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LONE-STAR LIGHTS 
 
LONE-STAR LIGHTS 
 
 v. 
 
 BELLE HUNT SHORTRIDGE 
 
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 WITH AN INTRODUCTION BY 
 
 JAMES McCARROLL 
 
 NEW YORK 
 
 BELFORD COMPANY, Publishers 
 
 i8~22 East Eighteenth Street 
 
 [Publishers of Bel/ord''s Magazine\ 
 
^0 2. 
 
 Copyright, 1890, 
 Bv BELLE HUNT SHORTRIDGE. 
 
DeMcatioiu 
 
 TEXAS! 
 
 Emi'IRE majestic, with thy head so_proud, 
 Pillowed on mountain heights of snow and cloud ; 
 And kingly feet laved by the tepid tide 
 Of Aztec waters, sun- kissed, free and wide! 
 Realm of eternal Spring and blessedness. 
 Of flower's breath, and mock-bird songs that cease 
 Not, all the golden months of all the year! 
 Land of cerulean sky, low-dipped, and clear! 
 Oh, prairies boundless, breeze-tossed, cattle-nipped! 
 Oh, hidden streams, translucent and deer-sipped! 
 Oh, sweet hills verdant-footed, purple-hazed! 
 Oh, fields of cotton-snow 'and golden maize. 
 Oh, valleys of low-lying, blue-green wheat, 
 Up where the mesa and the cold waves meet! 
 What wonder that men's blood leapt forth, to flow 
 Chivalric, for thee, at the Alamo ? 
 Land of my birth, and soul's intensest love! 
 Dear is thy soil, thy calm, blue sky, above ; 
 Dear are thy aims to all my eager heart, 
 And dear thy people, of myself a part. 
 Dear is thy soil ? It holds my sacred dead, 
 And precious living! Thus, I lift my head. 
 And eyes, and heart, across a continent. 
 Baring to thee this holy sentiment. 
 This little volume, and its fate, I lay 
 Upon thy big heart's largess. Is it " Nay, 
 We are too busy, empire-building, child. 
 To loiter, dallying with thy blossoms wild. 
 And pretty little heart-songs. Go thy way ; 
 We'll hearken to thee on some idler day " ? 
 But, friends, some idler day we may be dead, 
 And all these words, so comforting, unsaid! 
 See, I am speaking to the personal heart, 
 And it is well : no great things ever start 
 From cold concretions. Give me one heart's smile, 
 And I will win the whole world, after-while. 
 New York, Noziember i, i8go. 
 
INTRODUCTION. 
 
 There do not appear to be many drops of tired, venous 
 blood creeping through this admirable collection of poems. 
 On the contrary, a bright, arterial tide, flashing with true 
 genius and pulsating with exalted poetic fervor, flows 
 throughout almost every stanza. This speaks well for the 
 •' Lone-Star State," whose daughter and ardent worshipper 
 Mrs. Shortridge is. The refinement, strength, originality, and 
 versatility of this authoress will be recognized at once by 
 those who are given to the harmony of numbers when wedded 
 to great beauty and profound thought. In a literary and 
 artistic sense this volume is of unusual excellence, and 
 should command wide-spread patronage. 
 
 James McCarroll. 
 
 New York, A^ovember, 1890. 
 
LONE-STAR LIGHTS, 
 
 MY SISTER, 
 
 Kate Hunt Craddock. 
 
 I HAVE the sweetest haven 
 
 Of any coast on earth ; 
 Where not a breaker heaveth, 
 
 Nor any wind hath birth. 
 The secret ? Listen — do not start!- 
 My sister's heart ! 
 
 I have the bluest heaven 
 That ever leaned o'er sea ; 
 
 The calmest, clearest sky-world, 
 To bend and smile on me. 
 
 Soft ! it is, too, a great surprise — 
 
 My sister's eyes ! 
 
 I have a lamp Aladdin, 
 
 Most commonplace and small : 
 You'd see it every day, most, 
 
 And wonder not at all. 
 Yet, it invokes the genii band — 
 My sister's hand ! 
 
lo LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 I have the prettiest picture, 
 
 That smiles, and frowns, an(J nods. 
 
 The canvas is — my memory ! 
 The painter's hand was — God's ! 
 
 It follows me from place to place — 
 
 My sister's face ! 
 
 There is "another of me 
 
 With all the bad rubbed out." 
 
 The spirit seems >iiy spirit, 
 Yet, it is gird about 
 
 With light, and beauty wonderful! — 
 
 My sister-soul ! 
 
PEACH-BLOSSOM TIME. n 
 
 PEACH-BLOSSOM TIME. 
 
 Down in the orchards the wild birds are singing, 
 
 " Peach-blossom time !" 
 White-petalled, gold-hearted daisies are nodding, 
 
 " Peach-blossom time !" 
 South winds are blowing, and bear on their pinions 
 
 Fragrance sublime, 
 Stolen from groves of magnolia and orange. 
 
 In sunnier clime. 
 
 Hearts are rejoicing and nature o'er-flowing, 
 
 'Tis peach-blossom time ! 
 Blue-birds are mating, and billing, and cooing, 
 
 " Peach-blossom time !" 
 Peach-blossom time, with its wondrous elixir 
 
 Bounding along, 
 From tip-toe to temple; and oh ! how the heart-strings 
 
 Vibrate with the song ! 
 
 Open, O shell-tinted, delicate petals, 
 
 Soft as the light, 
 Yield up th' aroma wrapt up in your bosoms 
 
 Of rose-tint and white ! 
 Music and melody ring in the wood-lands 
 
 Morn, noon, and night. 
 Bursting from sweet, feathered throats, in a rapture 
 
 Of wildest delight I 
 
z LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 Strange doth it seem that these orchards of blossom 
 
 A few weeks ago 
 Stood facing the norther, their bare arms extended, 
 
 Laden with snow; 
 But warm rains and sunshine, and God's wondrous power 
 
 And loving design, 
 Hath clothed them in garments surpassing all texture 
 
 Of hands not divine. 
 
 Then open your dainty hearts, pour out their fragrance, 
 
 Ablution divine ! 
 While angel-voice sings, in the breeze to the earth-land, 
 
 " Peach-blossom time !" 
 
AD ASTRA. 13 
 
 AD ASTRA. 
 
 O SKYLARK, piercing heaven's unclouded blue! 
 
 My soul yearns after and would follow thee; 
 Spurning this nether world of dross and claj'', 
 
 Afloat on that unfathomable sea 
 Where earth-born cares vex not, and time and space 
 
 Are naught; where freedom lives, and destiny 
 Plies not so slow a shuttle through the web 
 
 Of man's sure growth toward immortality. 
 Curb not th' ambitious soul's profound desire; 
 
 Set not a bound to man's attainment here: 
 Just what the mind can grasp, the heart can dare, 
 
 So much is possible, is just, is clear. 
 To what extent man is an idealist, 
 
 Is he divine, omnipotent. Yet, fair 
 As morn in May-time, must he ever keep 
 
 That Ideal glowing in his life's mid-air. 
 Come weal, come woe, come triumph or defeat, 
 
 Still must it throb and quicken, low, yet strong, 
 That aim and purpose — like the deep bassoon 
 
 In orchestration, bearing up the song. 
 In harmony sonorous — lost to those 
 
 " Who hear the music, and yet miss the tune," 
 But to his ears clear as the liquid notes 
 
 A mocking-bird trills, on a night in June. 
 For Solomon arose the ivory throne 
 
 O'erlaid with gold, when Solomon decreed. 
 Man, arrogant, is master of his fate. 
 
 Wherein a brave heart wills, it doth succeed. 
 
14 LONE-ST/IR LIGHTS. 
 
 Go, then, my soul, down into Afrlc sands. 
 
 And fetch the ivory for this beauteous throne; 
 Hunt down the huge beast in his jungle lair, 
 
 And wrench the white tusk from his great jaw-bone. 
 Pause not, but dare — intrepid and alone, 
 
 Unmindful of the Upas, and the coils 
 Of venomed serpents where thy foot descends, — 
 
 It is the master-foot, and these its spoils! 
 Go, then, my heart, launched on the silent sea. 
 
 To Gopher, where the red gold lieth deep 
 Within the mountain-caverns; delve thou there, 
 
 Unearth the treasures from their torpid sleep 
 Of centuries, and bear them here, to melt 
 
 In lace-like tracery o'er the chaste background 
 Where we shall stand! And, soul, go further down — 
 
 To Lebanon, where kings of beasts are found; 
 Yoke two — the fiercest; lead them here to me. 
 
 That I may lay my fragile, human hand 
 On their imperial heads, and overcome 
 
 Brute-force by mind's effulgence; and command 
 That docile reverence which our childhood saw 
 
 In Una's lion, with his lamb-like tread, 
 Guided by love. Perchance in this wide world 
 
 All remnant of the art triumphant is not dead ! 
 
 What shall we do, O soul! when you and I 
 
 Stand, flushed, triumphant, on some dizzy height. 
 Drunk on ambition's wine, and satiate 
 
 With life's full recompense, and keen delight? 
 Like Alexander, bow our crowned heads 
 
 Upon our hands victorious, and weep 
 Because no other valorous worlds remain 
 
 To crumble at our swords' imperious sweep .'' 
 Ah no! There will be better things to do, 
 
/ID ASTRA. 15 
 
 For you and me. To carve the ivory throne 
 Into styli; to write the glowing truth, 
 
 Clean-cut and luminous, in every zone 
 Where hearts are leal, minds penetrating; where 
 
 The virgin lamps of genius yet endure, 
 Despite the fogs of superstitious creeds, 
 
 That would their cleansing, steadfast flames obscure. 
 The gold to coin in dollars, to buy bread 
 
 For little, helpless children, hungering; 
 The beasts, unfettered, to send safely forth, 
 
 Man's friend, Love's convert. Thus we loudly sing, 
 " Ad Astra! — onward to the burning stars, 
 
 O soul aspiring! lag not by the way 
 Despondent. See the light on land and sea, 
 
 That leadeth to the brink of perfect day !" 
 
i6 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 LOVE'S DEFIANCE. 
 
 What! here again with thy mocking eyes, 
 
 Thou beautiful wraith of a buried past! 
 Thou half-guessed scent of a pressed white rose. 
 
 Of a summer too fleet and fair to last! 
 Ah me! since then I have learned so much 
 
 Of the ways of the world and the ways of men, 
 I had dreamed I was stoical, worldly-wise; 
 
 I did not think I would stumble again. 
 I had told my heart that it all was best; 
 
 My heart had looked in my eyes and smiled 
 A smile incredulous, sensuous, rare, 
 
 Till it, somehow or other, my faith beguiled. 
 I had stood by the bier of that sweet old love 
 
 And watched it die as a mortal may; 
 I had closed its eyes with a reverent touch, 
 
 And folded the still white hands away; 
 And I smiled with the death dew lingering yet 
 
 On my finger-tips: I was sore beset 
 With the horror that some one would see and know 
 
 That my idol was clay! I cannot forget, 
 Though I have forgiven. Ah! living or dead, 
 
 Or buried, or thrilling with life's red wine, 
 Thou art my love and my own heart's blood. 
 
 Thou art mine own, and I am thine! 
 See! 'tis a miracle, solve it who can, — 
 
 A woman's heart is a wonderful thing. 
 The world is its kingdom, it reigneth supreme. 
 
 And Love is its vanquished rose-yoked king. 
 
 October, 1889. 
 
AFTERWHILE. 17 
 
 Come to thy throne in my heart's deep core; 
 
 Kiss me straight on the lips anew; 
 Down on your knees and homage pay 
 
 To the woman who conquers a man like you. 
 
 AFTERWHILE. 
 
 Heart of mine, be not so heavy; 
 
 Sad eyes, try to smile; 
 Surely better days are coming 
 Afterwhile! 
 
 Long the leaden clouds have rested 
 
 On the mountain's crest, 
 But God's sunshine is behind them 
 In the west. 
 
 For awhile, dear love, our pathways 
 
 Blossomed side by side, 
 Till the frown of Fate between them 
 Parted wide. 
 
 But across the dreary chasm 
 
 I can catch thy smile- 
 Stretching out my hand, I'll clasp thine, 
 Afterwhile. 
 i88a. 
 
i8 LOME-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 IN MY HAMMOCK. 
 
 July 15, 1889. 
 
 O NIGHT, SO soft and dim ! when tired eyes 
 May rest, all uncomplaining, where they list, 
 
 night, so blue and dewy ! dove-winged skies, 
 Just touched with glory, where the red sun kissed. 
 
 1 lay my weary head upon thy heart, 
 
 I hear it throb, and I am comforted ! 
 I seem from earth and care something apart, 
 
 So cool and tranquil grows the busy head. 
 All day the unloved world hath held me fast, 
 
 A fettered prisoner, in its tedious ways; 
 All day the unloved people came and passed, 
 
 And spoke, and stared, as in all other days. 
 May not a creature have a creature's mood 1 
 
 May not a soul grow tired of playing gay? 
 May not a woman look in her own heart 
 
 And say, " Just you and I commune to-day?" 
 Sweet night ! thou art so restful, wise, and kind, 
 
 Dropping thy shielding curtains all about; 
 Blending the shadows, softened, undefined, 
 
 Putting high lights — and curious eyes — to rout. 
 Reach down thy velvet arms, and press me close, 
 
 Beam soft thy starry eyes into mine own; 
 Blow sweet thy cooling winds on bud and rose, 
 
 Welcome where late the day's hot breath hath blown. 
 Sweep low the silken wing of bat, or bird, 
 
IN MY HAMMOCK. 19 
 
 ■ — I do not fear thy shy, innoxious guests — 
 Across my fretful brow. Some fancy stirred 
 
 By their light wings, may prove of heaven blessed. 
 
 wondrous majesty of space and light ! 
 
 Up where the burning fire-worlds plunge along, 
 In orbits wide, God-measured, softly bright, 
 Singing their mighty, endless, spheral song, 
 
 1 long for wings, that I may soar away, 
 And stand — a happy mariner, alone — 
 
 Upon that sea so luminous, and pay 
 
 Homage beneath the rings of Saturn's throne. 
 I long for something high, and clear, and bright; 
 
 I am so tired of vainly grovelling here! 
 I long for rest! O friendly, soothing night, 
 
 Thy blessing! Ah! — the benedictial tear, 
 A dew-drop on my cheek! Sing low, oh! breeze! 
 
 Fan soft as angel wings. I am so calm! 
 Stir not a green leaf in the silent trees, 
 
 And steep my soul in Lethe's holy balm. 
 Good-night, O big, loud, noisy, garish world I 
 
 They may not miss me in the quiet home; 
 Off on the shoreless sea my fancies whirled, 
 
 I sink, and wish the day may never come! 
 
LONE-STAR LIGHTS, 
 
 "BEXIE." 
 
 Bexie is not beautiful, — 
 
 That is, as women go, 
 With tints, and airs, and graces, 
 
 Made up for pomp and show. 
 But she is more than beautiful 
 
 Of soul, and heart, and gaze; 
 And most bewilderingly fair 
 
 Are Bexie's dainty ways. 
 
 A creature most complex is she 
 
 Of aim, capacity; 
 Who plays divinest music — 
 
 Then runs and makes the tea. 
 She teaches stupid children 
 
 (And bears the other kind). 
 And is so equipoised you can 
 
 Not guess what's in her mind. 
 
 I'm mad in love with Bexie, 
 
 And wouldn't do a thing 
 To reap her scorn — no more, indeed, 
 
 Than if she were a queen, 
 And I her heel-pressed minion, 
 
 Kicked and caressed by starts. 
 She is a queen is Bexie — 
 
 A trump, and Queen of Hearts. 
 
 FoRNKY. Tkxas. 
 
JEFFERSON DA^IS, DEAD. 21 
 
 JEFFERSON DAVIS, DEAD. 
 
 So stops a nation's throbbing, human heart ; 
 
 So fades a sweet dream into viewless air ; 
 So dies a dear hope like a glowing spark 
 
 That shed a white light on a land so fair. 
 O widowed South ! bend low thy regal head; 
 
 Draw close thy weeds funereal, black as night 
 On shore Plutonian; life itself is dead, 
 
 And day hath faded into endless night. 
 Toll, toll, ye bells, in every dome and spire, 
 
 Pour mournful music on the Christmas-tide; 
 The Christ born to us can no solace bring, — 
 
 Before His birth He lieth crucified'. 
 Thou fallen hero, with a man's warm heart. 
 
 That lived and suffered, and was strong to dare: 
 Thou king unconquered, whom not death could fright,- 
 
 Who had the nerve to suffer and forbear. 
 
 " No citizen of these United States .'" 
 
 No cringing coward and betrayer thou, 
 To blacken thy white soul subserviently. 
 
 Taking the empty, base allegiance vow. 
 
 No flags half-mast on fair Columbia's domes ? 
 
 No tribute national to honor thee? 
 If all the North should rend her silken clothes, 
 
 And kiss the ground on penitential knee; 
 If all the crepe within her mighty stores 
 
I LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 Were draped from to town, till earth and sky- 
 Were one black cloud of mourning and despair, 
 
 And all her wardens on the house-tops cry 
 " Woe ! woe !" — she could not add, nor take 
 
 One jot or tittle from thy majesty ! 
 Her fiags, though flouted in high Heaven's face, 
 
 Could not insult us nor dishonor thee. 
 
 Sleep on, thou unpolluted, holy clay ! 
 
 Sleep well, thou friend and father ! free at last 
 To lay aside thy heritage of woe. 
 
 Thy galling mem'ries of a tragic past ! 
 Soft rest thy honored head on Mother Earth, — 
 
 On Southern earth, and crowned with Southern flowers" 
 We take thy sacred body to our hearts, 
 
 And warm and guard it through these tearful hours, 
 Until its final rendering to the tomb. 
 
 Thou art not dead, nor conquered; rest thee sweet, 
 And live eternal in our sun-lit land, 
 
 When flags are rotten at Columbia's feet ! 
 Let every foot of this fair, fertile soil — 
 
 For whose redemption he hath lived and died — 
 Rest free from plough and harrow, while he lies 
 
 In state majestic; no small thing denied 
 In church, nor state, nor commerce to attest 
 
 The personal woe on every loyal head. 
 While incarnated Hope, with folded wings. 
 
 Broods o'er the casket of the sacred dead. 
 
A RIDE, 2z 
 
 A RIDE. 
 
 The calendar said winter, but the air said spring, 
 
 And May laughed in February's face; 
 The wild-plum budded, and the fences were wreathed 
 
 With dewberry blossoms, like lace. 
 The sky leaned down like a blue China bowl 
 
 Not a fleck in its pure transparenc3\ 
 Save a great gold rim in the sun-kissed west, 
 
 Giving tone to the dead serenity. 
 A south wind gathered all the fragrance far and near 
 
 And breathed it on the cheek like a kiss, 
 A great bird soared in the sky cerulean, 
 
 A monarch in those realms of bliss. 
 The prairie was asmile with the open starry eyes 
 
 Of spring beauties, buttercups and blue. 
 Tiny, dainty, fragrant blossoms, too small to name. 
 
 But sweet enough to thrill you through and through. 
 A field-lark whistled 'mong the dead cotton stalks, 
 
 Or cleaved the air with glowing yellow breast 
 Like a stolen dash of gold from the great gold rim 
 
 Over there, in the golden west. 
 All the world was at peace, and the subtle charm crept 
 
 On tip-toe, as it were, into my heart; 
 All bitterness and longing, all repining and regret, 
 
 Seemed from life and my soul so far apart. 
 And I caught God's hand, as it were, and held it warm 
 
 And looked up to the way of life, so sweet, 
 With the fallen, faded, sordid things of this vain world 
 
 All melted in the dust beneath my feet. 
 
24 LONE-STAR. LIGHTS, 
 
 Then I gazed in the eyes of a friend whom I love, 
 
 And saw the same mute gladness shining there; 
 Though we said not a word, each heart knew the truth. 
 
 And that silence was more eloquent than prayer. 
 So the sun dropped down on his couch of red and gold, 
 
 And twilight came in sandals o'er the hill, 
 With her long dun veil trailing on the dewy grass, 
 
 And her finger on her lips, which said " Be still," 
 Till our awed hearts trembled; when, lo ! upon the night 
 
 A mocking-bird poured forth a rhapsody 
 That caught up the silence and shattered it in bits 
 
 Of thrilling, nervous, wildest melody. 
 So the world moves on in the old, prosaic way, 
 
 Only now and then the heavy shadows lift. 
 That the sensitive may know just a foretaste of bliss 
 
 In the heart's world beyond the silver rift. 
 
 Terrell, Tex., Feb. 8, 1890. 
 
DECATUR, [VISE COUNTY, TEXAS. 25 
 
 DECATUR, WISE COUNTY, TEXAS. 
 
 July 23, 1889. 
 
 Once more to the big-hearted land of my birth, 
 
 Once more to the valleys and hills, 
 Once more to the mist on the blue mountain's peak, 
 
 And the sound of the fresh flowing rills ! 
 Once more to the breezes, as soft as the lips 
 
 Of those that we love ! Once again 
 To the kingdom of Nature, the Temple of God, 
 
 Where freedom and fearlessness reign ! 
 
 blue peaks majestic, so near, yet so far, 
 Up close to the warmth of God's smile, 
 
 In the path of the stars, and the calm, heavenly ways, 
 That the storm-tossed wanderer beguile ! 
 
 Oh, peaceful and restful thy solemn diir heights, 
 With the sky bending over serene I 
 
 Oil cooling and dewy thy shadowy sides, 
 With the deep, flowing rivers between ! 
 
 1 long for a season of rest on thy heart; 
 I yearn for a surcease of pain, 
 
 Begot of the pitiful struggle of life, 
 
 And the gall of ambition's rude chain. 
 I want to climb up till my head is awhirl, 
 
 And my limbs are atremble and weak 
 With the effort of climbing, and then to lie down, 
 
 And wait for an angel to seek 
 And to find and comfort me, saying, " Sleep on, 
 
26 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 Wayward child of ambition. Be still, 
 Drink the dews of forgetfulness, lotus, and ease; 
 
 And rest on this far-away hill." 
 I am tired of philosophies, science, and art ; 
 
 I am sick to the soul of desire; 
 I want to be idle in body and mind. 
 
 Never more to regret or aspire. 
 I am tired of books and of people — so tired ! — 
 
 And of church-bells, and bonnets, and " calls ;" 
 I want to do nothing more conventional 
 
 Than a leaf when it withers and falls. 
 I want to lie down in the lush, tender grass, 
 
 With my head on my arms, and my eyes 
 Uplifted to nothingness, tranquil and vague, 
 
 In the soft China blue of these skies, 
 r want to count pebbles, hunt birds' nests and flowers, 
 
 And wade in some rocky-bed stream; 
 I want to do nothing for hours upon hours, 
 
 But vegetate, slumber, and dream. 
 Oh, life is a sorrowful thing at its best 
 
 To those who are keen to its pain. 
 Whose nerves are attuned to a sensitive key, 
 
 To suffer and suffer again; 
 Never deaf to the sound of an every-day sigh, 
 
 Never dull to the sight of a tear; 
 Awake to the deep undercurrent of woe 
 
 That sobs in the century's ear. 
 As the pilgrims of life tread the old beaten track, 
 
 And are patient to stumble and fall 
 By the wayside; — or, what is more pitiful still, 
 
 Never know that they stumble at all. 
 
 But would we go back — we who suffer, but know — 
 To the old bliss of ignorance ? aye. 
 
DECATUR, WISE COUNTY, TEXAS. 27 
 
 To the dull, gross, bucolic, unthrilling, unmoved 
 
 Unfeeling existence ? Not I; 
 Not you, fellow-thinker. " Better a worm, 
 
 And feed on the mulberry leaves 
 Of Daphne, than be a king's guest." So we part; 
 
 So we gather up, sighing, life's sheaves. 
 With the wheat and the tares intermingled therein, 
 
 And, holding them fast, trudge along. 
 As purposeless, helpless, as fanciful, vague, 
 
 As the gist of this fanciful song. 
 
28 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 WHEN THOU ART GONE. 
 
 All gladness from my loving heart is fled, 
 All lightness from my tired, lagging feet ; 
 
 The world is desolate, bright Summer dead, 
 
 With rustling, brown leaves for her winding-sheet I 
 And mournful north winds 'gainst the casements beat, 
 When thou art gone. 
 
 The autumn sun shines on my pallid cheek. 
 But brings no flush of summer roses there : 
 
 rhey blossomed, once, beneath thy ardent gaze, 
 Thy loving gaze, that told me I was fair. 
 All things are stale and desolate, my dear. 
 When thou art gone. 
 
 Come home to bless me with thy loving eyes 
 So beautiful ! One tender glance from thee 
 
 Is worth the heart's blood of all other men. 
 The lightest touch of thy dear hand to me 
 Is bliss divine. My soul goes after thee. 
 When thou art gone. 
 
 Come home : the world is wide, and fair to see ; 
 
 But life is short, — too short to be apart. 
 Come home, beloved one : I cannot bear 
 
 To see thy empty place ; it breaks my heart ! 
 
 Come home : unbidden tears so easy start 
 When thou art eone ! 
 
HELEN HUNT JACKSON'S GRAl^E. 29 
 
 HELEN HUNT JACKSONS GRAVE. 
 
 Snow-bound, snow-crowned, on Cheyenne's lonely height 
 
 She lies and is '" at rest ." the world's rude din 
 Breaks not that frozen silence ; day and night 
 
 The tired worker sleeps, rocked soft within 
 The "peaceful cradle" of her own loved vale, 
 
 Lulled by the plash of waters all the while, 
 And purple mountain mists and slumbrous dale. 
 
 Biding the resurrection of spring's smile, 
 To wake, and throb, and, bursting winter's chain, 
 
 Leap forth to blossom ; when the wild pink rose 
 Puts out its fragrant arms to hug the grave, 
 
 And all its sweet breath to the windward throws. 
 Just she and God possess those sacred heights. 
 
 No noisy tourist, now, with book or knife, 
 Intrudes familiarly upon the dead, 
 
 Who shrank so from intrusion in her life. 
 Just she and Nature, whom she loved so well, 
 
 At whose chaste shrine she breathed cathedral rite 
 On quiet Sabbaths, when gregarious throngs 
 
 Crowded the city churches. Pure and bright 
 (Like to her own fine nature, glowing, warm) 
 
 She ever found that altar, while within 
 Her soul responsive liquid songs were born, 
 
 To bless that world of fretfulness and sin. 
 No marble shaft lifts up its shop-made dome 
 
 To cry in Heaven's face this woman's name, 
 Who humbly called herself a " fallow field," 
 
 Who worked for God and right, not gold and fame. 
 
30 * LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 But ruder, grander, more imperishable far, 
 
 That growing mound piled up by reverent hands, 
 That deathless monument of rock and spar 
 
 That rises like a giant in those lands 
 Of rock-ribbed giants ; each stone eloquent 
 
 Cries, " Lo, we mark a benedictial spot ; 
 Tread lightly, for the ground is holy here," 
 
 Where lies a woman who herself forgot. 
 Her woes of widowhood, and anguish keen 
 
 Of waxen baby fingers, all her own 
 Taken at one fell blow to crush the rose 
 
 Of her sweet heart, before it was full-blown ; 
 A woman who, to help a fallen race, 
 
 Gave "of herself," in Christlike modesty. 
 Toiling the barbarous, stolid tribes among. 
 
 Pointing the way to higher destiny. 
 Dead to all thought but of God's image there 
 
 Degraded, which with her two fragile hands 
 She lifted up, and burnished till it glowed 
 
 As fair and free as grace these Christian lands. 
 A nature rare and radiant, nerves attuned 
 
 To all those subtile thrills of atmosphere, 
 To lights and shadows on the mountain sides. 
 
 To hum of bird and insect, far and near ; 
 Who laid a warm hand on the great world's pulse, 
 
 And felt it throb and quiver, listening low 
 To voice of God and angels all the while, 
 
 Feeling the blue-eyed mountain floweret blow ; 
 Who roamed the canyons, safe from storm and beast, 
 
 Nor frightened from her nest the timid dove ; 
 Whose songs were songs of helpfulness and peace. 
 
 Whose ways were ways of gentleness and love. 
 
 Colorado Springs, Col., iS8q. 
 
IVJLD'PLUM BLOSSOMS. 31 
 
 WILD-PLUM BLOSSOMS. 
 
 There's a blue-bird concert on the old spring branch, 
 When the wild-plum blossoms are ablovv : 
 
 Such a billing and a cooing, 
 
 Such a fussing and a wooing, 
 And a building nests among the branches low ! 
 
 There's a great, big squirming in the insect world, 
 When the wild-plum blossoms are ablow : 
 Such a creeping from the bogs. 
 Such a chirping on dead logs, 
 And a blinking in the sun's warm glow I 
 
 There's a full-dress party on the prairies wide, 
 When the wild-plum blossoms are ablow : 
 
 " Misses Daisy," all in gold. 
 
 And most wondrous to behold ; 
 And " Spring Beauties," striped with crimson, in a row! 
 
 There's a strange, new throbbing, in this heart of mine 
 When the wild-plum blossoms are ablow : 
 "Carpe diem !" is the cry, 
 " While the golden moments fly, 
 
 Ope the door to all the gladness that you know." 
 
 There's a sly dare-devil in this heart of mine, 
 Then the wild-plum blossoms are ablow : 
 
 " It is spring ! spring ! spring !" 
 
 Hear the glad voices sing, 
 " Live and love and smile, — be happy here below !" 
 
32 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 TO JAMES McCARROLL 
 
 Thou gentle, helpful friend, 
 Whom God hath left to keep watch on this shore, 
 
 Nor let thy sweet life end 
 Till thou hast helped a timid wanderer o'er! 
 
 O wise, divining heart, 
 That comprehendeth great things, yet doth smile 
 
 To see the pale blush start 
 That promiseth the full rose, after- while! 
 
 Thou friend of Poet, Sage; 
 Thou sweet familiar in the realms of Art; 
 
 Thou King of Song thyself, 
 With youth perpetual in thy regal heart! — 
 
 What can Death do to thee, 
 But waft thy brightness to a brighter land 
 
 To shine eternally ? 
 I kneel, and kiss thy toiling, aged hand. 
 New York, Oct. 25, 1890. 
 
SANCTUM SANCTORUM. 33 
 
 SANCTUM SANCTORUM. 
 
 I THANK Thee, God, for this sweet inner shrine. 
 
 That's all mine own. No sound can reach so deep, 
 No ear can hear the pulsing of the tides 
 
 Upon the heart-shore, when the breakers sweep. 
 Here I am free, and Love is freer still, 
 
 To stretch warm arms, and bid, with kisses sweet, 
 That other self, that key-note soft and clear, 
 
 Without which life's grand psalm were incomplete. 
 
 No prying eye may read its secret scroll; 
 
 No vile-tongued slander slime its altar o'er; 
 No glaring, noontide scrutiny profane 
 
 The blood veined tracery on its sacred floor. 
 Twin angels guard its portals: fair are they, 
 
 With pinions white, and flaming, keen-edged sword- 
 " Integrity" and " Peace." Not Satan's hosts 
 
 Can enter in unbid, — nor, e'en Thou, Lord! 
 
 I thank Thee for this inner Temple court, — 
 
 This one place where the soul may disarray. 
 And lie down in its godlike nudity, 
 
 Drinking life's nectar, like a child in May, 
 That loiters 'long the star-eyed daisy-path 
 
 Till Spring-time languor creeps into his eyes, 
 His sensuous brain, his laggard limbs, and lo! 
 
 Satiated in the blissful Now, he liesl 
 
34 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 Two windows light this beauteous Temple's court — 
 
 Mine eyes! Though fine their silken, fringed shade, 
 They, too, are mine — impervious to the stare 
 
 Of curious eyes outside. These Thou hast made. 
 I thank Thee, God; and down the corridors 
 
 No echo wakens what my soul may say; 
 What Image glows upon this luminous shrine, 
 
 No power of Art or Science can portray. 
 
 TO THE PICKWICK CLUB. 
 
 (New Orleans.) 
 
 On dit that the club-life is bad, 
 
 A rose-path to pitfalls of vice. 
 Propitious to red chips, dice box, and cocktails — 
 
 All sorts of the "naughty-but-nice." 
 
 That the v^'ay it " counts up " is a sin 
 
 And a shame to Vhomme de fatnille ; 
 Inclines him to yawn at the sight of an urn 
 
 At the head of an every-day meal. 
 
 On dit that the club-man is " fresh," 
 
 Luxurious, lazy, and spoiled; 
 Given over to very late hours, cafc'-noir, 
 
 And snipe fa is an dc'e but half-broiled! 
 
 That he breakfasts in bed ten a.m., 
 
 When the children are all off to school; 
 
 And " dines at the club," coming home in the night, 
 So knows not his own — as a rule. 
 
TO THE PICKWICK CLUB. 35 
 
 I'll confess this " types up" mighty bad, 
 And of some clubs may be all quite true; 
 
 But The Pickwick! — dear me, to think such things of thee 
 Would engulf me in indigo blue. 
 
 Thou majestic, respectable pile 
 
 Of brownstone and solid plate-glass, 
 With wood-work substantial, and carpets dark-hued, 
 
 Soft muffling the footfalls that pass 
 
 Up and down the long corridors, --surely, 
 
 Nothing "lighter" than Blackstone and Pitt, 
 
 Topics national, science, and decent old Port, 
 And grave, Chesterfieldian wit, 
 
 Has startled the echoes in chambers 
 
 So sombre of mien, atmosphere 
 So artistic, and walls lined with rare old book-s'nelves 
 
 Of rosewood, time-worn and severe. 
 
 And yet from thy cellars comes forth 
 
 An old vintage, cob-webbed and divine. 
 Which, opened and quaffed, takes mighty sound iieads 
 
 " Wool-gathering" to heights Apennine; 
 
 That betrays in the most English wil 
 
 A flavor too Frenchy — bizarre 
 Putting twists on the tip of a cotton-king's tongue 
 
 Which have not the least business there. 
 
 But thy green-turtle soup — superfine! 
 
 And thy bruleau — beyond all compare! 
 Thy claret (it's smuggled, I'll wager, off " tramps " 
 
 That ply between our coasts and fair 
 
36 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 Sunny France, and the vineyards of Spain), 
 
 Ports, Sauternes, Madeiras sun-kissed, 
 And a Champagne-frappe whose bewildering wiles 
 
 Not old Merlin himself could resist. 
 
 But three cheers for this excellent 
 
 (Their rotund foster-father's own sons, 
 Who believed in the good things of this mundane sphere, 
 
 And in youth while the sand of life runs)! 
 
 I don't blame them for this blest retreat. 
 
 Where cigars are not under a ban, 
 And "shams" and lace tidies obstruct not the feet; 
 
 And I'd join them — " if I were a man." 
 
 A THRENODY. 
 
 O heart! you and I cannot sit here and sing, 
 For life hath been crowned with a sorrowful thing; 
 All the world is a-weeping, the death-watch a-keeping- 
 We have seen Love die, 
 You and I. 
 
 Like a sudden blue chill on a midsummer's day, 
 When the yellow corn danced in the footsteps of May, 
 His pulses grew cold, his caress not so bold — 
 And we saw Love die. 
 You and L 
 
A THRENODY. 37 
 
 Oh, we hugged him tumultuously up to our heart, 
 We kissed him, and cried, " You and 1 cannot part;" 
 But the kisses were vain, came not warm back again — 
 And we watched Love die, 
 You and I. 
 
 And what is there left in this work-aday world, 
 Since Love hath his white wings of blessedness furled 
 For you and for me ? Just a mute agony — 
 Since we saw Love die, 
 You and I. 
 
 Ah, the silent white lips, erst so warm and so red, 
 
 Now bloodless and smileless, yea, frozen and dead! 
 
 Oh for one human touch! Is it asking too much — 
 
 Since we let Love die, 
 
 You and I ? 
 
 So endeth the lesson; amen! and adieu! 
 'Twas a sweet little Eden in life, all for you; 
 As for me, well-a-day, I can't sing the old way — 
 Since we let Love die. 
 You and I 
 
38 LONE'STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 ROBIN REDBREAST. 
 
 I'm a robin-redbreast, and I've built me a nest 
 
 In the boughs of an old apple-tree, 
 Where the blossoms, snow-white, drift around me at night, 
 
 Just as soft and sweet as can be. 
 I'm a happy old " bach " (and they say, quite a catch), 
 
 And I really did think, for awhile, 
 That I'd find me a wife, whom I'd love as my life, 
 
 And who'd live in the light of my smile. 
 
 But these theories fine, and these castles of mine. 
 
 Which arose 'neath my enraptured eyes. 
 All tumbled to dust, — as such vagaries must, — 
 
 And tumbled to dust in this wise: 
 
 One evening I lay, in my hammock so gay. 
 
 And was trilling a song I had heard. 
 When a voice like a bell on my listening ear fell, 
 
 As it said, " Hear that 'cute little birdi" 
 Then a voice like a drum, with its resonant hum 
 
 (And a very nice voice, by the way). 
 Made reply, " Shoot the bird! let him warble unheard, 
 
 And listen to what I've to say " 
 
 Then I doubled up small in a soft little ball. 
 
 And pretended to be sound asleep; 
 But I winked my left eye, in a manner quite sly. 
 
 And indulged in a curious peep. 
 
KOBIN REDBREAST. 39 
 
 There they were, down below, in the twilight's soft glow, 
 
 A youth and a maiden so fair: 
 He as proud as a king, she a dear little thing. 
 
 With blue eyes, and long golden hair. 
 Now, it's sad to relate, but the old garden gate 
 
 Had all fallen in ruins to the ground; 
 They hiad naught to lean on, so the youth's inanly arm 
 
 Encircled the maid's waist around. 
 
 " Goodness me! let me see," said I, up in the tree, 
 
 " If such really can be the case." 
 Then, said I, up above, " Those two souls are in love: 
 
 It's as plain as the nose on your face!" 
 
 For his eyes were aglow, and his tones soft and low, 
 
 Her white fingers he held in his own, 
 And the look in her eyes, in their shy, glad surprise. 
 
 Would have melted the heart of a stone. 
 He said many a nice thing, and gave her a ring. 
 
 And kissed her, — indeed it is so; 
 And she hung her shy head, blushed a bright, rosy red, 
 
 Blushed, — but still let him kiss her, you know. 
 
 (If I thought Jenny Wren would be half that sweet when 
 
 I tell her my love and my fears. 
 Oh! I'd fly to her bower in the fresh morning hour, 
 
 And pour out my soul in her ears.) 
 
 Well, my fond heart that night almost burst with delight 
 
 When she promised to be his dear wife; 
 And he kissed her again, and to me 'twas quite plain 
 
 That he loved her far more than his life. 
 
40 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 Then he said he must go; but his footsteps were slow, 
 
 And the parting as sad as could be. 
 He passed down the glade in the fast-falling shade, 
 
 And the maiden stood under the tree. 
 
 "Now," said T, "she'll boo-hoo, — the girls always do 
 When their lovers go out of their sight; 
 
 She'll call him her king, and all that sort of thing. 
 And sit mooning here half of the night." 
 
 But the maid gave a laugh, and said " O the soft calf! 
 
 Didn't he swallow my taffy down, though ? 
 Well, I'll wear his new ring, — it's a rather neat thing. 
 
 And shows I've another new beau." 
 Then she lifted her skirt, O the mean little fiirt! 
 
 And went tripping away from my sight ; 
 While I sat there and grieved for that fellow deceived,- 
 
 Wept, and prayed for him, half of the niglit! 
 
 So I'm Robin Readbreast, and I live in my nest, 
 
 Away up in the old apple-tree; 
 I've no use for the girls, lest their soft eyes and curls 
 
 Weave a web and a snare for poor me! 
 
MISUNDERSTOOD. 41 
 
 MISUMDERSTOOD. 
 
 Do you know what it is, on a stormy night, 
 
 To grope down a long, dim hall. 
 With a timid heart, and an outstretched hand 
 
 That touches nothing at all? 
 Do you know what it is, when the throat is parched 
 
 And a fever consumes the brain, 
 To press to the lips an empty cup, 
 
 And quaff, and quaff in vain ? 
 
 Do you know what it is to think you hear 
 
 A loved voice call you sweet. 
 And to run, and find just silence there, 
 
 And your sliadow at your feet ? 
 
 Do you know what it is to dream of one 
 
 You love, and are parted frcjm; 
 To feel the clasp of the dear, warm hands, 
 
 And the gaze of the tender, calm, 
 
 F'amiliar eves ? And to wake and find 
 
 The moonlight lying still 
 On the checkered floor, and the dews of night 
 
 On your brow, so damp and chill ? 
 
 To strain your eyes for a vanished form 
 
 You could have sworn was there, 
 And feel the warmth of a living cheek. 
 
 Pressed up against your hair ? 
 
 Do you know of the dearth of life and hope 
 
 That comes with this silent brood 
 Of helpless sorrows? Then you know 
 
 What it is to be misu-nderstood. 
 
 Fort Worth, July, 1S90. 
 
42 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 DE PROFUNDIS. 
 
 OhI I am tired and my heart is sick, 
 
 My feet are bruised, and the way is long. 
 
 Have mercy. Lord! I grope through trials thick; 
 My poor voice faints, it cannot lift a song. 
 
 The way is long; the stones are hard and sharp — 
 They pierce my feet; and yet I must go on: 
 
 For when I turn with hungry heart and eyes 
 To the dear past, its milestones are all gone. 
 
 No brother pilgrims on this lonely way 
 
 Have met, overtaken, or have passed me by; 
 
 Surely the only thing of life and breath 
 In all this way so desolate, am I ! 
 
 And yet one day the sun slione, and the land 
 Smiled as it stretched before my eager gaze, 
 
 And happy pilgrims beckoned from the heights 
 To me, along those gentle flowery ways. 
 
 Where are thy people, Lord, and where their goal? 
 
 Or where am I ? Have guide-posts false allured, 
 And am I lost in wildernesses dark. 
 
 Whose horrors none but I have thus endured ? 
 
 I am oppressed w'th weight of weary woe; 
 
 The past is dead, the present is a blank; 
 And on the future's twilight misty shore 
 
 I see no signal to a harbor bank. 
 
DE PR0FUNDI3. 43 
 
 I stand like one out in the midst of space, 
 With naught beside, behind, nor yet before. 
 
 Who calls, and stretches out his empty hands. 
 Hearing and touching nothing, evermore. 
 
 Not e'en the footprint of a ghost is there, 
 
 No dim ideal of the days agone: 
 Just space, and silence, and the great Ego, 
 
 Appalling in its entity, alone! 
 
 Have mercy, Lord! If all things else are vain. 
 In pity send despair's last refuge, death. 
 
 What matter if there be, or not, the life 
 
 Beyond the veil of this short space of breath. 
 
 " To be, or not to be" it little boots 
 
 When one is anguished with the life to-day. 
 
 Oh, sweet the thought to still the aching heart, 
 And let to-morrow bring vvhate'er it may. 
 
 Oh, I am tired, and my heart is sick, 
 
 My feet are bruised, and the way is longi 
 
 Have mercy. Lord! The world will never know. 
 Nor feel the loss of this unfinished song. 
 
 Terrell, Aug., 1687. 
 
44 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 TO LILIAN WALLACE BREUSTEDT. 
 
 , (Agkd Onk Month ) 
 
 Thou tiny, mighty, wondrous thing, 
 With bells of heaven still a-ring 
 In thy pink ears, and in thy eyes 
 The glow of summer, God-land skies, 
 Thou baby ! 
 
 O tender little rose-leaf hand, 
 All pink and white, and dimples bland! 
 Thou holdest, in that palm so small, 
 A father's hope, a mother's all. 
 Thou baby ! 
 
 O rosy, wavering, milk breathed mouth, 
 As fragant as a bunch of south 
 Wind-kissed narcissus! in thy smile 
 The sun shines. Much dost thou beguile, 
 Thou baby ! 
 
 O cunning little shell-tint feet ! 
 Beware, — ye stand on heart's-ease, sweet ! 
 On mother-heart, on mother-soul, 
 Beware, be tender, merciful. 
 Thou baby ! 
 
 Smile on, dream on, dear elfin sprite; 
 Yea, cry, and vent thy puny might 
 On mother breast, on grandsire's beard. 
 So only thou may'st live, be spared, 
 Sweet baby ! 
 Waco, Texas. 
 
OPENING OF THE MOON-FLOPVEK. 45 
 
 OPENING OF THE MOON-FLOWER. 
 
 Dedicated to Mrs. Julia Hai.sell, Decatur, Tkxas. 
 
 The sun lay prone upon his bed 
 
 Of gold and crimson in the west ; 
 The glory of his parting smile 
 
 Lay fair on vale and mountain crest. 
 A molten luminosity 
 
 Bathed all the land in amber glow, 
 While up the mountain, step by step, 
 
 Night trailed her shadowy garments slow. 
 A mocking-bird poured out his heart 
 
 Upon the dull ears of the day. 
 And cattle on the peaceful hills 
 
 Lowed as they took the homeward way. 
 A holy hush held all the world 
 
 Spell-bound, as though the finger tips 
 Of "Silence" touched the drowsy lids, 
 
 And pressed the mute but quivering lips 
 Of life. A passing breeze sang low, 
 
 As though afraid to break the spell ; 
 And half-guessed, in the hollow glade, 
 
 Came soft the tinkle of a bell ; 
 While deeper slept the day-god on, 
 
 And duller grew his crimson bed, 
 And lower down the western sky 
 
 Sank in the leaden clouds his head. 
 While, rising calmly from her couch. 
 
 The pale moon left her eastern bower, 
 
46 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 Turning her silver chalice down, 
 
 Pouring its wine on shrub and flower, 
 Breathing her thrilling, potent breath 
 
 Upon her children slumbering there. 
 All day upon the trellis side 
 
 The moon-flowers, wondrous, wondrous fair! 
 They felt the mother-spirit brood, 
 
 They thrilled in breathless ecstasy. 
 They siglied and moved, and smiling oped 
 
 In matchless grace and purity; 
 As though a hand invisible 
 
 Had caught their waxen, snowy leaves, 
 Drawing apart the petals light 
 
 As sea-foam, softer than the breeze, 
 And whiter than the mountain snow, 
 
 Where nothing darker than God's smile 
 Hath touched it, where but angels' feet 
 • Have pressed and blessed it all the while. 
 O flower incomparably fair ! 
 
 O blossom of the gods divine ! 
 Are white souls stirring in thy depths? 
 
 May not thy whiteness whiten mine ? 
 Ah ! emblem of the spirit's birth. 
 
 When day and turmoil pass, when pain 
 And passion die, when mortal lips 
 
 Breathe in the breath of God again, — 
 So may another sunset come. 
 
 When life's hot noon hath passed away 
 So may our white souls bloom again, 
 
 Responsive, at the close of day, 
 To Love mysterious, and divine, 
 
 That rules the great world night and day, 
 That heals a broken, contrite heart. 
 
 And holds the planets in their way. 
 
tNCHANTED. 47 
 
 ENCHANTED. 
 
 When thou and I stand face to face 
 In God's clear sunlight, smiling, 
 
 I trust thine eyes, believe thy words, 
 Yield to thy laugh beguiling. 
 
 When thou art gone, alas! my faith 
 
 Goes sadly groping after, 
 Through quagmires deep of grave mistrust. 
 
 Where rings no echoed laughter. 
 
 What means it, dear ? Why this at least, — 
 If thou would'st faithful prove me, 
 
 Go not at all, stay on and smile, 
 And I'll smile back, and love thee. 
 
43 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 SYMPHONY NUMBER SIX (HAYDN). 
 
 As Played by the Elgin Band at Fort Worth Spring Palace, 
 May 26, 1890. 
 
 Like thistle-down, O Music ! on tliy wings 
 
 Supernal mounts tlie shackled human heart, 
 Into that upper aura, fine and rare, 
 
 Where alUhings clogging, gross, fall swift apart, 
 Tossing the loosened soul to heights sublime 
 
 O'er clouds and planets, far from land or seas, 
 To soar, with cherubim and seraphim, 
 
 Atremble, in the zone of Pleiades. 
 
 O Music! born of voiceless soul-desire 
 
 To lift the earthy thoughts from mortal breast, 
 And sift them, like snow-mists, on Jura's sides. 
 
 Leaving the most ethereal, purest, best. 
 O toiling, grovelling world of work-a-day, 
 
 Creep, creep from out my senses and my eyes; 
 Leave not one murky film obscuringly 
 
 To tinge the blue of Fancy's summer skies. 
 
 Soft rest these tired orbs on swaying moss. 
 
 That sings of shady swamps and cypress bowers; 
 
 Sweet steals the balmy, soporiferous breath 
 
 Of new-made hay, and fresh, dew-laden flowers. 
 
SYMPHONY NUMBER SIX (HAYDN). 49 
 
 Dim, dim as sea-foam when the moon goes down, 
 And distant grow the faces, laughs, and sighs 
 
 Around me: off in other realms I float, 
 And trail my fingers on the mystic skies. 
 
 I lay my cheek against the velvet blue, 
 
 So cool, so deep, so beautifully .pure. 
 While angel wings, a-flutter, waft my breath. 
 
 Such ecstasy no mortal can endure; — 
 Back to the rude world's din, the madding crowd' 
 
 Back to the sodden earth-land, once again! 
 Was that the theme's finale? Ah! thank God 
 
 For such a sweet surcease of life and pain. 
 
50 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 FOREBODING. 
 
 Last night I idly drew thy face 
 
 Against the lamp-lit wall, 
 Outlined upon a paper white 
 
 A profile, — that was all. 
 And yet, to-day, as here it lies 
 
 Upon m}' desk, so still, — 
 That silent, calm, familiar face, — 
 
 I feel a sudden chill. 
 I think, " So would my darling lie 
 
 If he were cold and dead: 
 The fine-cut, sensitive, sweet mouth; 
 
 The broad, white, smooth forehead; 
 So lie the long dark lashes on 
 
 The pallid cheek." Ah! me! 
 It is a gruesome fancy, dear, 
 
 And fraught with agony. 
 I cannot read, nor write, nor think, 
 
 With thy dead face so near. 
 ' I am a foolish creature ?" — Yes, 
 
 A woman is a queer, 
 An unsolved problem, and her nerves 
 
 Sensitively attuned 
 To draughts blown from the spirit-world; 
 
 Too easy, far, to wound; 
 But easy, too, to cheer and thrill. 
 
 So, chide me not, for this; — 
 It is a foolish fancy. Well, 
 
 Dispel it — with — a kiss. 
 
ODE TO A PERSIAN CHARM. 5' 
 
 ODE TO A PERSIAN CHARM. 
 
 Thy fragrance brings to me 
 No dreams of spicy Ceylon's isle, 
 No dark-eyed Houri's balmy smile, 
 No languid, lotus-blossomed Nile, 
 
 No breeze of Araby; 
 
 But glow of loved eyes, 
 And touch of hand more dear to me 
 Than all the wealth of Araby, 
 And kisses warm as noontide sea 
 
 Beneath low, tropic skies. 
 
 Thou art, or wert, a toy 
 Picked up at random by his hands, 
 Because thou cam'st from distant lands,- 
 A message waft from India's strands 
 
 To a sad, thoughtful boy; 
 
 But now an idol thou. 
 Because that thou hast laid among 
 The homely garments for so long, 
 Breathing his breath, in sigh or song, 
 
 Therefore to thee I bow. 
 
 Thy odorous face I kiss, 
 And dream it is his soft brown eyes, 
 So full of mute but glad surprise. 
 Where love unspoke, yet speaking, lies,- 
 
 And this to me is bliss. 
 
52 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 INSOMNIA. 
 
 O THOSE quiet hours of night, 
 When the fire-light flickers low, 
 
 And the grotesque shadows dance 
 On the walls — above — below, 
 
 All around the tensioned sight; — 
 
 O those quiet hours of night! 
 
 O those solemn hours of night, 
 When old Time lies dead between 
 
 The morrow and the yesterday, 
 While the watching hours lean 
 
 Shivering with damp and fright; — 
 
 O those solemn hours of night! 
 
 O those awful hours of night, 
 
 When grim darkness wraps the sea, 
 
 And the puny soul is awed 
 By the world's immensity. 
 
 And the spirit cowers, afright; — 
 
 O those awful hours of night! 
 
 O those lingering hours of night. 
 When the clock's unchanged refrain 
 
 With each hard, metallic click 
 Drives a nail into the brain. 
 
 And t^he spine is drawn so tight; — 
 
 O those lingering hours of night! 
 
INSOMNIA. S3 
 
 O those pulsing hours of night, 
 
 When the eyelids open wide, 
 And the Spirit and the Flesh 
 
 Stand by Self, on either side, 
 While Self pleads to stay their flight; — 
 O those pulsing hours of night! 
 
 O those witching hours of night, 
 
 When the loosened spirit stands, 
 Tip-toe, on the mountain top, 
 
 Gazing into future lands, 
 Striving hard to wing its flight; — 
 O those witching hours of night! 
 
 Oh! those ghastly hours of night, 
 
 When the ghosts of loved dead 
 Come on noiseless wings of air, 
 
 Hovering o'er the fevered head, 
 Quick'ning heart and brain and sight; — 
 O those ghastly hours of night! 
 
 O those purging hours of night, 
 
 When the poignant conscience wakes, 
 
 And the lightest deeds of day 
 Take on darkest, vilest shapes. 
 
 Till God's voice cries "Stop!" outright; — 
 
 O those purging hours of night! 
 
 O those blessed hours of night, 
 
 When the o'erwrought body feels 
 Sweet exhaustion coming on, 
 
 And the brain, chaotic, reels, 
 While Sleep's fingers bind the sight; — 
 O those blessed hours of night! 
 
54 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 ' HE GIVETH HIS BELOVED SLEEP." 
 
 In Memory of Mabel Terkeli.. 
 
 Sweet child, they only of the earth, 
 
 Earthy, have called thee dead. 
 Blessed beyond compare thy sleep, — 
 
 Thy peaceful, sunny head 
 Low cushioned on the mother-heart 
 
 Of silent Earth, thy hands 
 Soft folded on thy guileless breast, 
 
 Till, on the silver strands 
 Of God's own shore of Blessedness, 
 
 Thy gentle feet may rove, 
 Thy gladdened eyes behold His face, 
 
 Thy heart beat to His love : 
 Never to dream life's fitful dream. 
 
 And, waking, feel the pain 
 Of prescience, that 'tis sad to wake — 
 
 That thou wouldst sleep again. 
 
 Brave little heart, that so aspired 
 
 To tread life's higher ways ; 
 That turned to books and usefulness, 
 
 Away from childish plays : 
 Quaint little woman, with a head 
 
 Away beyond thy years ; 
 And eyes anticipative, grave 
 
 With unshed mother tears 
 
" HE GIl/ETH HIS BELOVED SLEEP." 55 
 
 Over life's pathos. Ah ! too well 
 
 Thy sensitive young soul 
 Sounded the world's great depths of woe, 
 
 And felt the sorrowful. 
 God lent thee for a little while 
 
 To bless our earth. Thy face 
 Is here forever, and thy ways, 
 
 Shining with Christ-like grace, 
 Linger to light the rugged path 
 
 Our weary feet must tread. 
 Thou art not " gone " nor " taken hence • 
 
 Sweet child, thou art not " dead." 
 
 Terrell, Te.x. 
 
56 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 A MOOD. 
 
 New York, Sk.ptember i6, 1890. 
 
 The day is gray, and my life is gray. 
 
 A white mist lieth low 
 On grimy roof and attic pane, 
 
 And winds blow to and fro, 
 Dirge-like. O God ! I am so sad ; 
 Smile through Thy clouds, and make me glad. 
 
 Whence comes this over-tempered steel 
 Of brain and nerve, that makes me weak ? 
 
 A creature of the winds and rains. 
 
 Which earthward roaming spirits seek 
 
 To lay on heart and eyes and lips 
 
 Their ghastly, icy finger-tips? 
 
 Out on the broad Atlantic wave, 
 
 What desolation in the skies ! 
 No sunset bars, no silver path 
 
 Oped up to gates of Paradise ! 
 
 dreary stretch of leaden sea ! 
 My kindred soul goes out to thee. 
 
 1 want no bright nor gladsome thing, 
 
 No crown, nor gold, nor worldly fame : 
 In this bleak heart there is no room 
 
 For any guest of cheerful name. 
 I'd yield to Fate's relentless frown, 
 And sink full fifty fathoms down 
 
A MOOD. 57 
 
 In those gray waters, where is peace, 
 
 And no awakening with the morn, 
 To groan, and heave the old load up 
 
 On shoulders that are tired, and torn, 
 And bleeding. Christ, is aught so sweet 
 As death — that restfulness complete ? 
 
 " To sit is better than to stand, 
 
 To lie is better than to sit. 
 To sleep is better than to lie ; 
 
 And death is only sleep," — to wit, 
 I would be dead ! I reason so, 
 I see the way — but dare not go ! 
 
 ***** 
 
 Peace ! Peace ! Look up, O soul supine ! 
 
 What golden glinting in the west I 
 It is the sunset, fair and clear ; 
 
 At close of day there cometh rest. 
 Quick ! fling the lattice and the door ; 
 Drink in, O heart, life's balm once more. 
 
58 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 "UNAVAILABLE?" 
 
 '■ Not print my poems for the Eastern mart ?" 
 Because the world is busy? — will not hear 
 
 The sweet songs I have wrought them, brought them, aye, 
 Across a continent, — they will not hear ? 
 Then I am desolate. 
 
 Why, in my heart are prairie breezes, fresh 
 
 And cool and soft as loving mother-hand 
 On fevered children's brows, and musical 
 
 As harps ^Eolian in Summer-land, — 
 Those prairie winds ! 
 
 I thought the great tired world would be so glad 
 
 To rest awhile, and listen, by the way, 
 In attic rooms, and sun-baked, mortared walls ; 
 
 And hot, dry feet on cobble-stones all day, — 
 Poor, toiling things ! 
 
 But, '* It is busy ?" Oh ! and I have flowers 
 
 Just as I plucked them on the sunny hills 
 Of Texas, — fresh, dew-sprinkled, sweet ; 
 
 And caught up sparkles of the rocky rills, — 
 Such flowers and rills ! 
 
 " They will not hear?" Ah me ! 'twould do us good. 
 The singer and the listener. What were life 
 
 When songs and breeze and flowers and rills are dead, 
 And " Mind " and " Money" wage perpetual strife ? 
 Poor, foolish world ! 
 
" UNAVAILABLE?" 59 
 
 Where Hope and Faith stand fainting side by side, 
 And Greed and Gain press boldly to the fore ; 
 
 And gray-haired young men grasp and cheat and scheme ; 
 And old-eyed women, young, look young no more? 
 Poor, hunted things ! 
 
 Oh ! to uplift them in my strong, kind arms. 
 And bear them to the sweet hills and the vales, 
 
 The woods and prairies, and the rippling rills. 
 
 And voice of bird and cattle in the dales, — 
 
 Stern, forceful arms ; 
 
 And eyes steadfast, and voice invincible. 
 
 That says " Lie still until the fever pass ; 
 You are most ill, and do not understand. 
 
 Here, press your temples on the dewy grass, — 
 Poor, aching head ! 
 
 Quaff deeply these sweet waters, clear as light, 
 
 And breathe the tonic of the ripening hay ; 
 Drink in the warmth of sunshine and blue sky. 
 
 And learn to live and love this simpler way, — 
 This gentler way." 
 
 " But they are busy, and they will not hear?" 
 
 Ah me ! my yearning heart is fit to break : 
 " They will but hear of Tariff, Race, and " Bills "? 
 
 They turn their heads and fold their arms, nor take 
 One little flower ?" 
 
 "Forgive them.. Father, for they do not know !" 
 
 Praise God, the flowers bloom new each golden spring; 
 
 The south winds come back from the low, warm Gulf, 
 And songs born of the soul will wake and sing, 
 And I will hear. 
 
6o LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 Some day, the world will not so busy be ; 
 
 Some day these iron chains will rust and break, 
 And they will fall. Then will I lift them up, 
 
 And sing again, for Love's and Pity's sake, — 
 And they will hear. 
 
 Yet I am sad to see the pretty wreck 
 
 Of this year's blossoms, which no one will buy, 
 
 All wilted in my arms. Well, never mind, — 
 God does not charge me for them. He and I 
 Are quite good friends. 
 
 Would'st know the reason ? Listen, very soft 
 (The world would laugh ; but it is really true),- 
 
 Because I take His breezes, rills, and flowers. 
 And weave them into daisy-chains for you ! 
 
 Nev/ York, Sept., 1890. 
 
TEXAS PRAIRIES. 6i 
 
 TEXAS PRAIRIES. 
 
 I. 
 
 I LOVE the prairies in the early spring; 
 
 I know the promise in the dun bare sod 
 That lifteth up its seared face to the sun, 
 
 Waiting the resurrecting smile of God. 
 For long, drear weeks, a slumberous discontent 
 
 Stirs 'neath tlie dead grass, — like a wakened soul 
 Striving toward self-redemption; furrows break 
 
 Along the thawing surface, and there roll 
 Off toward the gulieys rivulets of tears, 
 
 Cold tears — but iris-lint with sheer delight 
 At broken barriers; while soft below, 
 
 The eager insect world creeps to the light. 
 Then roUeth gray clouds to their northern home, 
 
 Leaving blue rifts of heaven in between; 
 Then riseth warm mists from the Mexic Gulf, 
 
 Floating in white flecks on the azure sheen; 
 Then singeth low winds from the southern coast, 
 
 With dash of oleander and peach bloom 
 Fresh in the face; while from the distant wood 
 
 Cometh the woodpecker's insistent " boom!" 
 Now April taketh on a fickle mood, 
 
62 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 And dark-gray clouds drape all the smiling sky, 
 A sultry langour steals into the air, 
 
 And all the zephyrs in profound sleep lie. 
 Warm rains descend as silently as tread 
 
 Of dove's feet on a meadow; day and night, 
 That fine, soft drizzle plieth on the earth. 
 
 Nor giveth hint of silver linings bright. 
 When lo! at sunset, long, red slanting bars 
 
 Lean from the west, and clasp the belted zone 
 Of zenith and horizon; and gold glints 
 
 Flash on the window-panes and belfry-stone. 
 A mocking-bird, in some sequestered bower. 
 
 Pours out a joyous, rapturous roundelay; 
 So falls the curtain on old Winter's bier, — 
 
 So lifts the curtain on sweet Spring's birthday. 
 When morning breaks, lo! all the sodden earth 
 
 Is carpeted with blossoms, blue and white, 
 Purple and yellow, — set in emerald 
 
 Of new-born grasses, tender, dewy-bright. 
 A pale narcissus noddeth on her stem 
 
 So pink and fragile in the wind's rude clutch. 
 And gold-heart buttercups coop up their leaves. 
 
 Greedy for sunshine, saying, '' See how much 
 Of God-love we can hold!" then bob their heads 
 
 And closed their timid eyes, half-chilled, afraid 
 Of every ripple in the south-wind's laugh. 
 
 Of every white cloud's temporary shade. 
 
 So passeth childhood, full of fits and starts. 
 
 With hope unbounded, — like the prairie's ring, — 
 
 All birth and promise, sunshine, dew, and flowers!— 
 I love the prairies in the early spring! 
 
TEXAS PRAIRIES, 63 
 
 11. 
 
 I dread the prairies in midsummer days, 
 
 When fruitage rots with overmellowing; 
 When wild flowers spread precocious, droutli-forced leaves, 
 
 Then fall lamenting, stricken, withering. 
 I dread the long curled waves of burning heat 
 
 That quiver, palpitating, near the ground, 
 Where field-larks cower, panting, open-mouthed. 
 
 Dying because no cooling pond is found. 
 When thirsty cattle stand in ripened hay 
 
 Knee-deep, and low across the dreariness, 
 Answered in sympathy unworded, dumb, 
 
 Pathetic in its patient helplessness. 
 When fierce siroccos sweep the red-hot sands 
 
 In blinding eddies o'er the sun-baked ponds. 
 And cacti— thriving salamander-like — 
 
 Thrust forth their hardy, purple-fruited fronds. 
 
 So panteth Life's high noon, intensified. 
 
 Forgetful of the spring when Life was fair, 
 
 Unheedful of the winter when Life dies!— 
 I dread the prairies in midsummer glare! 
 
 in. 
 
 I like the prairies in the autumn days, 
 
 When gold and russet glint the frosted grass. 
 When long warm sunbeams lie close to the earth, 
 
 Kissing the leafy brown pools as they pass. 
 I like the tall broom-weeds all silvered o'er 
 
 Like carven fretwork on Italian vase 
 Of blue enamel, — 'gainst the azure sky, 
 
 Outlined along the low bank's muddy base. 
 
64 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 I like the dark, kaleidoscopic line 
 
 Of wild geese trending southward, in the lead 
 Of first blue norther; and the red sumachs 
 
 Which, wounded, 'gainst the thicket lean to bleed. 
 I like the low wail in the northwest wind 
 
 Fresh from the Rockies, and the snow-clad plain; 
 I like the crunching of the crackled ice 
 
 Thin as a wine-glass is, just after rain. 
 I like the plover's piping, and the clear, 
 
 Soft " bob-white!" of the partridge in the grass; 
 And wild duck sailing on the steely ponds, 
 
 Their green necks scintillating as they pass. 
 
 So resteth Life, at harvest-time, when Peace 
 Sings in the heart, and fretful dreams allays, 
 
 And vain, ambitious longings, and regrets! — 
 I like thr prairies in the autumn days! 
 
 IV. 
 
 I fear the prairies when old Winter comes. 
 
 And smites and sears them with his upas breath 
 Of ice and silence; and flings out his pall 
 
 Of snow, and hisses in the wind's voice " Death!' 
 I fear those great expanses, — solemn, white, 
 
 And rigid as a mortal body wrapped 
 In linen shroud; with stiffened feet below. 
 
 And pulseless hands on pulseless bosom lapped. 
 I hear the lone, lean wolf's appalling cry, 
 
 I see the wild-cat crouch where rabbits pass, 
 I hear the night-owl shriek despairingly. 
 
 And starving cattle crunch the juiceless grass. 
 I see the long, dun hay all southward bend 
 
TEXAS PRAIRIES. . 65 
 
 Before the blizzard's sweep, and shivering, sigh. 
 I see the dull sheet-iron curtain shake, 
 
 Back of the pale sun, on the leaden sky. 
 I see no fair Beyond; no golden West, 
 
 No rosy East! The sun seems endless set, 
 While up against the north stands gaunt Remorse, 
 
 And up against the south, black-veiled Regret! 
 
 So cometh winter in the aspiring heart. 
 
 When sets the sun of Hope, and Faith sublime, 
 
 When temples crumble and illusions fade! — 
 1 dread the prairies in the winter-timel 
 
66 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 A THANKSGIVING POEM, 
 
 Now, while the Northern world lies half asleep 
 And half awake, in Indian summer's haze, 
 
 Smiling, yet listless, like a rosy child 
 
 Just wakened in the firelight's dazzling blaze; — 
 
 Now, while the bright logs crackle merrily, 
 
 Texas, I'll "toss a bumper off," to thee! 
 
 Now, while the north winds strum upon the pane, 
 And Jack Frost steals on tiptoe o'er the land, 
 
 Tossing the flecks of carmine on the leaves. 
 From off the palette, in his reckless hand, 
 
 (Tipping my cheeks — and nose — right saucily!) 
 
 Texas, I'll lilt a brave " hurrah!" for thee! 
 
 Now, while the happy " Yankee " families 
 Rejoice about the gay Thanksgiving board, 
 
 With thought on roasted fowl and pumpkin pie 
 (And eyes uplifted to the bounteous Lord), — 
 
 While they give thanks for their prosperity, 
 
 Texas, I'll breatfie an offering for thee! 
 
 Thou God who ruleth in the North and South, 
 And keepeth in the hollow of Thy hand 
 
 Thine own, in spirit,— whatsoe'er they be 
 In politics, — in all Thy ransomed land, — 
 
 On my heart's glowing altar, fair to see, 
 
 I lift my sunny home-land up to thee! 
 
A THANKSGIVING POEM. 67 
 
 Bless all the people in her sunlit ways, 
 From dark Red River to the Gulf below, 
 
 From Rio Grande to the blue Sabine, 
 
 From slope magnolian to Panhandle snow,— 
 
 On all the ground that Texas foot doth press 
 
 I, kneeling, call thy grace and tenderness! 
 
 From Mem'ry's urn I lift the silver lid,— 
 I smell the fragrance of the prairies wide. 
 
 And low, sweet valleys, where the fertile earth 
 Lies, since the harvest, resting, sanctified 
 
 By garnered use! I almost catch the breath 
 
 Of late peach-blossoms, lured to certain death 
 
 By fickle Autumn, donning Spring's attire 
 
 Of mellow winds, and new, green tender grass, -- 
 
 And silly wild-flowers, on the lowly sod, 
 
 Kissed into blushes as bold sunbeams pass! — 
 
 By mock-bird's song, and bluejay's impudence. 
 
 Tattling his sweet fibs on the old rail fence! 
 
 I yearn for home! my quick-chilled, thin, blue blood 
 Shrinks from the winter, in this dreary land 
 
 Of Ice and snow! 'Tis Death's touch, to the lijis 
 Of all the fingers on each busy hand! 
 
 The sun seems frozen in the light of day, 
 
 And sharp winds whistle from the leaden Bay! 
 
 Vet not in vain I sought this wondrous East, 
 
 In scope, resources, and its wide demand 
 For Science, Literature, Ideas, Art, 
 
 Gauged fairly, come they from whatever land! 
 So, grateful, loving, clasp I warm hands here, 
 But "heart goes back to Dixie," ever deai ! 
 
68 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 FRAGMENT FROM A ROMAN TRAGEDY. 
 
 Dedicated to my Friend S. M. Lazarus, The Original and 
 Only " Fabian," Terrell, Texas. 
 
 Scene — A cdl or dungeon, containing a bed and a table, on which btirns an 
 antique lamp. Fabian, seated in t?tediiatio)i, soliloquizes. 
 
 And this is I, Fabian, who, ten short weeks ago, trod 
 ga} ly on the air of Forum, Campus Martius, and the Baths! — 
 Fabian, whom kings and Romans envied, whom women and 
 the gods did love; whose haughty mien bade higher titles 
 stand, nor e'en so much as brush his garment's hem; whose 
 tutored eye but caught the swift-winged glance of maid or 
 matron, and smiles, like moonlight on Campania, broke, — 
 blushes like spilled Falerian wine on damask snow; whose 
 odorous locks Hyperion might have craved; whose lightest 
 word held captive 'trothed or spouse, hanging upon his tones 
 with nectar-melting, passion-breathing lips, like drunken bees 
 on Colchian honeycombs! 
 
 Fabian! who at the Saturnalian feasts but cast an eye 
 on gladiator's brawn, and said "So! good!" and straightway 
 sesterces on sesterces piled, like Pelion on Ossa, — betting high 
 odds on such, and saying, " Fabian hath called him good. 
 Forsooth, the gods attend on Fabian's choice; he wins!" 
 
 Fabian, whose lightest finger-tips, laid in a woman's palm, 
 sent thrill on thrill to chase the roses o'er her rounded cheek, 
 
FRAGMENT FROM A ROMAN TRAGEDY. 69 
 
 — like doves that shadow on the sand along the tawny Tiber; 
 whose voice the consuls and the fathers heard, and smiled 
 concessions in th' affairs of state! — aye, Fabian, the god of 
 Lucia's heart, keeper of her sweet soul, ethereal, fine, that, 
 quivering in the rude world's clutch, shrank and escaped, on 
 pinions of Aurora, to the skies! 
 
 Lucia, my maiden with the tender eyes, the fragrant lips 
 so sensitive, the silken hair, and clear white skin, — like gleam 
 of marble from Pentelicus! 
 
 Lucia, who smiled, and all the earth grew radiant; whose 
 airy feet on blossoms gently pressed, just bruised their subtle 
 odors as she passed; whose taper fingers held the reins of 
 Love, Ambition, and the heart's desires, guiding, restraining, 
 comforting, until methought earth's ball Olympus, and my- 
 self thereon! 
 
 Lucia, who looked into my eyes, that evening 'neath the 
 moon, and said, " I love thee, Fabian!" and all the gods did 
 lean from Jove's high mount and say, "She loves thee, Fa- 
 bian!" 
 
 But Lucia's dead! — aye, aye, she's very dead! Hence these 
 white hairs that Sorrow hath defaced with ignominious 
 semblance of old age! She's dead, I say, I know, I feel; and 
 vet the heart incredulous, defiant, cries, "And what is 
 dead?" 
 
 I know: the dead are cold. Lucia was warm as sun-kissed 
 ceas that swooning lie within the red-hot arms of Sirius — 
 as warm and languid as lily-leaves upon the slumbrous 
 Nile. 
 
 The dead are still ! They answer not wiien loved ones call; 
 they sigh not, thrill not, nor responsive smile; and Lucia all 
 atremble was with life's red wine, youth's fire and move- 
 ment! Aye, the dead are gone eternal from our sight!— they 
 lie, with worms and hideous insects, in the nether earth, while 
 flowers bloom on above, seductive! Liars, she is i.ot there! 
 
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 Ye gods bear witness that she is not there! but here — here, 
 on this fond heart, her sunny head low drooped, her yielding, 
 pulsing body 'gainst my own! 
 
 Ha! the old trick; and yet how real it seemed! These 
 ghosts play havoc with a strong man's brain, e'en though it 
 be a timid maiden's wraith! 
 
 Now reason, Fabian, thus and thus. Take out the gleam 
 ot madman from thine eye, the painful corrugations from 
 thy brow. There, fold thy wild hands thus, and think. Such 
 things can be— have been. Ah! that thou too well know'st. 
 
 Why, man, thy Lucia was but mortal, and she died: that's 
 all there is to say. A fever fell upon her tender frame; 'twas 
 strong and greedy, slie was young and weak. It sucked her 
 life-blood up, blanched the fair skin; the lustrous eye did 
 dim. When life went out, she lay upon thy heart, which still 
 beats on, unmindful of the fact that it hath echoed pulses 
 from the other shore! 
 
 So strange a thing is life, tenacious of itself! The heart 
 breaks, the soul sickens, aye, the hair grows white, torpid the 
 blood, and yet we live; that is, breathe, laugh, and cry; eat, 
 drink and sleep; and wake because there's nothing makes us 
 die. 
 
 So Lucra died, — as any mortal may, — and she was buried. 
 There the trouble lay. I could not leave her tomb! — my 
 heart's best chords were there, twined in and out, between the 
 slim, cold fingers in that grave; and when they raised me up, 
 and bore my fainting body hence, all those chords snapped: 
 the little, clinging fingers would not yield, and they, the wise 
 fools, said, "It was the brain. Poor Fabian is mad!" 
 
 Ha! ha! a wondrous joke, indeed! Fabian mad! a ram- 
 bling idiot he — the sanest, proudest Roman of them all. 
 
 And, ha! ha! ha! the ayes did have it too, and locked him 
 up within this madman's cell. 
 
 'Twas horrible at first! but after-while the force of habit 
 
FRAGMENT FROM A ROMAN TRAGEDY. 71 
 
 softened agony. Indeed, where is the use in being free, 
 when a man's soul is prisoned in a tomb ? 
 
 Ah! Fate is kind. My Lucia comes ofttimes: when night 
 and darkness guard the door, she noiseless comes, and all the 
 gloomy distance rosy grows; these walls recede, and once 
 again we stand beneath the stars, whose pure light lies 
 like benediclial smile of god and cherubim. Her garments 
 white are 'round me, and her breath, like zephyrs from the 
 vale of Cashmere, fragrant, warm, blows on my cheek. 
 
 Her tender eyes beam soft yet clear into mine own, and 
 sweet lips say, "I love thee, Fabian." 
 
 Ah! vile, triumphant demons! when I awake, clasping the 
 poisoned air, or clinging to the cold, bare walls, I shrfek! — I 
 shriek and curse. Why not ? And then the keepers sigh and 
 say, " Poor lunatic!" And so, you see, I'm mad: yes, past all 
 doubt or cavil, I am mad. 
 
 Oh! had they known enough of man and love to leave me 
 on her grave, till death and I had fought the battle out! 
 
 Why, I was young, and life would, after-while, have poured 
 some balm into my hungry heart, to feed upon till chance 
 had called me to her side on high. 
 
 But, gods of Caesar! how I prate while Time is rushing on 
 his winged steeds toward day! This little steel [produces 
 dagger^ shall be my soul's swift chariot to the gods! 
 
 It was a very madman's trick indeed that hath at last 
 seduced this dagger from the wary guard I He held it in his 
 hand unconscious, wliile T, in mood most sane, talked feel- 
 ingly of war and foul conspiracies: how Rome was bleeding 
 in the clutch of tyrants; of Cataline, Caesar, Scylla. Aye, 
 how very sanely did I prate of grave suspicions, seditions, 
 bondage for the poor, till he grew frantic, clapped his for- 
 gotten steel upon the table here, and, grasping both my hands, 
 swore hot faith in my sanity, abuse, and pledged his succor 
 with th' authorities! 
 
72 LONE-STAR LIGHTS. 
 
 Ah! like a tigress when she creeps upon her prey, so crept 
 my swift hand to the weapon; then, concealing safe within 
 my tunic thus, I started, listened, thrust him from the room, 
 explaining someone coming, and the fear that his sympathy 
 and my design might be betrayed. 
 
 Ha! Fabian, well and boldly done! Ho! Death, another 
 offering at thy shrine! Soft — turn the light so! Aye, but thou 
 art keen, my slender beauty; thou'lt find the quickened heart, 
 like flash of Jove's own fire, and ope the way to Lucia! 
 \^Stabs himself.^ 
 
 Sweet, I come. Reach down thy gentle hand and take mine 
 own; 'tis dreary dying in a madman's cell. Oh! soft the 
 moonlight on the Tiber lies, and soft thy smile when sweet 
 lips say, '' I love thee, Fabian!" Hence come I, — and the gods 
 forgive! The world was black without thee! Now, thy — 
 lips! — say — once again — " I — love- thee — Fa — " \^He dies.'\ 
 
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