season for Secret Prayer; though a Christian is to Pray at all times, yet at sometimes more especially; when we meet with any new Occurrence of Providence, every fresh dispensation of Providence is a prompt to Prayer, as when any Affliction befalls us, Jam. 5.13.  
So when any fresh Mercy is received, it is a fit season to go aside, and to acknowledge God's Goodness, and our own unworthiness, 2 Sam. 7.18. When you find the Spirit of God moving upon your Soul, exciting you to the Duty, Cant. 2.10. your Hearts should answer again, Thy Face Lord will I seek, Psal. 27.5.  
When you find your Heart in a settled and composed Frame; then also is a fit season for secret Prayer. When, as David's, your Heart is fixed, not disturbed with any Secular Business.  
The Morning also is a fit Season for Secret Prayer, the Mind is most composed, and troubled with fewest Diversions. (See her Practise, Sect. 5. pag. 33.  
It were well to be with God as soon as you awake, to offer up to him the first-Fruits of every Day; this was, with others, David's manner, Psal. 5.3.139.3.  
The Evening also is a fit Season for Secret Prayer, Psal. 55.17. not only to begin, but to conclude the Day with God: Sleep not till you have begged his Pardon for your Sins committed, and Praised him for the Mercies received that Day.  
When you go about any Holy Duty, set by all Worldly Occasions; say to them as Abraham did to his Youngmen, Stay you here while I go aside and Worship God, Gen. 22.5.  
Do not ordinarily go to Prayer when your Anger is stirred, and your Mind full of Perturbation, 1 Tim. 2.8. lest you offer up the Sacrifice of a Fool, 1 Kings 19.11, 12. and speak unadvisedly with your Lips.  
Do not actually engage in Prayer when you are inclined to Sleep and Drowsiness; you must be wakeful when you Pray, if you would watch unto Prayer.  
Also allot, and set out a due Proportion of Time for the Duty of Prayer; a slighty huddled Prayer is a blind Sacrifice; carlessness in Prayer, breedeth and feedeth Inconstancy, and Instability in Prayer.  
Slightiness in Prayer is an inlet to delusive Fancies, and is a forerunner of Apostasy, if not seasonably reduced: Such Religious Performances go out like the Snuff of a Candle.  
It is not enough to choose a fit time, but you must allow sufficient time to Pray: If you are straitened in your Time, you will be straitened in your Prayer.  
Also a great help in the well-performance of the Duty of Secret Prayer, is to take Pains with your Heart by Meditation.  
As the offering of sweet Incense was prepared and compounded of many costly Materials, Exod. 30.34. so is a Spiritual Prayer, not rudely and confusedly, but deliberately, advisedly, preparedly, and very particularly presented before the Lord.  
It is usually from want of preparation you find such deadness and indisposedness in Prayer; a heedful and deliberate reading of the Holy Scriptures before Prayer, is also a great help for the well-performing of the Duty.  
A farther help in the duty of Prayer, is to have right conceptions of God, conceive of him as he is, and as he hath revealed himself in his Word to be; an Omnipresent God, Psal. 139. that he is really, though not visibly, present in all Places, and in that Place where you are Praying; that he sees your Heart. Whenever you set about this, or any Holy Duty, set God before your Eyes, and represent him under the Notion of an Omnipresent, allseeing God.  
Conceive of God as one full of Majesty and Greatness, infinitely above any of his Creatures: This Apprehension may much both quicken us, and awe us in Prayer.  
Conceive of God as one that is exceeding Gracious, and Plenteous in Mercy to all that call upon him.  
To apprehend God in his Greatness, doth stir up Fear and Godly Reverence; to apprehend God in his Goodness, doth stir up Faith and Holy Boldness.  
Conceive of God in Prayer as one God, not divided in Essence, yet distinguished into three Persons; the Father, the Son, and Spirit, all concurring to the Prayers of Believers, and have a different office about them; there is the Father Hearing, the Son Interceding, the Spirit helping our Infirmities.  
Conceive of God not absolutely but in Christ. God in himself is a consuming Fire, Heb. 12. But in Christ he is a Merciful Father; there is no coming unto God but by Jesus Christ, Heb. 7.25.  
Entertain, and maintain very honourable Thoughts of the Duty of Prayer itself, this will both move you to the Duty, and much quicken you in the Duty.  
What the Psalmist says of the City of God, Psal. 87.3. that may be said of the duty of Prayer, Great and Glorious things are spoken of it.  
You may read of wonderful effects of Faith; the effects and fruits of Prayer are as many and great. Heb. 11. It hath obtained Promises, subdued Kingdoms, turned away Enemies; it hath raised the Dead, stopped the Sun's Course; yea made it go back; it hath opened Prison-Doors, and unlocked Secrets; it hath opened Heaven, and shut it again, with much Reverence be it spoken; it hath laid hold upon God himself, and put him to a merciful Retreat, when he hath been marching in Anger against Persons or People. God speaks as if his Hands were held and tied up by Prayer: Let me go, saith he to Jacob; and, Let me alone, saith he to Moses; as if the Lord would indent with Moses, and offer him a Composition to hold his Peace, Exod. 32.10.  
Wonderful is that passage, Isa. 45.11. if read right, God says, Concerning the Works of my Hands command ye me.  
The prevalency of fervent Prayer is very great, it prevails much with God, Jam. 5.15, 16. Keep your Hearts close to the duty, and suffer them not to stray or wander, a straying Heart must needs be a straitened Heart in Prayer.  
If you would have your Heart enlivened, and enlarged in Prayer, remember to repel every vain Thought that comes in to your disturbance; resist it, and call in help from Heaven against it.  
Let the guilt of no one Sin lie upon your Conscience, that will clog, disquiet, and check your Spirit in Prayer.  
It is not amiss to observe a method in Prayer, especially when you Pray with others, (as she would sometimes do, when both myself and Curate were absent, rather than Family-Worship should be wholly omitted) though not tied to Words, but confused Repetitions and disorderly Digressions dis-affect those that join with you.  
(Though some profane Scorners may mock and snear at this, what real Evil scorn-worthy is there in it, for a serious, holy Mother to instruct her Daughters aforehand, to Pray with their Maids and Children, if God had spared them, and given them those Relations? I wish no Mothers would give their Children Counsels or Examples more liable to Exception.)  
Choose such a Place to Pray in as is most convenient, where you may not be disturbed by noise in your Ears, nor be diverted by any Object before your Eyes; shut also the Door lest the Wind of Vainglory get in thereat. Mat. 6.5, 6.  
Be much in the use of Ejaculatory Prayer, which is a short, yet serious, lifting up the Soul in desires to God. Gen. 43.14, 49.18. Neh. 2.4. 2 Sam. 15.31. Luk. 23.42. John 12.27.  
Ejaculatory Prayer is a special means to keep our Hearts very Spiritual and Savoury when often in Heaven; it is a special means to fit them for more solemn and continued Prayer.  
You may find this way of Praying very familiar with the best of Men; yea, with Christ himself.  
Also remember to set their Examples before your Eyes, who have performed the Duty of Prayer, with life-enlargement and importunity. See Gen. 32.24. Matth. 26.26.39. Heb. 5.7. Hos. 12.3. Examples sway us sometimes more than any Rules or Precepts.  
For farther Encouragement to this Duty of Prayer, consult with many other Promises: That of our Saviour's, where he saith, Matth. 21.22. Whatever you ask in prayer, believing, you shall receive. And in John 14.13, 14. Whatsoever you shall ask in my Name I will do it. If ye shall ask any thing in my Name I will do it. And Matth. 7.7, 8. Ask, and it shall be given you: seek, and ye shall find: knock, and it shall be opened unto you. For every one that asketh, receiveth: and he that seeketh, findeth: and to him that knocketh, it shall be opened.  
Call upon me, and I will answer thee; and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not, Jer. 33.3.  
Jam. 5.15. The prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he hath committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.— The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.  
Whosoever shall call upon the Name of the Lord shall be saved, Rom. 10.3.  
If any man want Wisdom, let him ask of God, who giveth to all men liberally and upbraideth not, and it shall be given him. But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering; for he that wavereth is like a wave of the Sea, driven with the Wind, and tossed.  
Thus she concludes, it may seem somewhat abruptly, I can give no reason, and will not guests; only the unwritten Paper which remains may seem to imply, she designed more. This is just the fortyeth part of what she had written for her children's use, being 6 Pages in her Book, of Twelve score; so that I have enough, if I would enlarge, to tyre myself, and satisfy, not to say, clog, my Readers. But I will consult my own ease, and theirs, in adding little more of what an account is given, Sect. 12. under Eleven or Twelve distinct Heads.  
I confess, I am tempted to add the Example to the Rule, I mean the large Form of Prayer and Thanksgiving, each containing 16 Pages. But I'll forbear, only as I touched a few Lines of the beginning and end of the Thanksgiving before.  
So I shall give a little taste of this Prayer which she gins thus.  
Good Lord, give me to know thee, who passest all Knowledge, and though I cannot comprehend thee in the perfection and fullness of thy Glory, yet vouchsafe to give me to apprehend thee, in thy Love and pardoning Mercy to me a poor miserable Sinner; who in my first Being was invested with an happy and righteous Estate, from which, O Lord, in my first Original, I soon declined, etc. And so proceeds most humbly to acknowledge the guilt and pollution of Original Sin, as I think, yea know, most Orthodoxly. If our Bibles, our Articles, our Homilies, yea our Liturgy, be more Orthodox than Socinus, and those Ephramites who lisp his Sibboleths, because they cannot, or will not, pronounce aright the Shibboleth of the Church of England's good old Doctrine.  
Then she proceeds to a large Confession of actual Sin, both of Omission and Commission against both Tables. Acknowledging the demerit of them, proceeds to sue out the Pardon of them in these words.  
O God, thou knowest my foolishness, and my Sins are not hid from thee, I beseech thee pardon my Iniquities, and blot out my Transgressions, though they be as a thick Cloud. Good Lord, wash me from my Impurities in that Fountain set open for Sin and for Uncleanness, the precious Blood of Jesus Christ which is not only able to expiate my guilt, but to cleanse me from all my filthiness, that through his stripes I may be healed, and cleansed from all my Original and Actual Defilements, etc. Having enlarged upon this, she proceeds to pay for Sanctification and Inherent Righteousness, that she may be a new Creature in Christ Jesus; then most fully and earnestly against Temptation; then for the Assistance of the Spirit to render all God's Ordinances, and the means of Grace effectual; then for growth in Grace; for Comfort; for an Heavenly frame of Heart and Life; for assurance and manifestation of God's Love to her; then for Wisdom to consider her latter End, and to be helped in that Spiritual Arithmetic, so to number her Days as to apply her Heart to true Wisdom; then that God would fit and prepare her for her Dissolution, that when her days shall be consummated on Earth, her Corruptible may put on Incorruption, and her Mortal put on Immortality. Then she concludes with these Words:  
Then shall Death, my last Enemy, be vanquished and swallowed up in Victory, and from thy unworthy Creature Everlasting Praises shall be rendered unto thee, through Jesus Christ that giveth me the Victory, for thou hast redeemed my Soul from the Power of the Grave. I beseech thee receive me into thy Eternal Kingdom and Glory, that neither Death nor Life, things present, nor things to come may be able to separate me from thy Love, O God, which is in Christ Jesus my Lord.  
Then she proceeds to Pray for the Church, of which a taste was given in her Monday-morning Prayers, Sect. 7. pag. 45. Gracious Lord, the Mercies I ask of thee for my own Soul, I earnestly beg of thee for thy Church and People. Blessed Lord, Thou hast made the Earth by thy Power, established the World by thy Wisdom, and stretched out the Heavens by thy Discretion; thy Arm is not shortened that thou canst not Save. Good Lord take care of Zion, build up the Walls of Jerusalem, that in Zion there may be Deliverance, and Holiness in thy House; let the Mountain of thy House be established in the top of the Mountains; be thou a Wall of Fire round about, and her Glory in the midst thereof,— But I forgot myself, 'tis hard to stop my Pen. Then, I beseech thee especially for the Land of my Nativity, the Nation of which I am a sinful Member,— here is a large Paragraph. The next is for the World; Give thy Gospel a free and glorious Passage through the World. Good Lord pity those that sit in the region and shadow of Death.— Then, I beseech thee be merciful to all the Sons and Daughters of Sorrow, and Affliction,— the Disconsolate, the Sick, those who contend with Poverty, Imprisonment, Reproach, Disgrace.— Then for them who suffer Persecution for the Truth: Then for her Relations. I confess, I am almost ashamed that I have thus mangled so excellent a Prayer, so Piously, so Judiciously, in such suitable Scripture Phrase and Language. I think it had been better to have transcribed the whole, or let it quite alone; but her Friends may command a Copy of it if they please. Having finished her Intercessions for others, she returns to conclude with renewed Petitions for herself, which I will venture to set down.  
Good Lord, be the God and Portion of me thy unworthy Creature, and of those so dear unto me; give me a Relation to thee, an Affiance in thee, and a Dependence upon thee, that in all my concerns I may come to thee, in whom are all my fresh Springs, the riches of free Grace to poor Sinners, and treasuries of Mercies, purchased with the Precious Blood of Jesus Christ. I beseech thee withhold not thy tender Mercies from me, but give me of that hidden Manna, the sweet refreshing Incomes of thy Holy Spirit into my Soul, and when my Heart is overwhelmed, I beseech thee lead me to the Rock that is higher than I, for thou hast been a shelter to me. Lord be thou a strong Tower to me, to which I may continually resort; for whom have I in Heaven but thee? And if I know any thing of my own Heart, there is none comparative on Earth that I desire besides thee; thou art my God, besides thee there is no Saviour. I beseech thee guide me with thy Counsel, and when I shall go hence and be no more in this World I beseech thee receive me into thy Glory.  
Then follows the Thanksgiving, full as large as the Form of Prayer, and, if it may be, more Spiritual, raised, and Divinely Savoury; but I will not repeat the Error, to mangle it, and set down so Imperfect Pieces, and spoil its Beauty, but signify to her Friends, that I shall freely allow them to read the Original, which is fairly legible, or if they think it worth the while, to Copy it out, or at more leisure to Print some few Copies of it, and others of her useful Papers, if desired, which I omit at present for fear of swelling this into too great a Bulk, though I am sure several of them equal, or rather exceed any thing I have now Published of hers.   

MARKS OF A Regenerate Estate.  
I add this because it is concise, and will not take up much Room or Time. Giving her Children Directions how to examine and try the Estate of their Souls towards God.  
DO you consent to the Law of God, that it is true, and Righteous?  
Have you perceived yourself Sentenced to Death by it; being condemned and convinced of your natural, undone Condition?  
Have you seen the utter Insufficiency of every Creature, either to be in its self your Happiness, or the means of curing this your Misery, and making you happy again in God?  
Have you been convinced that your Happiness is only in God as the End, and in Christ as the way to him, and the End also, as he is one with the Father; and perceivest thou that thou must be brought to God by Christ, or Eternally Perish?  
Have you seen hereupon an absolute necessity of your enjoying Christ, and the full sufficiency that is in him to do for you whatsoever your Condition requireth, by reason of the fullness of his Satisfaction, the greatness of his Power, and Dignity of his Person, and the freeness and Indefiniteness of his Promises?  
Have you discovered the excellency of this Pearl to be worth the selling all to buy it?  
Hath this been joined with some Sensibility, as the Conviction of a Man that thirsteth, of the worth of Drink; and not been only a change in Opinion, produced by Reading, or Education, as a bare notion in the Understanding?  
Is there an abhorring of all Sin, though your Flesh do tempt you to it?  
Have both your Sin and Misery been a Burden to your Soul, and if you could not weep, yet could you hearty groan under the unsupportable weight of both?  
Have you renounced the hidden and unfruitful works of Darkness, having no fellowship with them, but with Courage and Zeal for God reprove them?  
Do you labour to be Holy in all parts of your Conversation, watching over your ways at all times, and in all Companies?  
Do you make Conscience of the least of God's Commands as well as the greatest, avoiding idle Words, and vain Jesting; abhorring all reproachful Speeches, as well as violent Actions?  
Do you love, and esteem, and labour for the powerful Preaching of the Word above all Earthly Treasures?  
Do you Honour and highly account of the truly Godly, and delight in the Company of such as sincerely fear God above all others, esteeming them the excellent of the Earth?  
Are you careful of the Sanctification of the Sabbath, neither daring to violate that Holy Rest by Labour, nor to neglect the Holy Duties belonging to God's Service, public or private?  
Do you not love the World, neither the things of the World, but hearty desire and love the things that concern a better Life, and so do in some measure love the Appearance of Jesus Christ?  
Can you forgive your Enemies, are you easily entreated, desirous of Peace, and to do good to them that despitefully use you?  
Do you set up a daily course of serving God, and that with your Family too, if you have any; and renouncing your own Righteousness, trust only to the Merits of Jesus Christ?  
Have you turned all your Idols out of your Heart, so that the Creature hath no more the Sovereignty, but is now a Servant to God, and Jesus Christ?  
Do you accept of Christ as your only Saviour, and expect your Justification, Recovery, and Everlasting Happiness from him alone?  
Do you also take him for your Lord and King, and are his Laws the most powerful Commanders of your Life and Soul?  
Do his Laws prevail against the Commands of the Flesh, of Satan, and the greatest on Earth that shall countermand?  
And against the greatest Interest of your Credit, Profit, Pleasure or Life, so that your Conscience, Soul, Body, Life, is directly subject to Christ alone?  
Hath he the Highest Room in your Heart, and Affections, so that though you cannot love him as you would, yet nothing else is loved so much?  
Have you made an Hearty Covenant with him, and delivered up yourself accordingly to him, to be his for Ever without Reserve?  
Do you take yourself for his and not your own; is it your utmost Care, and watchful Endeavour that you may be found faithful in his Covenant, and though you fall into Sin, you would not renounce your Bargain, nor change your Lord, nor give up yourself to any other Government for all the World?  
And if this be truly your Case, you are one of God's Children and People, and as sure as God's Promises are true, there is an happy and blessed Estate for you; only see that you abide in Christ, and continue to the End, for if any draw back, his Soul will have no pleasure in them.  
Then she concludes with the Prayer set down above, page 81.   

For the Right Honourable Isabel Countess of Radnor.  
This was written to her Ladyship, as a Consolatory Letter upon the surprising Death of her dearly-beloved Daughter the Lady Essex Specot.  
Ever Honoured good Madam,  
I Do truly Sympathise with your Ladyship, in your great Sorrows under God's afflicting Hand, taking from your Ladyship a very dearly Beloved, and desirable Child. She was very deservedly so; and to all acquainted with her, she was a very sweet amicable Friend; she lived very desired and she hath died lamented. She was not affected with distant Pride, a Spirit hated of God, and all good People. Dear Lady Essex, She was of a sweet, courteous, affable disposition, very winning in her loving condescension. I am sensible of my own loss, who had a share of her favour, much more of your ladyship's, to whom she was so near and dear. Good Madam, would I could help to alleviate your Sorrows, I would put to my Shoulder to help bear your burden, which is to fulfil the Law of Christ. But it is not in created Being's farther than God will use them Instrumentally. But above, in the great Creator, in Him is all supply of Grace and Comfort; God is a present help in the needful time of trouble, an approved Friend, that will not fail you in what you go unto him for, agreeable to his Will; which assuredly is the best. Therefore, Good Madam, retain kind thoughts of God; he hath not cast away your Prayers, nor rejected the Prayers of Friends for you, though God did not see it good dear Lady Essex should stay longer with you in this World, he hath done better for her and you: God hath granted to a higher end, he hath taken her to himself in Heaven, from thence, Good Madam, you would not have her to return into a troublesome World; it is fit to acquiesce in God's most wise Dispose, He knew what was best for her and you, and to keep silence before the Lord, because he hath done it; whatever second cause he might use as Instrumental; yet it was the Lord, the Sovereign Lord of her and us, who doth all things well. Good Madam, What you cannot see now you may know hereafter, if not in this Life; of all in it you shall have clear Manifestations in Heaven; that all Dispensations in this World, were for the best for you; the most I can do is to pity your Ladyship with my poor worthless Prayers, in themselves they are so: But I would beg of God to uphold you in the Arms of his Mercy, that you may not sink under any Trial, and that your Affliction, which at present may be grievous, may appear not to be the Wound of an Enemy, but the Chastisement of a loving Father, who deals with you, as with his Children, in his adopting Love to you in Faithfulness. God corrects his People, in his distinguishing Love from those which shall never see his Face with comfort. Good Madam, I know you do desire to be in subjection to the Father of Spirits. The Lord will be King, let the People be never so impatient; God will not grieve nor correct for his own pleasure, but for his children's profit, that they may live. God's own Vineyard needs pruning as well as manuring, that the Branches thereof may not waste too much of the Life, and Spirits, and Affections in worldly Satisfactions. Good Madam, God hath taken away a Branch, dear Lady Essex, she is not withered but transplanted, for his own pleasure and delight, that the Fruits of your Love to God may more appear in your willing Resignation of her, who was so dear to you, not offering unto God that which costs you nought. Good Madam, You shall sustain no loss, God will reimburse, and this Breach his Hand hath made he will fill up and repair at his own Charge. He will, in exchange for a Daughter, bestow on you his only Son, and build you a House better than Leah and Rachel did Jacob's: God will give you a Name, better than of Sons and Daughters, and make you one of his Firstborn in Heaven. God took it exceeding well that Abraham did not withhold his beloved Isaac from him; and for his ready compliance in what God required of him, he had God's Promise, That in blessing he would bless him. Good Madam, God hath more Blessings than one; when God proved Abraham, he gave him back again his Isaac, whom he loved, and promised, that in him all the Nations of the Earth should be blessed; of which Promise, Good Madam, you do partake, with an additional Favour, God having ransomed dear Lady Essex out of a troublesome World, with a better Sacrifice than that he then provided for Isaac, a Ram caught in a Thicket, with which Isaac was redeemed, unto a transient Life. Dear Lady Essex, she is redeemed by Jesus Christ, unto eternal Life. Good Madam, What cause of complaint? Dear Lady Essex is freed from the many temptations she might have met with in this World. Isaac's prolonged Life found it so in his unsettled Condition, he met with Affliction in his Posterity, with other Troubles of this Life; the World is unquiet like the tumbling Ocean; dear Lady Essex she hath found a resting Place, got off the rough Seas of Sins and Sorrows, God hath placed her in the serene Region above; God knew what Sail she was able to bear in worldly Prosperity or Adversity; he hath taken her from the boisterous Winds that might have disturbed the Coast of her even walking with God; God hath steered her Course; dear Lady Essex, she is got safe to Harbour, from the windy Storms and Tempests of this World. God took Enoch in the midst of his days, as they then lived in that Age; he walked with God; therefore God took him: I do humbly hope so did she. God bestowed on her a very sweet disposition, which I hope God made susceptive of the best impression. The best people want their grains of allowance. Good Madam, Do not drive your Comforters far from you, God preserved dear Lady Essex from the great Soul-wasting Sins, from all gross Enormities; God kept her from ever falling into any scandalous Sins, she is gone unspotted out of the World. Good Madam, better is a good Child dead, than a wicked Child living. Good Madam, I am more than content God hath disposed of all mine, I hope through Grace they are safe; but I have found much affection much affliction. Though Mary had chose the best part, assured and confirmed to her by Christ's own Word, should never be taken from her; yet her Eyes were so filled with tears at the Death of her Lord, that she could not see Christ. The two Angels that sat in Christ's Sepulchre, could not pacify her grief, nor slew her tears, till Christ dried her Eyes with that loving Rebuke, Why weepest thou? Then she said, Raboni, and made him Master of her Passion. God hath placed all the affections of humane Nature for great advantage, if kept in the right Channel, bounded with his Grace; that of Grief, though for Sin, which hath the greatest use of it, and needs the highest and fullest Tides, God would not have it swell beyond the Bank of his Mercy: If God would have his People easy to be entreated, himself will not be inexorable, or hard to be entreated, as good People are prone to think in time of Affliction; neither should they be unjust to God and themselves, denying the Grace God hath bestowed on them. It is best to judge ourselves, but not unjustly. Good Madam, Do not misconstrue God in his Dispensations to you. Afflictions are oft more for Trial than Correction, but how ready is God to receive repenting returning Sinners? the Arms of his Mercy are open to embrace them, and to cover their Imperfections with his best Robe, sent by his Son from the great Wardrobe of Heaven; Christ's Righteousness imputed to them, and inherent in them, adorning of them with the Graces of his Spirit, rendering them acceptable to their spiritual Spouse, Christ Jesus. He is the good Shepherd which laid down his life for his sheep. If he send Afflictions, they are not to worry, but to bring his People nearer to himself. If God put his People into the Furnace, it is to purify them, not to consume them. Good Madam, when you are tried, that you may come forth as Gold, a meet Vessel for God's own use in the fuller Measures of Heaven. Though God hath taken from you the Delight of your Eye, Dear Lady Essex, he will not take away himself, but dissipate and scatter your grief with the Light of his Countenance, which is better than Life. God knows our Frame, and will debate in Measure. He will not stir up all his Displeasure, but will stay his rough Wind in the day of his East-Wind, that no Temptation may be above your Strength. Good Madam, fain would I comfort you, but I know your own Thoughts can better suggest to you than I, where you may find Grace to help in a time of need. God's Promises are supports for the most afflicted Condition, with them, Good Madam, they teaching you, you may by the Art of Divine Chemistry, extract and draw from Afflictions the refreshing Cordials of the Love of God, by his sweet composure of them in his Love and Faithfulness to you, you may get from the most unpleasant bitter Potion, a healing Medicine, you may get Meat out of the Eater; God will make all subservient to his People, though in their own nature contrary, like Elisha's Ravens, which were Birds of prey, to bring the Prophet bread and meat: By the overruling goodness of God, Afflictions bring God's Children meat to eat, the World knows not of; and those Afflictions that look most terrible and most affrighting, great in Stature, like unto the Philistine's Champion, that did so terrify the Israelites. Good Madam, You may as David did, overcome with that smooth white Stone St John speaks of, wherein is that new name written, which none can read but they that have it. In that Stone it is written, Be of good cheer, your Sins are forgiven. It was the Custom of the Romans to which St. John alludes, they gave a white Stone to those their Law acquitted, and a black Stone to those their Law condemned; this white Stone St. John speaks of, is that Stone cut out of the mountain without hands, Christ Jesus. Good Madam, On this Rock you may build safe and sure, that if the boisterous Winds of Affliction beat vehemently upon you, you may be able to stand in the day of your Visitation. If God should suffer Afflictions, like unto St. Paul's, which he called, Deaths oft, they may be to you as they were to him, they were lifts unto his greater degrees of Glory, which made him to call them Light Afflictions, that lasted but for a moment, and that they shall work for God's People an exceeding and eternal weight of Glory. Good Madam, As the Afflictions of this Life shall not last long, so the Prosperity of this World is but short also; they are but Pageantry Delights, that pass away, and leave Dissatisfaction behind them; but God would not have his People's Spirits always flag, they have their intervals in the day of Prosperity to rejoice, but in the day of Adversity to consider; God having set the one over against the other, and both on the Wing of Time, which many drive away, not considering a dependant Life, which of itself flies away so fast; the things of this World, and Life also, they do make haste to give up their Accounts to God; for a short work will the Lord make on the Earth, and finish his Work in Righteousness. He will say to the North, Give up; and to the South, keep not back: bring my Sons from far, and my Daughters from the ends of the Earth, and all shall as faithful Depositors restore to God; yea, every one shall give an account of himself to God; and if God suddenly call for them, they hasten their speed, and swiftly fly away, as an Eagle towards Heaven. Good Madam, You have experienced it; dear Lady Essex, she hath taken her flight from all mutations of this Life, and is gone to God, whose she was, that lent her you but for a time. She is not lost, but restored again, where she is in an unalterable and happy Estate. Good Madam, What cause of complaint? Do not account her gain your loss, the most and best she could have enjoyed of the Blessings of this Life, Relations, Friends, Pleasures, Riches, all promised well in her Marriage, but all uncertain; but is now in a fixed, uninterruptable, more blessed Condition, to which nothing in this World hath any proportion; and the most splendid things of this Life comparatively, are but shining Glow-worm's, which must have the advantage of the disappearing Sun for their glimmering Beauty. Who would choose Candle-light rather than the clear light of the bright Sun. Dear Lady Essex, she hath the sweet smiles of God's reconciled Face, which shine on her by the Sun of Righteousness, Christ Jesus, the Bridegroom of her Soul, and is with her best Relations, God and Angels, and is one of that blessed number of his Triumphant Saints made perfect in endless Glory never more to die: She hath passed the dark Valley, and is got safe to her Inheritance in the highest Heavens, purchased for her by an invaluable Price, bought for her by her best Beloved Jesus Christ. Good Madam, Why do you grieve? You would not have her back again into a Sin-defiling-World, where the happiest Estate or condition is intermixed with intervening troubles, accompanied with sorrows, which would have been as jointly yours as hers, from which God hath freed you both. Good Madam, Believe God means you no ill, he doth sometimes by one great Affliction, free his People from many, that might be greater than that, which God only can foresee; sometimes a large Orifice effects the perfectest Cure, and the bitterest Potion the best Health. Good Madam, cheerfully take the Cup your heavenly Father hath put into your Hand; of this relation you can receive no hurt. Christ hath told his People, That through many tribulations, they shall enter into the Kingdom of Heaven; be not afraid of your way, it is no untrodden path, the best of Men have gone that way: God hath one Son without sin, none without suffering: If Suffering abound, your Consolation shall superabound; that being made Conformable by suffering, you may be more fitted for greater degrees of Glory. Good Madam, If God sees fit to lengthen out your Days, it is to give you more work, to exercise those Gifts he hath given you, to improve for his use and your own advantage; your Love, Patience, and Submission to him, with the rest of the Graces of his Spirit, he hath bestowed on you, let them have their perfect Work; and be not grieved that he hath given dear Lady Essex a less task than yourself. Good Madam, Run with patience the race that is set before you, finishing your work in well-doing, unto which God will afford you his assisting Grace. God will not deal with you as Pharaoh's Taskmasters over the Children of Israel, they would give no straw and yet required the full tale of brick; God will afford you his strength, and extricate your difficulties; his Providences shall comply with you, and his Grace assist you; in your hardest work he will put to his helping hand. God will order the whole Series and Frame of this World for his People's best advantage; then, when all have acted a part, God will take down the Stage of this World by the hand of undistinguishable Eternity. Then, Good Madam, a past Error cannot be retrieved, when Time and Place in this World is taken away. A little while the longest Life is so, but he will come, and will not tarry; when his People's work is done, he will bring his reward with him, and acquit them from all the troubles of this Life, and receive them where there is no pricking Briar, nor grieving Thorn; Sin, Sorrow, and Sighing shall flee away; then, Good Madam, in endless Joy you shall meet again dear Lady Essex, never to part, but shall be for ever with her, the rest of the blessed Saints and Angels, and all in an indissolvable union with God, and Christ, in eternal Glory. Amen, Amen. Good Madam, It is the Prayer of your singular good ladyship's Obedient Servant,  
Elizabeth Walker.  
I beseech you, Good Madam, excuse the trouble of a long Letter.  
Another Consolatory Letter, written to a good Christian Friend under Trouble.  
Good Friend,  
I Have had troublesome solicitous thoughts, of what I did not well understand at parting, when I last saw you, therefore I desire to be farther informed, how it is like to be with you. But however it may be in this present Life, when it concludes, it shall be well; your comfort is, It will be well with the Righteous, of which number you are assuredly; One of those exercised with God's discriminating Character of Adoption, and Sonship: Affliction's his preparatory work upon his People, to fit them for a better Estate; that should encourage, because it will compensate and reward God's Faithful Ones, for all their sufferings for his sake, with an eternal weight of Glory, which, if their Enemies well understood, they would in pure Enmity be less injurious to them. As to this World, if the Death of God's Saints be precious to him, so are their Sufferings considerable; though he bear with his, and their Enemies for a time. Fellow-Creatures, through Fear or Cowardice, may forsake and desert, but God will not. You know whose Case it was, but he had the strongest Party on his side, the Lord stood by him, he will not forsake his own Inheritance, but his Truth shall be their Shield and Buckler; so tender is he of them; he would not have their Thoughts disturbed with anxious solicitousness. And that his People should be continually dependant on himself, he sets no Period, but promises a continual supply of Grace, giving in that Hour that which will make them Justifiable before their Adversaries, which they shall not be able to gainsay with the verdict of Truth. The Lord fortify his People for any Trial he sees fit to call them to, that I may be one of those found Faithful, Dear Sir, I beg your Prayers for me, who am  
your truly Loving, and Affectionate Friend, Elizabeth Walker. Sept. 24.— 83.   

Part of two Letters written to a young Minister who had lived several Years in my House, and was well preferred from thence to stir him up to Faithfulness in his Ministry, and may be useful to other such.  
It may not be unseasonable or unuseful here to take notice what singular Care she would take of the young Scholars which came to live in my Family; who, though when they were first received, (bringing more Learning than Religion from the University;) for sometime would seem a little uneasy, and be rather shy of her, and undervalue her pious and strict Example, and weighty, serious Counsels for their Morals, and God's Service; yet after a while had a very great Respect for her, and loved and honoured her, as if she had been their Mother. I own it as a great Mercy, it was so with them all who stayed any time with us, but shall instance only in the last, who, though at first seemed to be possessed with a greater prejudice, yea averseness, than his Predecessors, yet before one Year was out, was more than convinced of his Error, and daily increased in his value of her, and deference he paid her; and when towards the end of the third Year his Consumption prevailed so as to threaten his Life; and she declaring her concern for him, and how much she was troubled, he should come to die with us. He with a very Pathetic Gratitude cried out, O blessed be God that I ever knew this Family! I know I must die somewhere, and if God would give me my Choice, I had rather die here than in any place in all the World.  
I will not presume to commend her Conduct towards such young men from any thing but the good Success; and for the sake of that I'll briefly touch it. Her Method was not to be always harping on the same String; not to be constantly pressing them with an affected tiring Importunity, which like the falls of Nilus, rather makes Men Deaf than open their Ears to Discipline; her Rules were short, but her Example long; her Advices few, but Wise and Home; her Reproofs fewer, but Seasonable and Grave; but the Copy of an holy, diligent, serious Conversation was never wanting. A small number of wholesome Counsels well exemplified, prevails more than a long Series of starched and studied Aphorisms, confuted by his Life, whose Head conceived them, and Mouth dictated them. She rarely spoke to them directly, and in the second Person, and never but when the occasion was fair, and the necessity urgent, frequently what concerns them as of a third Person, and it is observable that many times a glancing Blow, and a Side-Wind cuts deeper, and fills the Sails better than a downright Stroke, or a Wind directly in the Stern. I remember some of her Prudent Rules, but because there are so very few to be assisted by them, and it is possible none into whose Hands these Papers may fall, they would but vanish into idle Speculations, with which I will not trouble my unconcerned Reader. And she was not only kind and careful of their good whilst in our House, but continued her Prayers for them, and good Counsel to them when removed from us; witness the following Letters.  
Good Mr. Ph.  
I Do assure you my Affections have not been froze, though my Ink hath this cold Season, which may help make an Apology for a bad Scribe; but I now return you my acknowledgements for your kind Letter I have received. Good Mr. Ph. I hearty desire to approve myself your true Friend, and would not be wanting in any thing you may expect from me, whenever opportunity may afford the Trial. Especially, I shall endeavour you may not meet with disappointment in that you set so great an estimate and value on; my poor Prayers, Oh that they were more worth! that not only you, but with myself, the Church, and People of God might have some Benefit by God's Assistance and Acceptance of my small Mite, which I would, as my All, cast into that great Stock and Bank committed to the sure Hand and Improvement of our Great Factor and Mediator, Jesus Christ, who affords great Returns, to which Intercourse is given more than his People can ask or think; therefore, my good Friend, afford me your Remembrance at the Throne of Grace, at which be frequent and fervent; but I need not excite you to so advantageous a Duty, by which you may obtain so much for yourself and others. The pressing Necessities of the Church of God at home and abroad, cry aloud for Intercessors to prevent the Judgements we have cause to fear, and may justly feel. Oh! be one of those who meet God with humble, earnest Supplication, which may help ward off the Blow which may fall heavy on the Churches. God will set his Mark on the Mourners in Zion, and will hid them in the Day of his fierce Anger, that the destroying Angel shall not hurt them. I have much wondered at the diverting of Judgements, but I fear the longer God bears with, and the higher his Hand is lifted up, the more weighty will it be when it falls. But to withhold it, Pray, Pray; the fervent Prayer of the Righteous prevails much, oft puts God to a Merciful Retreat, when in his provoked Anger he is going forth against a Nation, or People. Oh! but they must be clean Hands that lay hold on him, that is, of purer Eyes than to behold Iniquity. Good Mr. Ph. beware of warping from the straight Rule of God's Word, by which every Man's Work must be tried, it will be your best Preservation in Evil times, if God should call you out to bear Witness to his Truth, which to decline, may cause God to lead you forth with the workers of Iniquity; therefore the Psalmist Prays, that Integrity and Uprightness may preserve him; the Upright are God's Delight. I remember the Inscription on Abraham's Shield was Uprightness, to which was annexed, against all Fears that might shake his Faith; God, that can compensate and make up all that his People can lose or suffer for him in this World, promised that he would not only be his Shield, but his exceeding great Reward; which Promise Moses eyed, on good Consideration making the best choice, to acquit Courtly Pleasures and Preferments; he well knew they would last but for a short Season; he took his Happy Lot with God's People, to suffer Affliction rather than Sin. Happy he! though he passed through a barren Wilderness, in which God often proves his People, whether they will be content to wave the things of this Life to possess a better Inheritance than an Earthly Canaan, those durable Riches prepared for those who are accounted Worthy; of which Blessed Number good Lord grant, good Mr. Ph. you may be found.  
Then after twenty Lines of a Business which concerned himself, written with much Wisdom, Kindness, and Faithfulness, which I pass over, She proceeds:  
I am sure I do hearty desire your Welfare in this Life, and Godliness being sought in the first place, the good things of this World, as may be good for you, may be added to you. The Promises are conditional; 'tis a hard thing to be a good Christian, not easy to be a good Minister, which not to be, are the worst of Men, and will find the severest Account for their own and others Souls, over whom God hath placed them Watchmen, and Overseers of the Flock of Christ, for which Work I am persuaded, the Grace of God bestowed upon you, shall not be in vain. My Friend, excuse this Freedom I have used to you from Plenary Affection, I confess it Impertinent to suggest to you who are so much more knowing and conversant with Books, especially that which excels all others, the Holy Scriptures, from which you may be furnished to every good Work for Doctrine and Life. I have sent you a Book more worthy your acceptance for the Author's sake than mine; I commend him to you as a Pattern of a strict holy Life, so conformable to our Saviour's, he was always doing good; read, look on him, and do likewise. I am sensible of the Trouble given you by a long Letter, therefore no more, but to subscribe myself as indeed I am, good Mr. Ph.  
Your truly Loving and Affectionate Friend, Elizabeth Walker. Sept. 19 -- 83.  

A Second Letter to the same Person.  
Of which I will omit much, to prevent being tedious, and I fear this concluding Paragraph may seem too long.  
My good Friend Mr. Ph.  
I Truly would, as may be acceptable, and my capacity reach, not be wanting in real Friendship; the like very grateful to me. The reminds of a future Estate, which is the greatest concern we have to mind in this Life: which if neglected, the Error cannot be retrieved. Oh how vigilant should I be! my Enemy is so. One Soul is more worth, in the Estimation of our Saviour, than the whole World; the price hath made the purchase so. Oh! that I could better improve my little remaining time, the Talon my Lord hath entrusted me with, that I may not be idle or worse, found in the works of darkness. He that had lest was accountable, therefore shall not I be excusable from my little measure. As the Eyes of Servants are to their Masters, for their Work as well as Wages, so must mine be to him, for his Assistance and Help, that of his own he may receive: But where God gives much, he requires the more. Good Mr. Ph. God hath committed to your trust more than to a private Capacity, in Abilities and Advantages, placed you a Steward over his Household; you are strictly required to be Faithful. Be so, that God may reward and crown your Labours in his Service, with that that far excels the fading Diadems of this World, which puts a Lie in our right-hand, promiseth its prostitutes more than it hath to give. Be not deceived, it is Vanity and Lies, your Work is Wages. It was our Saviour's Meat and Drink. He told his Disciples so, when he was about his Father's Work, not only in his public Ministry, in which he was constant, but also as a pattern left you, He was always doing good.  
Though he met with hard and rough usage from Men, expect the like; it is no untrodden Path; but for Encouragement, if for Righteousness sake, Yours is the Kingdom of Heaven. What can be given in Exchange? The more you do or suffer, the greater your reward. The Blessings of this Life are not excluded, let God's Work have the pre-eminence, the first place in your Heart and Practice, and, as may be good for you, they shall be added to you. I observe from the last Chapter of Saint John, our Saviour's great care for his Disciples at his parting with them. As they lacked nothing whilst he was with them, as themselves on that question had confessed; so than our Saviour, to strengthen their Faith in their Dependence on him, he before had promised to be with them to the end of the World; and rather than they should want, our Saviour works a Miracle; but with the provision, he gives but one single Invitation, Come and dine; as if he would intimate, he had greater things to bestow on them, more than the Meat that perisheth, the Bread of eternal Life; and as they had freely received, so he would have them freely give. For which purpose our Saviour singles out Peter, not so much to mind him of a former unkindness, but more earnestly to engage his watchful diligence for the future. Peter, (not as exclusive of the rest, but he as a representative of the rest,) our Saviour, instead of one Invitation to dine, adds a threefold Injunction, to feed his Sheep and his Lambs.  
You have put your hand to God's Plough, good Mr. Ph. let not the flattery or fear of Men make you warp from the straight Rule of God's Word. You know the most and worst that they can do, and with the same resolution make the Apostles choice, Acts 20.24. He that will put the evil day from him, may soon fall by the evil of the day; and instead of finding may lose this and eternal Life. The evil of Sin will produce much worse than present Sufferings.  
If God call you forth as he did the Martyrs with their Flood, to give testimony to the Truth, even those Sufferings they esteemed light for the Hope set before them, an Eternal Weight of Glory; at the greatest length, our Lives are not long in this Word. Death spares none, not the greatest Monarches; a great Man is fallen in our Israel, our late Sovereign.  
I have very valuable Thoughts of you; you will not despise small things, which gives me this Presumption. I know you have greater Motives from God's Exiting Grace in you to quicken you to, and assist you in your Master's Work than my narrow Scantling can afford; happy they that so do; they shall neither be ashamed nor afraid when their Reckoning-day comes, of which happy number Lord grant you to be. I am, good Mr. Ph.  
Your Assured, Wellwishing Friend, Elizabeth Walker. March 15.— 84.    

I publish the following Letter, because I intent to give the Book to my plain Parishioners; most of whom stand upon the same Level, with him to whom it was written. Persons of higher Rank may pass it by, or give it to their plain Country Tenants.  
I thought to have given an account how one of her Sister's Daughters came to be in so low a Condition, whose Father might have given every Child more than a Thousand Pound, had he continued the Diligence which he used for several Years, after his Marriage with her Sister, and the fair Portion he had with her; but as she was not ashamed of her Condition, no more am I; and, as things were, 'tis well she had an Aunt to assist her, to match with a sober, industrious Man, and their joint Stock enable them to manage a Farm of about Fifty Pounds a Year, on which they hitherto have, and I hope will continue to live comfortably and contentedly.  
Cousin Robert Glassock,  
YOU have not a Friend that more truly desires your Welfare than myself, and shall be most affectionately glad of your well-being in this present World, but, I hope, I should much more rejoice in your certain and assured Interest in a better Life; I desire you may obtain both of God, who is the giver of all good. I beseech you, that you may, to apply yourself to that direct Rule, and guidance of God's Word, which counsels you to seek the Kingdom of God, with his Righteousness, in the first place, and then you have the Promise of him that is both faithful and able to perform his Word, That the things of this life shall be added unto you, as an additional to your future Happiness; to which, if you could gain the Wealth of the whole World, 'twould be but like picking up of Straws and Pebbles, compared to that Blessed Estate; for any thing in Exchange, he will make a bad Bargain that ventures the loss of his Soul. It was the saying of a good Man, that gave a right Judgement, That the whole Turkish Empire was but a Crust the Master of the House threw to the Dog: How then shall not God, the Lord of the whole Universe, provide for them of his own Family, that are Heirs of the Kingdom of Heaven? I request you let it appear to whom you belong, show it by your Christian Profession in the whole Course of your Life, to which your Baptism hath engaged you, with the Inscription of God's Law, which get writ with an indelible Character, by the Finger of his Spirit upon your Heart; by the use of God's Word you may acquaint yourself in your Bible. There God gave his Commandments in few and plain words, that the meanest Capacity might understand and remember them. A great part of the Bible is an Exposition of them. You can read, it is your Mercy, improve that Talon to your Master's use. You cannot do his Will, except you know it: Therefore, as God's Word directs you, so observe to do his Will, that you may have regard unto all his Commandments; in keeping of them there is great reward. Therefore mind the Precepts, and put them into practice; heed the threaten against whom, and for what, that they may deter and affright you from the way of Sin, that you may avoid the end of Punishment. Take notice of the Promises and value them as they are worth; make them yours by fervent and frequent Prayer, and fulfilling the Conditions of them. This I do earnestly request of you, and the same of your Wife, and that you will Pray together and apart, that you may be Heirs together of eternal Life. Set up religious Worship in your little Family, the smallness of your Family will not excuse the neglect. God, as he doth require it, he will regard; where there is but Two or Three, he hath promised to be with them. I beseech you do not defer in any known Duty, lest disuse give you more difficulty to future performance. Habitual Customs are most prevalent. But to quicken you to this Duty, consider for the default of it God's threatening, Jeremiah 10. the last. I pray you take that Counsel, 1 Chron. 28.9. Not to be so bad as others, is a step to a good Life. But he that goes no farther, will fall short of eternal Life. I have so good thoughts of you, your disposition is not to the Debaucheries and Vices of some; but negative Righteousness is not enough. With other religious Duties, I have already mentioned, I most earnestly press you to a strict Observation of the Lord's Day. Sanctify God's Seventh Day, and he will Bless your Six Days Labour. It will also be a good Hedge, not only to secure your eternal State, but all that God may bless you with in this World: See the two last Verses of the 58. Isa. Read the whole Chapter, it may be very profitable to excite you; but, I beseech you, do not violate that Holy Rest, by unnecessary Employments in worldly Affairs, nor spend that Day in Idleness or Sleeping, more than you would in the other Six Days. Do not sacrilegiously rob God of his Worship in any part of his Day, do not divert by vain talk, but give every proportion of time the Duties it requires. Be not like those that were weary of the Sabbath, Amos 8.5. See likewise Malachi 1st. and 3d. Mark the extent of the Fourth Commandment, it doth not only require Masters of Families, but reacheth all under their Charge; their care is required, as well for their Souls as their Bodies, or else there is no difference made of them from their Cattle; therefore you must by your inspection over them, and example, excite them to their Duty to God and their Salvation, as well as your Service, giving them Instruction, Catechising; endeavouring their Reformation by restraints, reproofs, and encouragements; for these neglects many Masters and Parents will have a sad account to give to God: Therefore, I beseech you, resolve, as you find for your Example, Joshua 24.15. For your encouragement to so good a work, read the last of Daniel the 3d. verse. So to do, to your great comfort, will be a good Evidence you have chose that good part that shall never be taken from you. It is the whole Duty of Man to love God, and keep his Commandments; it was that Test by which Christ would try his Disciples and Followers. He also saith, Why call you me Lord, Lord, and do not things I command you? On that Question asked our Saviour, Which was the great Commandment of the Law? you may find a brief Exposition and Account given, Matth. 22. from the 36 to the 40 verse. From thence observe how dependant the Second Table of the Commandments is on the First Table; in few words to help our forgetfulness, you are to have both sincere Love to God, and to Love your Neighbour as yourself; the neglect of the first, occasions a breach of the second: If you break one Link of that golden Chain, you will violate the whole Chain. men's Actions would be more just and regular, would they do as they would Men should do unto them. I have no bad Opinion of you, caution is no unkindness. To keep a good Conscience will afford you a continual Feast, a Feast affords more than bare necessity needs; for no good thing will God withhold from them that walk uprightly. The Just Man walks in his Integrity, by which he entails a Blessing on his Posterity; but by Unrighteousness Men gain to themselves, and leave a Curse to Succession: Our Saviour tells such, If they are not faithful in the things of this World, they shall not have the true Riches. To be Just, affords great Serenity of Mind, it gives not only a good, but a quiet Conscience also, and what you have of this World you shall have it with God's Love as well as his leave; all this I press you to, cannot be understood to take you off from your Praiseworthy Industry in your secular Calling, nor to slacken your Hand from Labour, I would not bring you under that prohibition of the Apostle, you may find 2 Thes. the 3d. and the 10th. I know God hath said it, That in the sweat of the Brow Man shall eat Bread. Many Scriptures I could cite you for this purpose, but I know you need no prompt; I am satisfied and need not urge your diligent Care for a comfortable subsistence in this World, of which if you have not the most, you have not the least; however it is the Blessing of God that maketh Rich, therefore when your Hand is on your Plough, let your Eye be up to Heaven, and if God should afford you that Blessing, wherewith to give rather than to receive, be willing to relieve them that are in want, by which Charity you may gain Treasure in Heaven, and the greater Increase on Earth. Read the 3d. verse of the 37th. Psalms, also 25. Matth. from the 32d. to the last verse of that Chapter, it is a very profitable excitation. Our Saviour in that Chapter quickens to a watchful care and diligence for a Departure out of this World by the Parable of the ten Virgins, from which we have a caution from the foolish Virgins, not to defer our preparations for another World, lest through sloth we be surprised, as they were, and the Door of everlasting Life shut against us, to our irrecoverable loss. Time is precious; that which is gone cannot be brought back; that which is to come cannot be assured ours; only that that is present, which quickly slips from us, is ours for our greatest work, the Salvation of our Souls, to which all other is but by-Business; for which purpose God hath entrusted us with several Gifts and opportunities, as so many Talents, to occupy with to our Master's use, till he come and call to a reckoning; then none shall be excusable. He that had but one, was called to an account with a heavy Doom, for not improving that▪ God hath, with other Blessings, bestowed on you a good Understanding, in your allowable worldly Affairs, and he will expect from you by the same measure, of which I think you have not the least given unto you; your Understanding, your Will, your Memory, your Affections, all the Faculties of your Soul and Body, your Time, all that God entrusts you with, are so many Talents or Instruments allowed you for to work with, which will be your own gain. God will reward your Labour of Love. He hath with his own Glory twisted your Interest, and to which also he will afford you his gracious assistance, if you seek it as it may be had in those ways I have already hinted unto you. God is not like the Egyptian Taskmasters to the Children of Israel, who required the full Tale of Brick, but would afford no Straw; God is not extreme to mark what unwillingly is done amiss; you cannot go about your Indispensable Work too soon, many have too late, as the foolish Virgins did: Hell is paved with good purposes. In the Law the first ripe Fruits were required, and the Young without blemish must be brought to God in Sacrifice; do not give the World and its Vanity the prime of your Strength, and Time, and put off God with the dregs of decrepit feeble Age; remember the youngest Disciple was the Beloved Disciple; be not ashamed to own your Master, wear his Livery in a Christian Profession and Practice of an unblameable Life, that you may not either be a shame to, or ashamed of Religion, lest he be ashamed of you when you would give all the World, if it were in your purchase, to be owned by him; he is great as well as good, and will not be mocked with a defective Sacrifice. See Malachi the first Chapter, and the eighth Verse. Do not care if wicked Men should scorn and reproach you; how inconsiderable will it be to you if you consider the recompense of Reward; see Matth. 5. the eleventh and twelfth Verses, and do not take up Religion as an uneasy Task; you have not only a good Master, but his Work is so; Christ's Yoke is easy, it will not gall, as Sin will the Conscience. I request you read with good observation the 119th Psalm, and see there what value the Psalmist had for God's Commandments, his Word, his Precepts, his Statutes, his Testimonies, his Laws, which you may find frequently mentioned in that Psalm. He saith, That the Law of God's Mouth was better unto him than thousands of Gold and Silver, and that he counted it in all things to be right; therefore he took God's Testimonies as an Heritage for ever, and a place of Defence. God is called a Refuge, a hiding-place, a strong Tower; but for whom? the Righteous, they run unto it and are safe; great Peace have they that love God's Law, and nothing shall offend them: the direction of God's Word will not only be your safety in troublesome times, but your Counsellor also in common Calamities; and you may, as Luther used, read the 46 Psalms, and bid your Enemies do their worst; if God give them leave to kill the Body, it is the most, they can do no more; if you are not on Earth you may be in Heaven; be not afraid of a Man that shall die, but take our Saviour's Counsel, fear him that can cast Soul and Body into Hell; seek Righteousness, it may be you shall be hid in the Day of the Lord's fierce Anger, which we have cause to fear is hastening to this sinful Nation. God's Law writ on your Heart and Life may be as the Scarlet Thread that was bound in the Window of Rahab's House, which preserved her from Destruction; or as the Blood of the Paschal Lamb, which marked the Houses of the Children of Israel, that the destroying Angel touched not their Dwellings with any of the Plagues of Egypt; however, for your greatest safety, take heed and avoid any indirect or unlawful means to obtain or preserve a Momentary Life, which is as uncertain as short, and so provoke God to lead you forth with the workers of Iniquity, and so your Redemption may cease for ever, and then a great Ransom cannot recover you; therefore at any rate purchase the Truth, and fell it not, to which choice the Lord grant you Wisdom, and Preserve you, both by his Grace under his Protection unto his Heavenly Kingdom, giving you the Blessings of this Life also, and prepare you both for that good Life to come, that when this shall be no more, he may receive you with that happy Saying, Well done; and reward you with Eternal Glory.  
I am sensible of the length of my Letter, but hope it will not be tedious to you; something more I would say, though of a much less Concern, but as a true Friend I would not omit any thing that might render me so, but would caution you with better Arguments than mine, you may have from undeniable Wisdom which is not to be despised, and warn you of what some have smarted for, being Sureties for other Men. I would sooner pay a Debt than be bound for any. See Prov. 6.1, 2. Also Chap. 11.15. the same Author tells you, That he that hateth Suretyship is sure on these Considerations. I request you, you will not be in Bonds to any but to me, by Promise that you will never be Bound for any Man.  
In all I have requested of you, if you have not from yourself or some other Friend better Advice, let this Letter be my Substitute, review it sometimes, and afford it a kind Reception of Friendship from me, who am your well-wishing Friend, ready in any Kindness to express myself,  
Your truly Loving Aunt, Elizabeth Walker. 1685.   

A Letter of prudent, pious Counsels, written to her dear Grandchild, then at Felsted-School, about two Months before she Died,  
which I publish to preserve it for his use; and because I hope it may be also useful to some other Youths of the like Age, and Quality. This was the last large Letter she ever wrote.  
Dear Johnny,  
I Have some time since received a Letter from Mrs. Bribrist, much to my Satisfaction, and I hope is thy due Commendation, she hath been pleased to give me of thee; do not forfeit the same by neglect to perform, in thy commendable good Behaviour as hitherto; but always render suitable to any good thoughts of thee from herself or others; and as helps thereto, be guided by the advice and counsel of thy Friends. Never forget thy Dear Grandfather's oft Counsels when thou wast at home, and since in several good Letters, with them make good use of this also.  
Dear Johnny, I would not be wanting to thee as far as I am able to express. I advise in these following Counsels: Be modest, humble, and obedient to thy Governors and Superiors in that Place; be always advised by them that are able, and wish thee well; it is better, more ease and safety, to be governed than to govern. Lean not to thine own Understanding. The Wise Man saith, Seest thou a Man Wise in his own Eyes, there is more hope of a Fool than of him. Dear Johnny, Thou art not destitute of good Friends where thou art, ready to show thee Kindness; thy Master Glascock, of whom be very respective and observant, performing all Exercises he gives thee, as may be Praiseworthy; also Mrs. Woodroof, Mrs. Boteler, they are thine and our kind Friends, I do not exclude Mrs. robart's.  
Dear Johnny, Let none have cause with shame for, or of thee, to retract their Commendations of thee; make the Word of God the Rule of thy Life; let it be thy chief Counsellor; let thy Reputation have a good Bottom, an honest Heart, free from guile and hypocrisy, being founded on the Scriptures, fixed on the the Rock of Ages, Christ Jesus, that by the winds of Worldly Prosperity, Honour, or Applause, it may never overturn; neither by Adversity, Affliction, or any trouble thou mayest fall into.  
Dear Johnny, All things but God are mutable and full of change, there is the day of Adversity as well as Prosperity; God hath set the one over against the other; make sure thy best and unalterable Estate, in which will be no change nor alteration, but happy once and for ever, to that higher End make thy Learning, and all other things, subservient. Improve all opportunities for thy well-being in this World, but most for thy Spiritual best Advantage; give all diligence, attend at Wisdom's Posts; Wisdom is the principal thing, its Price is far above Rubies, fine Gold cannot equal it, nothing can be compared to it; search for it as for hid Treasure in the holy Scriptures, there thou mayest find the Pearl of so great Price that the World cannot purchase it, and it is worth the selling all to have it. Let not this Price, be put into thy Hand, and thou have no Heart to it; but let it be said of thee as St. Paul said of Timothy, That from a Child he had known the Holy Scriptures; they will make thee Wise unto Salvation, and will help thee in all Relative Duties, in well discharging of which, consists much of the Power and Honour of Religion.  
Mind the Precepts; let them be the guide of all thy Thoughts, and Words, and Actions; do all God's Commandments, in keeping of them there is great Reward.  
Take notice of all the Threaten, that thou mayest avoid the evil of Sin, and the Punishment due to the Commission of it: Heed the Promises, they are full of the Love of God in Christ; let them constrain thee to a circumspect, watchful, holy Life, in performing the conditions of them. Dear Johnny, get God's Just and Righteous Law writ upon the two Tables of thy Heart and Practice, with his own Finger, the Holy Spirit, that thou mayst receive the Truth in the Love of it, being renewed in the spirit of thy mind. He that is in Christ is a new Creature; and he that hath not the Spirit of Christ, is none of his. It is the one thing necessary to serve God, and save thy Soul, choose that good part that may never be taken from thee.  
Dear Johnny, Let no day pass, if in health, without reading the Scriptures, one or two Chapters in the Old-Testament, the like in the New-Testament, read with intention of Mind, and so hear the good Word of God in public; and as God hath commanded, keep Holy the Sabbath-Day, do not violate that Holy Rest with Play, Recreation, vain Talk, Sleep, or Idleness, or omitting any Duty it requires. Eat moderately, that Fumes from a full Stomach may not cloud thy Intellectual Performances; withdraw from that Company, and those Objects which may hinder thee from thinking on the Sermons, or any other Religious Duty; in them exercise thyself, and if God ever give thee opportunity, be helpful unto others in the like, for their Spiritual Advantage, that all within thy Power may serve the Lord; hearing the good Word of God, reading it; Meditation, Prayer, and Praises to God are the Duties of the Sabbath-Day; spend no part of that in Visiting, except to the Sick and Afflicted, and allow it not to be done to thee by others; sequester thyself from them, and all Worldly Discourse, but endeavour to keep that one Day in seven, like the Angels and Saints in Heaven, who serve and do not cease. The Seventh Day is God's Tribute out of the Week; he hath allowed thee Six for thy secular Concerns, out of them bring thy freewill Offering, sometime for thy Spiritual Advantage, for which the Sabbath affords much, and upon the due observation of it, is assured from God to his People, a communication not only of Spiritual Blessings, but of Temporal Blessings also. Read the latter part of Isa. 58. Let no part of the Sabbath day slip without some Improvement for thy best concern, for which also, every day must be accounted for.  
The Sabbath is an Hedge and Fence to all Religion, if that be broken down, there will enter all disorders of Life which Men are prone to; to prevent which, God seems to guard the fourth Commandment with the Authority of the three foregoing, placing it in the midst, and the fifth Commandment next on the other side, bearing the Sword of the Civil Magistrate; and by God's own appointment, Numb. 15.35. Moses caused the Man gathering Sticks on the Sabbath-Day, to be put to Death. Dear Johnny, be afraid of the Powers, though Men be remiss to punish the Breakers of God's Laws, yet himself beareth not the Sword in vain. Do not gather the Sticks of a misspent Sabbath, a Day, on which God hath set a special Remark, a Remember, to keep it Holy; the great neglect and contempt of this Duty, makes it more necessary to be pressed more earnestly.  
Keep all God's Commandments, to break one link of the Ten violates the whole Chain, Jam. 2.10. Keep it entire, have respect to all God's Precepts in the latitude of them, do not wander from them in the by-paths of a sinful Life, they are better than thousands of Gold and Silver; they were of such a concern to David, that he begs of God an Holy Compulsion; make me to know thy Precepts, Statutes and Commandments. And Moses useth this Excitation to the Children of Israel for their observing God's Law. Thou shalt keep the Commandments of the Lord thy God, for they are for thy good, Deut. 10.13. and 11.18. Therefore shalt thou lay them up in thy Heart, and in thy Soul, and do and teach them. Dear Johnny, this do thyself, and as far as it may be in thy Power, excite others in the same Duty, that thou and they, with Joshua's Resolution, may serve the Lord, Jos. 24.15. Own God in this World as thou wouldst have him own thee hereafter. Some glory in their Shame; be not thou ashamed of thy Glory, be not ashamed of the Profession of Religion: Christ hath said, He that is ashamed of me before Men, of him will I be ashamed before my Father and his Holy Angels.  
Dear Johnny, God hath been very good to thee, thou hast lacked nothing good for thee, but God hath provided well for thee; do not ill requite the Lord by the neglect of any known Duty, or doing any thing contrary to the Law of God. Sin is a very ungrateful thing; do not provoke him to withdraw his Loving Kindness from thee for Soul or Body. Woe if God depart. What is said of a Tale-bearer? That he separates near Friends; the same will Sin do, if not watched against; it will separate between God and thy Soul, and will bring an Evil Report to God with worse Effect than Joseph of his Brethren to their Father, and will be of worse Consequence than stripping Joseph of his Coat, not only the external Blessings of this Life, but it will deprive thee of all Internal Comforts, God's favourable Countenance, which is better than Life, and exclude from his Comfortable Presence for ever. Sin put the Flaming Sword into the Angel's Hand to debarr our first Parents from the Tree of Life; divested and stripped them, and all their Posterity, of their Original Righteousness, and left them and their sinful Offspring naked, exposed to all the Afflictions and Miseries of this Life, and under God's Displeasure, to their Eternal Ruin, had not Free Grace recovered that lapsed Estate; Thanks be to God for Jesus Christ.  
Dear Johnny, That thou mayest know that thou art one of those whom he so loved, manifest thy Love to him by that Test that Christ put to his Disciples; If ye love me keep my Commandments. Love is a reflective Act; if thou lovest God according to this Discrimination, thou mayest know that he loveth thee, and gave himself for thee, and hath chosen thee one of his peculiar People, zealous of good Works; therefore if Sinners entice thee, consent thou not; go not with them, lest thou learn their ways and get a blot unto thy Soul. Let God's Law be the prohibition of every Evil Way; set it with its drawn Sword against all Irregularities of Life, that it may be unto thee as the Angel in Paradise, to defend in thee the Tree of Life, that no ill Practice, with the evil Consequences of it, may touch thee.  
Dear Johnny, Show thy Love to God by thy Love to his People, and poor Members of Christ. Christ saith, Hereby shall Men know that ye are my Disciples, that ye love one another. God requires the duties of the second Table of the Law as well as the first, and Christ gives a concise and full account of both; he being asked which was the first and great Commandment? saith, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy Heart with all thy Mind, with all thy Soul, and with all thy Strength; the second is like the first, Thou shalt love thy Neighbour as thyself. On this brief Account Christ put so great a stress, he said, On these hang all the Law and the Prophets. And St. James saith 28. If ye fulfil the Royal Law, according to the Scriptures, thou shalt love thy Neighbour as thyself; which God requires not in Word only, but in Deed also, relieving their Necessities; if any be naked or destitute of daily Food, to feed and  them; to say departed in Peace, and give them not those things needful to the Body, it will not profit; therefore withhold not good from them to whom it is due, if it be in the Power of thy Hand to do it; it is a more blessed thing to give than to receive. He that gives to the Poor shall not lack, but he that hideth his Eyes shall have many a Curse. Do not say I have but little now to give, but I will give hereafter; remember the poor Woman's Mite was more in Christ's Esteem than those who had of their abundance cast into the Treasury.  
Dear Johnny, It may be something might be spared from unnecessary Expense, buying Fruit, or the like, of which too much may be prejudicial to thy Health, and may be laid out to a better account. Do not give grudgingly, by constraint, lest it be as the Lame or Blind, which was not to be brought to God; like Cain's Sacrifice which he brought with an unwilling mind, not acceptable to God: Let the object stir up thy Compassion that thou mayst not give too sparingly; God loves a cheerful giver.  
Dear Johnny, He that gives to the Poor lends to the Lord; he that makes all Grace to abound will repay thee in temporal and spiritual Blessings, good Measure, shaken, and pressed together, and running over, shall be given to thee; God hath given many Promises to the Charitable: to hint but a few, The Lord will deliver him in time of Trouble, and will not deliver him to the Will of his Enemies. The Lord will preserve him and keep him alive, and he shall be Blessed upon the Earth. The Lord will strengthen him upon the Bed of Languishing; he will make all his Bed in his Sickness, Psal. 41. For thy Encouragement read Isaiah 58. Yield Obedience to God's Command. He hath said, Deut. 7. If there be among you a poor Man, thou shalt not harden thy Heart, not shut thy Hand against thy poor Brother; thou shalt surely give unto him, and thy Heart shall not be grieved when thou givest unto him; but thou shalt open thy Hand wide unto thy poor, and to thy needy; for, for this thing shall the Lord bless thee in all thou puttest thy Hand unto.  
Dear Johnny, Thou art also bound by an obligatory Promise to thy Grandfather and to me; we have sometimes given thee Money for this Purpose, to inure thee betimes to be Charitable, that something of it thou mightest give unto the Poor, as thou hast promised, a Penny in every Shilling, it is but a little; do not withhold that, lest it become an accursed thing to thee, like Achan's wedge of Gold, at the Last Day, the Day of Judgement. This duty of Charity, in right performance of it, will be a distinguishing Character of those who shall stand at Christ's Right-hand from those who shall stand at his Lefthand, whose Hands were as straight as their Hearts were hard; they would have no Pity on the Poor, therefore they shall find none. But Christ will say unto them, Depart, ye Cursed, into Everlasting Fire, prepared for the Devil and his Angels, with that Infernal Company.  
But those at Christ's right-hand, which fed the hungry, clothed the naked, visited the sick and imprisoned, which Christ will take as done unto himself, he will reward with the Kingdom of Heaven. Dear Johnny, Make thee friends of the Mammon of this World, that when this Life fails, thou mayst be received into everlasting Habitations.  
Dear Johnny, As God may bless thee with the things of this World, let not thy little at present be the measure of greater plenty; He that sows sparingly, shall reap spearingly; but he that sows bountifully, shall reap bountifully, not only in this Life, but in that to come. There are degrees of Glory in Heaven, the better here, the happier hereafter, though not of merit, but of Grace. God will pass by the Imperfections of his People, which cleave to their best performance.  
Dear Johnny, With other religious Duties, continue thy custom of private Prayer, at least twice a day, Morning and Evening, besides public and family Prayer. Ejaculatory Prayer is also of great Benefit; it is short, but holy Desires, lifting up thy heart to God: Let them be thy last thoughts before sleep, that God may give thee, as his Beloved, sleep; the like as soon as thou wakest in the Morning, before more solemn Prayer, and with both render him Praise for the Mercy thou liest down in peace, and risest in safety, always under God's Protection. These holy Desires may be oft sent to Heaven, and bring thee Blessings the World cannot give, and will defend thee from the Sin and Vanity of it, keeping thy heart in a good frame; they may be as the Angels ascending and descending upon Jacob's Ladder, where God is above it, ready to receive thee, that thy return to secular Employment may be sanctified and blest; that God may, by thy holy wrestle with him, as he did Jacob, bless thee in thy way to Canaan, and New Jerusalem above: And in thy more lengthened Prayer, with thy own necessities, and receipts from God, remember the Church and People of God, as need requires, with Prayers and Praises. Go to God with filial Fear, and holy Reverence of Body and Mind. God is in Heaven by his Greatness, Superiority, and Majesty; thou on Earth in Weakness and Indigency. Bring thy wants to his all-sufficient Fullness, and immense Goodness, ready, able, willing to supply all thy Necessities; beg thee pardon of thy Sins, and what thou needest, for the sake, merits, and ever-prevaling Intercession of Jesus Christ. Ask, that thou mayst receive his holy Spirit, as the Seal of his Love to thee. With the imputed Righteousness of Christ, reconciling thee to God. Beg that thou mayst also have an inherent Righteousness from him, renewing thee in the Spirit of thy Mind, into his Image, that thou mayst become one with him, his Law being writ on thy Heart, that he may guide thee by his Counsel in this troublesome World, that no temptation may be above thy strength. These things ask, with thy daily Bread, which implies the supply of all the necessities of humane Nature, and be not desirous of more than God sees good for thee; and for all the Receipts, for Soul and Body, be thankful; forget not to render Praises to God, for what he bestows on thyself, and others.  
Forget not Zion; pray for the peace of Jerusalem, they shall prosper that love her. Pray for the Conversion of Enemies, that the Kingdom of Satan may fall, and the Kingdom of Christ be exalted, that the Gospel may continue where it is, and sent where it is not, and received in the Love of it through the World. Pray for all afflicted, as their case requires, and with thy Prayers and Praises, give thanks to God, for the prime Fountain of all his Mercies, Christ Jesus.  
In particular, thou mayst mention at the Throne of Grace, what Christ hath done and suffered for humble contrite Sinners. Labour and beg for such a frame of Spirit, such God not despise.  
Express thy thankfulness for what Christ hath instituted and ordained in his Church, for the Benefit and good of his People. Thou mayst in particular express, with Prayers and Praises, That all may be applicatory to thyself. These are short hints, thou mayst enlarge, God giving thee his Spirit of Grace and Supplication.  
Let not vain Thoughts mingle with religious Duties; beware of those wand'ring Vagrants; do not take such Company with thee, when thou drawest near to God, in any Religious performance; lest it be like offering strange fire, provoke God rather to consume than bless thee; but keep off those busy Flies, they may not corrupt thy Sacrifice. Say to all disturbing Thoughts as Abraham said to his Servants, when he went to the Mount to Sacrifice, Stay you here below, till I go to Worship God. Fervent Prayer is very prevalent with God; of it may be said what is said of Faith, which is a justifying Grace, without which it is impossible to please God, Heb. 11. For he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. Good works are the Life of Faith, being well performed for matter and manner; without which Faith is Dead, and God is not the God of the dead, but of the living; as the body without the spirit is dead, so without works faith is dead also; St. James 2. The great things a lively Faith hath done, fervent Prayer hath done the same. The little Book I sent thee, was thy dear Mother's, it is a good Discourse of Prayer. Dear Johnny, let thy Prayers and Praises, with the sweet Incense of thy Love to God be offered to him on the golden Altar of an humble and sincere Heart, in the mediation of Jesus Christ; and put no religious Duty off with that foolish, idle Excuse, I have not time, lest thou, as the foolish Virgins were, be unfurnished of Oil for the Lamp of thy Christian Profession; and for thy neglect, shut out of the Kingdom of Heaven.  
If Time for Play, Recreation, Eating, Sleeping, or the like, a due proportion of Time may be gained from them for thy best, therefore thy most concern, those indispensable Duties, on which thy eternal welfare so much depends; the neglect of them may be thy inevitable Ruin in this Life, and that to come; for Godliness hath the promise of both: Therefore seek the Kingdom of Heaven in the first place, and the things of this present Life shall be added to thee, as may be good for thee.  
The things of this World compared to God and Heaven are but Straws and Pebbles. St. Paul calls them dross; and Luther said, The whole Turkish Empire is but a Crust God throws to the Dog. God hath provided better things for those that love and seek him. In this world is our preparatory Life for our future Estate. I have oft said to thee, That all Men are about this great Business, but in a different way to a different end. Good Men prepare for Heaven, and Wicked Men prepare for Hell; therefore avoid the broad-way of a sinful Life which leads to Destruction, choose that way which, comparatively, few find, the way of an holy Life; the end of which, is Peace, which the World cannot give.  
Dear Johnny, Do not defer thy great concern, to serve God and save thy Soul, more worth than Ten thousand Worlds. Many much younger than thee have set about this great work. Thou hast oft read Mr. Smythies' Book of the Benefit of early Piety; also thou hast had a civil and religious Education, and many more Prayers than thou art Days old.  
Thy dear Grandfather's Care, Counsel and Prayers; mine have not been wanting, as far as able to perform, in my care and love of thee; let them not condemn thee, but labour to answer the end of them, that thou mayst not disappoint God and us, to thy own detriment and loss. Dear Johnny, where much is given, the more will be required; Time is precious, use all lawful Industry and Diligence for thy well being in this World, and make all subservient for a better to come. Thou knowest not how long God may continue thy Friends to thee, (She was not continued three Months;) nay, thy own Life is uncertain; all things in this World are so, and there is no retrieving an Error on the other side of Death. Do not procrastinate, take the wise Man's Counsel, what thy hand findeth to do, do it with all thy might, which infers speed and diligence, for the obtaining internal and external Blessings. Deferring made St. Augusting cry out, Too late, too late, Lord, did I love thee.  
Dear Johnny, Do not put God off with a decrepit Love, and the i'll Spirits of old age, and bodily Infirmity, by which the operative Faculties of thy Soul, through the organical Powers of the Body, may be obstructed with defect, and impeded with the ill Habits and Customs of Sin. Avoid this Danger, give to God the vigour and strength of thy Life; let it be without blemish. By God's appointment, the young was brought to him in Sacrifice. Do thou as Righteous Abel; give to God thy firstlings, thy first Love, and suffer no Rival or Competitour with it; it was the Test Christ put to his Disciples, If ye love me, keep my Commandments. Dear Johnny, I used to mind thee, St. John, thy own name, let him be thy Example in thy Love to God; he was the youngest Disciple, most eminent in Christ's Love. He was called the Disciple whom Jesus loved.  
Dear Johnny, Be not taken with the Gauds and Vanities of this World, in any of the proffers of it; they will by't like an Adder, and sting like a Serpent, if they draw thy Heart from God. Be not deceived by them, they will put a lie in thy right-hand, promising more than they can give. Be not affected with vain Glory, it is but a Puff of breath, soon exhaled, and will vanish from thee: Yea, so are all the things of this World, for the duration of them.  
Remember thy Baptismal Covenant with God, thou didst promise to forsake the Pomps and Vanities of this World, the Devil and all his Works, and sinful Appetites to them. I was a Witness to this Engagement, and one of thy Sureties. Dear Johnny, let thy Baptismal Vow, through Grace, preserve thy Morals untainted. Let none be corrupted by thy ill Example, and be not thou infected by the evil manners of others.  
Speak no obscene or scurrilous Language, and abhor the Company of those that do so; Evil Communication corrupts good Manners. If thou commit an Error, do not hid it with that, that is more base. Truth is a generous thing, and will better cover a mistake, than that that is contrary to it. Keep thy heart with all keep; out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, the product of which are evil Words and Actions. Dear Johnny, fear to be one of that number which did not like to retain God in their Knowledge; and God gave them up to their own Lusts to be filled with all unrighteousness; Covenant-breakers, Thiefs, Adulterers, Drunkards, Liars, Covetous, Unmerciful, etc. From these and all Soul-wasting Sins let thy Baptismal Engagement preserve thee; for they that do such things shall not inherit the Kingdom of Heaven. Dear Johnny, keep thy way and Life clean, by taking heed thereto according to the Word of God, and thy Promise in Baptism.  
Be very humble, better it is to be of an humble Spirit with the lowly, than to divide the Spoil with the Proud. Prov. 16.19. By Humility and the Fear of the Lord is Wisdom. Do not intrude into unknown Company, nor meddle with that thou needest not be concerned in; it may be of ill consequence. The Wise Man saith, He that passeth by and meddleth with Strife not belonging to him, is like one that taketh a Dog by the Ears, Prov. 26. which he may sooner do, than extricate himself from the following Evil.  
Dear Johnny, I do farther advise thee with remote Counsel, which at present may not concern thee, but hereafter may be useful to thee; I may quickly be incapacitated by Death, and writ no more, nor advise thee. Therefore be not thou one of them that strike Hands, or of them that are Sureties for debts, Prov. 11.15. If thou be surety for thy friend, if thou hast stricken thy hand with a stranger, thou art snared with the words of thy mouth: thou art taken with the words of thy mouth. A man void of understanding striketh hands, and becometh surety in the presence of his friend; but he that hateth suretyship is sure. And the wise Man farther adviseth therefore, Deliver thyself as the bird from the fowler. And my request is, that thou never wilt be in Bonds for, or to any, but to me by promise, that thou never wilt be bound to, or for any Man, on no account whatsoever.  
Dear Johnny, If God be pleased to continue thee sometime in this World, and bestow on thee this World's goods, use them wisely. Do not abuse them by profuse, expensive, prodigality; make not God's Bounty instrumental to his Dishonour, nor Fuel to feed any Lusts, lest what Divine Mercy gave thee for thy good, become to thee a trap, and occasion of falling. On the other extreme, avoid sordid living and covetousness, which God abhorreth, and hath branded with the mark of all Evil. The brutish Prodigal came to eat Husks with Swine, and the other may as bad. There is that withholdeth more than is meet, but it tendeth only to penury; as Self-murder is the least excusable, because most unnatural, so Self-robbers are the severeliest punished, being daily their own Executioners.  
Whatever Talon God may intrust thee with, Health, Riches, Honour, worldly Prosperity, Wisdom, Learning, improve all for God, thy own best Advantage, and the good of others.  
Dear Johnny, Let all thy Deportment be with Wisdom, flashy wit is the froth of somewhat called Wisdom.  
In all things, so far as may consist with thy best part, and well-being in this World, render thyself desirable to humane Society; take notice of any Civility showed thee, with suitable returns of Friendship; be courteous, kind, affable, of courteous and obliging behaviour. a morose churlish Humour is like Nabal, of no better esteem than a Son of Belial.  
Dear Johnny, Do nothing that looks despicably, childish, foolish, piddling with thy fingers, picking thy buttons, going with thy hands in thy pockets, or the like. I pray thee do none of these unbecoming actions. I love to see thee Gentile; keep thy Hands and Clothes clean; think of what I have sometimes said to thee, All cleanly people are not good, but there are few good people but are cleanly. I do not strictly place Religion in external accomplishments, but that that is decent, is not only allowable, but commanded. Our Bodies are the Temples of the Holy Ghost, therefore due honour is to be given to them, without Pride or Excess. In time of the Old Law, all outward Impurity was to be avoided. God commanded, by Moses, the Children of Israel not to touch any uncleanness, nor suffer their Camps to be defiled therewith, but to cleanse it away; and not to have performed those Duties in externals, would have brought them under greater defilements by Disobedience to God's Commands. In the new-Testament St. Paul writes to the Philippians 4.8. of both external and internal Purity; Whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are of good report, (thou mayst read in the Margin, or revenerable) if there be any virtue, if there be any praise, think on these things.  
I would have thee always wear Gloves, but when it is not convenient; gratify my Desire, I am willing to bestow them on thee, they will not hinder thy Writing if the Fingers be short or cut. Dear Johnny, Thou shalt not want them or any thing else thy Dear Grandfather, or myself can help thee to, good for thee, conditionally thou wilt not disoblige us. Sat, stand, and go upright that thou mayest not grow a-wry, or full Shouldered; it will trouble me much to see thee Crooked.  
Dear Johnny, One thing more of concern I mind thee of, in which I much desire thy Care, Pronunciation, in which a Deficiency may be injurious to thee, when thou canst less help it than now thou mayest by thy seasonable Care. Endeavour to speak plain, clear and true, pronounce the last Syllable distinctly (and do not drown it) of any Word; English requires it, and so may Latin and other Languages as much; an Orator to which thou art designed, should speak good Sense, Rhetoric, and Intelligibly. Get not ill affected tone in Speech, and be not over talkative. The Wise Man saith, The talk of the Lips tends only to Penury, and in the multitude of Words there wanteth not Sin, but he that refraineth his Lips is Wise; indeed Words with Wisdom fitly spoken, are like Apples of Gold, in Pictures of Silver. Dear Johnny, I desire thy accomplishments as may render thee lovely to Men, but more to God. Let this latter part of my Letter be observed, but especially the former, and foregoing part of it, and let not the length of either be tedious unto thee; an idle Discourse, though much longer, may be pleasant to an ill Mind, but I have better thoughts of thee. I know nothing I have writ, my Love to thee might have spared; thou hast had several good Letters from thy Dear Grandfather, therefore the less need of this; but with his, I desire that this may be useful to thee when neither he nor I can write or advise thee; all things in this Life are uncertain, Life is so. The World passeth away and the things of it, but he that doth the Will of God shall abide for ever. All things on this side Eternity are on the wing of Time, they hasten away to their fixed Estate. Dear Johnny, Time is precious, let it not be ill spent, but improved for thy well-being in this World, but let all tend to attain and secure thy Eternal Happiness, which hath great dependence on thy manner of Living in this World, and there is no retrieving an Error on the other side of Death, in time is thy time; that that is passed cannot be recalled; that to come cannot be assured; that present is only thine, and will not tarry; let it not unprofitably slide from thee. Acknowledge God in all thy ways, and he will guide thy Path that none of thy steps shall slide; and when God takes thy Earthly Parents and Friends from thee, thy Heavenly Father will take care of thee. Therefore Dear Johnny, acquaint thyself with God, and serve him with a perfect Heart, and with a willing Mind, for the Lord searcheth all Hearts, and understands all the Imaginations of the Thoughts; if thou seekest him he will be found of thee, but if thou forsakest him, he will cast thee off for ever, 1 Chron. 28.9.  
This Scripture thy Dear Grandfather hath oft minded thee of, I do the same; let mine, with his Counsels, and the Word of God, be to thee as a threefold Cord, not to be broken, but let them bind thy Obedience to God's Righteous Law; there will be no greater joy to thy Dear Grandfather and myself than to see thee walking in the Truth. Dear Johnny, It is my earnest Request that God will direct, guide, counsel and conduct thee in, and through this troublesome sinful World, Sin hath made it so. The Good Lord give thee his preventing Grace, bless thee with Spiritual and Temporal Blessings, and when God will take thee out of this World, receive thee to those Celestial Habititions in Eternal Mansions of Glory prepared for them that love him, and keep his Commandments; of which happy number I beg God will make thee, after length of Days in this Life, preparatory for the fuller fruition and enjoyment of God, and of thy dearest Friends, with all the forever Blessed Saints and Angels in that unchangeable Blessed Estate in Heaven, which make sure of.  
Dear Johnny, This is my request to thee, a●d Prayer to God for thee, I am,  
Thy truly Loving, and very Affectionate Grandmother, Elizabeth Walker. Dec. 9 1689.  
I shall add no more of her Pious Papers, nor give any farther Character of her Person, or exemplary Life; than the Book presents, supposing nothing can leave a more savoury relish on the Godly Wise, or be fit to conclude such a Work, which is designed to render them so who read it, than this plain, but prudent, honest Letter, written so providentially, so immediately before her Death, that it may be called her last, or dying Words, which usually leave the deepest and most lasting Impressions, and that with so strong and endearing tender Affections, with so undisguised and native Simplicity, without Art or pretence to Learning, or any other acquired Abilities than wise observation, and an Holy Heart; and as it performs more than could be expected from the Writer, I humbly beseech God it may effect ever beyond what might be ordinarily hoped for in the young Reader, especially the dear Child to, and for whom she wrote it. Amen, Amen.   
FINIS.